Why did I do this? Well, it took less than 2 hours, I'm hoping. Ha...ah. I messed up the end, but eh, I dunno how to tween...shapes. TWEEN THE SHAPES! The song in the background is "Plaything" by Plone. So obviously I didn't take a nap. I was hard at work, perfecting my flash skills (HAHAHAHAHA please laugh, it will make it less painful) and this is what my mum was talking about today...that I spend too much time on the computer when I could be studying PHYSICS or something. I'd probably fall asleep doing physics. Well I feel like I'll fall asleep soon anyway...

...WHAT IN THE...what, I thought I was considerably happy today, but what the hell is going on?! I placed an order an insound nine days ago, and I've been wondering what is taking so long. And according to my order history, I didn't even order it! But I got an e-mail saying I ordered it...so did I or didn't I? Ugh, I guess I'll have to e-mail them, while in the mean time I've been checking the mailbox every day hoping to see something for no reason, and it's not like I get any normal mail...

ARGH that annoying girl is sending me a million e-mails! I don't know if she knows what she's doing, but she'll send all these e-mails with NOTHING in them and then other e-mails that say the same thing. ...................................yeah today sucked.

Why was today not such a bad day at school? Well seeing this has something to do with it (I guess Stanley does exist! That excites me. And he resembles a creepier Phil!...well, that's not as exciting). WHAT HAPPENED TO THOM?! Oh, he's so funny looking, in a nice way. He looks like he could be a lumberjack...I'm a lumberjack and I'm okay, I sleep all night, I work all day...

Oh, anyway. Ah...during Russian, we went on the Internet to do research for a Russian thing (My topic? Lacquer boxes...yeah! ...it's not such a bad topic, if I had something about history, I would hate that much more) and I checked to see if there were any pics from last night, and...there you are. It was the most amusing thing I had seen all day.

So anyway. Today all the juniors got their class rankings. I've always thought class rankings are kind of stupid. I mean, they are, they just depend on how competitive your school is. I think my school is semi-competitive. Although I'm not...really. I was hoping just to get in the top 50 (there are 296 people in my class) and I did. I don't really need to get much more specific, I think, but I was VERY VERY VERY surprised with my GPA, and it wasn't just me, my mum was too. So then I thought maybe the school screwed up but...I guess they wouldn't do that. The school GPA system is based on a 5 point scale. Is anyone else's school like this? Because it seems like most are on a 4 point scale. Anyway, I found out about that right before my pre calc class, and was feeling pretty happy...but my math class is full of the smartest people. The top 8 are in my class. Maybe the top 10, I don't know who number 9 and 10 were, but...yeah. So that kind of killed things, haha. But that's only a little less than half the class. One guy was number 29, which is the highest you could be and still be in the top 10%, and my teacher was making fun of him. It was funny though, I mean my teacher isn't cruel, he would just refer to him as "Number 29" instead of his name, heehee. I was surprised, I honestly thought he was...smarter? Actually, in a way not really, he's one of the annoying guys that sits next to me in physics (today I think he was shooting spitballs at his friend who sits on the other side of me. I'm RIGHT in the friggin center, it's...it's...!!!) and he seems to take mainly honors/ap classes (I don't) so...mm. *Shrugs*. Which is why GPAs and class rankings don't mean much to me (although this did make me somewhat happy)...do you know what I mean?

My problem now though is that I can't do any more worse in any of my classes if I want to retain my rank, I guess. I don't care as much as my mum, though. I'm looking at my PHYSICS grade mainly, which always seems to be thisclose to a C. I have a test on Monday and I am completely unprepared! Well, as long as I'm not stressing out....that's the other thing, when the guidance counselor handed me my rank, she said "You must work hard," and I'm thinking Eh..eh...ack...no. I really don't. I do what I have to do to get by, and not much more than that. I am a terrible, aimless teenager.

Well, Stanley Donwood and Tchocky won a Grammy for "Best Recording Package"...for the limited edition of Amnesiac. I guess that's nice. Well...yeah. Full of odd drawings and things. So no Best Alternative there, not for Bjork either, that went to Coldplay. I figured they'd get it, and it's alright since the album is nice, yeah? I was thinking though that Bjork's album was very good, just didn't have enough presence, I suppose. :P

BECK AND THOM SANG TOGETHER! Okay, there is says "Thom and Beck", but it's more like Beck...and Thom....since Thom joined Beck. What did he do, hop onstage? [Imagining Thom hopping on stage, and falling]...hehe...uh.

This would be more worthwhile of looking at if I could draw. Those are random doodles I've done on my physics notes. Because physics is very very boring. And I just realized that I barely pay attention. Well not just...anyway. I think the first two things are pseudo-bunny creatures. The last four are just blobs. With psychological problems, most likely.

The desert sky...something something something...well, Beachwood Sparks songs aren't the most unintelligible songs in the world but many times I just have no idea what the words are. I made this page a long time ago but never really did anything with it. Well there ye go. Sometimes I will put songs there that I like. Yeah that's...not very exciting. You can pretend it is.

And if you read my post last night (yeah...right) then you know about me wanting to see that Miyazaki children's film festival thing. So I figured I'd call and buy the tickets today. I also thought "Gee, wouldn't it be funny if those tickets sold out tomorrow" and, lo and behold, checking online when I got home from school, they were sold out. Well, there are two other shows that I could go to, but it was just so predictable, I guess. Nothing is surprising anymore.

Argh, I'm stupid, I thought I could buy tickets online to see this, but I can't. So I think I will...*gasp*...call the number that lets me buy tickets. I'm surprised I want to see it that much. It looks cute though, and kind of rare to see that stuff in the US. So I think...yup. Except it's kind of late so I guess I'll call tomorrow. I don't really like to use phones. Aren't I just crazy. But for some things you just have to...like when buying Beck tickets from someone on eBay the day before the concert... and...I bought sat/act type preparation books, which will probably collect dust and be neglected because I don't like...reading...thiiiings.

I'm...um....mm.

I put up more links so you can go somewhere else. I think that would be best.

To sum up my day, I have discovered that my health teacher is very very odd, that the epidermis isn't as thick as it should be, and that physics is...well, you can figure it out. As much as I would like to sleep now, I think there's a meeting at school for juniors that I should go to to ensure my future as a human being.

Oh man, why am I here? Well, I ate too much. No problem, it was quite good...had a hamburger for the first time in ages (fries also). Yes, I'll embrace my unhealthy-ness, alright? Also at the end of dinner, Aliza, her mum and I shared two pieces of pie. I've never had pecan pie in my life, but I really liked it...mm, pie. [MPIE! You all know what that stands for, right? All you Radiohead fans?...yeah, well, nevermind.] Also had a chocolate mousse pie thing, cos ye know...chocolate is good. I think I liked the pecan thing better. During the dinner Aliza mainly told me the story about Passover, except I've forgotten a lot of it so I guess I'll just have to relearn everything on that day they're celebrating...the day before Good Friday. I won't be the only non-Jewish person there though, supposedly, hooha.

I have many amusing links I could post, but I think I'll post em on the other blog. Why have two blogs...because I have no life, that's why! HAHAHAHA OH GOD oh...god, I know, this is getting pretty bad. I should definitely be doing something else with my life. Perhaps sleeping. I went to bed pretty late last night. Well, it took me an hour to fall asleep, I'm thinking. Sigh.

Oh yes, don't you want to know what amusing Google/Yahoo search engine queries I've been getting lately? You DON'T? Oh well, if you're still reading this then you've already been sucked in. The suspense is killing you, I know....muwahahaha!

how it feels to be a blakc child

jared leto+male eye candy

+mulder +eat-your-vegetables

what to do if you get toiletpapered

"easiest way to commit suicide"

I'm afraid I don't know what it feels like to be a blakc child. Then again, I must have spelled it wrong too. Of course, MY favorite was "easiest way to commit suicide" because you know, that's what my site is for. It's a handy-dandy guide to commiting suicide! Don't you want to? Heehee.

Oh yeah, I was really happy for about a SECOND today. Well after doing some research (I looked at a calendar) I found out that the Velvet Teen show I want to go to is on a FRIDAY (ON A FRIDAY! Radiohead...when Phil had a lush head of HAIR...wait, did he ever had lots of hair? ha...ha). But not just any Friday, Good Friday, and I don't have school that day! THE CONCERT GODS HAVE FINALLY DONE SOMETHING RIGHT! But anyway. Still, it's in Brooklyn. The L train goes there. I'm still not very knowledgable about taking subways though. I mean, I've taken that train once, my friend and I ended up in Brooklyn because we took the train on the wrong side...oops. Oh well, it didn't cost us anymore, but eh. [That whole night was crazy, that ONE night.] Anyway. If Diana can go...okay, I haven't even asked her yet, but I'll talk about her anyway, if she decides to go, then I think my mum will only let me go if Diana will take the train back with me to the Port Authority. The thing is, Diana lives IN Brooklyn and it would be an awful lot of unecesary traveling just for my sake. Well. I think I should ask her first. Ha. But I was pretty happy when nearly EVERYTHING seemed to work out, except that the show is not in Manhattan...well. You can't have it all.

[I must sound spoiled. I'm rotten. Like old stinky socks.]

Okay, I can edit this post because no one has read it yet.

I forgot to add another college thing that I got from Ithaca College. It looks nice, except I don't really want to live in Ithaca. Why am I so picky?

Oh DOODA, tour dates for the Velvet Teen! Oh crap...oh well, they're playing in Brooklyn at a place called North Six. Could I make it there? DIANA HELP MEEE! Oh crap, I don't know if I signed up for the Slowdance mailing list...well, I could just sign maybe for the second time, but that might look stupid. Oh what the hell, I am stupid! So it all works out then. Great!

Holy crap, for the past week whenever I fill out forms or have to push a form button, the browser completely freezes for a few seconds...maybe my computer is in dire need of a defragging or maybe I should just reformat the whole stupid thing.

Oh, I'm going to complain some more...Velvet Teen stuff on sale. I already bought "The Great Beast February" although I haven't got Comasynthesis. Fine, that and the new album are only $18, which is kind of the price of ONE regular CD so I suppose I can get that dough. The dought that would have gone towards the Gorillaz concert if I had decided to go (and if it wasn't sold out, haha). ...ah. Um. ...

Oh, I already signed up. It told me so. Well I guess I am stupid then, HOOHA!...oo..ah.

And my mum just said I could buy the CDs. Not that she would refuse, but I always have to ask, right?

Mm well...today my physics teacher was telling us about how the way we live (in Bergen County...where I live...yes, hunt me down, why don't you) is only representative of something like 1% of the living standards of the entire nation (well, that's not really true, but he was emphasizing these things a bit). Alright, I don't live in a million-dollar mansion, but I know what he means...as in we should all be very thankful for how we live. He went down south and was telling us about how some of the houses are about the size of one classroom. And that they all had satellite dishes. I guess TV provides lots of..entertainment. I'm sick of television. But I remember in Taiwan even the smallest place would have a nice sized TV. I always thought it was a little odd, but I guess not (well, also seeing Taiwanese TV shows and wondering "This is entertaining?!"). Well then. Oh, it's not like I'm not thankful for life...oh wait, I guess it sounds like that a lot. But still, some of the worst living conditions in the US don't really compare to those of third world countries. Not that they should...they shouldn't, but well, visit Indonesia and it'll put things in perspective (maybe...you have to get off that resort beach first).

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Whoa, I...talked on the phone!

Actually, I was thinking that in the entire day, I only really have conversation with one other person besides my mum. Or...maybe TWO people, but neh, generally just one. Ahh...well then, my friend Aliza called me about joining her during a Jewish holiday...thing...okay, I forgot the name already, so sue me. [I'm completely non-Jewish.] But it's something that goes on during Passover, a bit thing with..uh...singing and drinking and eating, that's about all I got. Something about a song about a goat. And lots of drinking. ...I've got it down to goats and alcohol, but I think I'm missing something. Ah yes, her and her crazy Jewish family will shove wine down my throat and make me sing songs about goats.

Well, Aliza said I can just say "watermelon bubblegum" the whole time, which sounds like something I am capable of doing. Yes! And tonite I'm actually going out to dinner with Aliza and her mum....a last minute thing I guess. I don't mind stuffing myself with Italian food. Haven't had that in ages.

HOLY CRAP there's a cat in my backyard....okay, that was random. It just walked by. I dunno who's cat it is. [Do I have a cat?]...no.

Oh yes, anyway, today was the first day back in school since this horribly exciting vacation has ended. I say I hate school, but it doesn't really deserve to be hated. I just hate...going to school...oh wait. Well. I hate things that don't deserve to be hated, I know it's not their fault, but it's much easier sometimes to hate things than to like them, isn't it? *smiles*

[yeah I'm mean sometimes]

Oh well. I've got a freakin physics test next Monday, I find out. [Please kill me]...oh yes how I love physics! [kill me]. Everyone in my class was like "Can we just bribe you?" "Yeah, $100 for one point."

I suppose I'll fail then, hooha! I got a C on my math quiz/test (technically they're quizzes, but they're all hard and CRAP POOP FGGG...[fggg?]) which is ye know, great. The teacher added two points to everyone's test. Well, without those two points, I still would have gotten a C.

Oh joy, more college crap stuff! Yahoo! Let's examine some snippets (did I just say snippets?....damn, I said it again) of the letters. Well, none of em are from Pennsylvania, wow!

St. Mary's College of Maryland - In a small way, we're different because we don't pretend to send you a "personalized" letter that was really produced by a computer...blah blah blah<...Do the unexpected--learn more about Maryland's public honors colelge by returning the form below.

[thinking...thinking...honors? I don't even take that many honors classes. Ah...well. If it's unexpected, why should I do it? Hooha!]

Actually, the back of that letter says "EXPECT THE UNEXPECTED FROM A COLLEGE"...and I was thinking, how am I supposed to expect the unexpected? Wouldn't that just make the unexpected the expected? I know I'm being too literal here, but ye know, just think about these things...

Northeastern University - With a degree from Northeastern University, you'll graduate with more than a diploma. You'll have a resume sure to dazzle future employers.

[Man, there ain't nothing more that would warm my heart that to dazzle those employers...I DAZZLE! HOOHA!]

Oh god, what's wrong with me...*shakes head*.

Mount Holyoke College - In my 15 years in college admissions, I've observed that smart, motivated students know who they are. They might not talk about it, but deep inside they know they've got what it takes to contribute to the world and to be successful. I have reason tobelieve that you are one of these students...

[STOP right there...no I'm not! You tell lies, Mr. Bunny.]

University of Delaware - Life shouldn't be ordinary. Not now. Not ever.

[Okay, honestly it says a lot more than that, but it was in it's own little paragraph and I thought, golly gee whiz yes, you are right!...and then my mind completely wandered off to thoughts of cookies and pillows.]

Actually, I think I'll put all my college crap in my other blog, in addition to that. Keep everything organized. BLOG OF COLLEGE THINGS AND WHY I CANNOT GO TO THEM! Joy.

The Completely Pointless Personality Quiz

Behold...I am a a cute-as-hell tasty gingerbread cookie man.

And still, no one would want to eat me, because I have an odd taste that no one can appreciate...mm, well. Thus is the demise of my gingerbread-cookie self...

I'm going crazy making icons. I like the Plone one the most.

I made a new icon for this page too, it should say "CO" now...get it? ...looks better than "CM" I think.

And now I'm watching Olympics stuff. I guess if the Olympics weren't on, tonite would be much poopier...but it is pretty poopy anyway, so ...BLAH! Yes.

Oh yes, and I designed the diskobox.net blog (I had to stick Willie in there), which so far has two members...HA! It's a group of two, you see? It's my little community of bloggers who don't know what the hell they're doing. It will probably just consist of Rebecca and me saying back and forth "Life sucks"..."Yeah, life really sucks."

This has got to be one of the most annoying irritating things ever...so you will click on it, right? Yes, you curious human you.

Wait a second...do the mario! Oh god, that was really frightening. I used to love that Mario Bros. show though.

This will be the quote of the day. And for you to base the rest of your life on:

"I think it's maybe best to let our earth be blighted by letting everybody die from a giant catastrophe from the sun - instantly & without any pain. If you didn't know life, then you certainly can't regret or miss life. Then, everybody wins." - stephanie

*mumble*

..why, HELLO. ...lovely Sunday we're having. Eh. Today I did pretty much nothing. I wouldn't mind taking a nap, but I figure I should just keep myself up until a NORMAL time to go to sleep. And then I can wake up all bright and happy for SCHOOL AAH YEESS THAT LOVELY INSTITUTION where naive kids are crammed into classrooms with naive teachers to learn about wonderous things like the equation of a parabola, yes, thus is the meaning of life! ! ! ! ! !

[Yes, by the way, I am in an odd mood...whoa, brackets, I've never really used those in here before. There's a first time for everything. I guess I'll use italics if I want to stress sarcasm or...whatever, and brackets to convey random thoughts in my head, although technically everything on this page is random, so it should all be in brackets. But it's not. Well, sidenotes, then. Fwish!]

I installed another browser on my computer (which is on its deathbed, I think) called Opera, and it's quite nice, but I'm already using two browsers so I figure three would be...a lot. Mmwell. My computer froze 6 times today, although four of those times were because I unsucessfully tried to install and uninstall an icon making program. Another time it froze during startup which is just pathetic but I'm used to it. Honestly, all the computers I use really end up being pieces of junk after a while, just because I'm using them. Odd. Well, I am the destroyer.

Well I downloaded something like 4 different icon-making (or more like converting) programs to see if I could MAKE one, and I think I did. The nicest one is this one so far. I didn't make my icons pixel by pixel, tweaked em a bit maybe.... Supposedly, if you're using Internet Explorer then if you bookmark this page there should be a really crappy icon I made next to it in your favorites. Same for diskobox.net, my Plone site and my Even Johansen site. Wonderful. It's completely spifftastic...sigh. Yeah, I wasted too much of my life on that.

Would anyone like to join a group blog that I'll make if...um, anyone wants to join? It's a dumb idea. But blech, I guess I'm bored and want to make another page. It'd be for diskobox.net...you don't have to be one of my hostees, but it would just be a blog for anyone who wants to...actually, I have no idea. If anyone wanted to tell me something...haha!...or if there's some weird site that the world must see or else the world will perish in it's own ignorance. Also it would help if you already had blogger and knew how to use it. And then I could make the most freakin fun group blog on the face of the unverse, unable to be surpassed by any other because IT WOULD JUST BE THAT GOOD...[oh no, I've gone drunk with power again].

[I don't know many HTML tags but I'm determined to try and use all of the basic ones.]

So what...am I...u...m...m. I guess I'm just tired. Not depressed or anything, oh, never! Just...just as always. I can't believe it's so late already....I could say more, but then I'd sound too much like a teenager.

Eh. Crap. I woke up at 2:15. I went to bed earlier though, like 4 AM this time. What was I doing? I don't know! School tomorrow...I ought to get to bed a bit earlier, considering I wake up around 6 AM. Oops.

And I'm too lazy to even make lunch. Isn't that sad? "Eh, I couldn't possibly expend the energy it takes to plop some frozen dumplings in a pan and just let em SIT there...noo." Sigh. But I am a bit hungry...AARGHFFFFFFFFF! Hunger is an important human...characteristic thing, but only to keep humans from STARVING and obviously I'm not. What has happened? I mean really...I shouldn't be hungry unless I'm really starving or something. I'm too used to being stuffed with foooooods. I am stuffed like cabbage.

Hm, I wrote someone an e-mail, not expecting to get a reply, but I did get a reply...and I wasn't sure what to write back. Oh well, maybe the person will get bored and not reply. Hooha. My dreams all packaged in bubble wrap...

yeah, that didn't make much sense...oo, this site was updated. I know you don't care, but eh, I can write whatever I want, yeah? So blah blah deeda, I'm trying to download the mp3s, my modem is being incredibly pokey, but I should be used to that by now. Not like I have anything else to do...

Actually, I should have probably started my stupid history project. Of course, this whole vacation I did absolutely no homework. I think I have a little bit of math, but eh. I don't think I understood it anyway. I'm still hungry.

I think I've become an advanced Stephanie-user.

basements are...cold.

I'm idealist...go me. And I think I must be the sensitive type. I find it a bit unsettling that I can just be plopped into one of four categories whose characteristics are generally correct...mm.

Is it normal to think about conversations you have with people online (that you don't know in real life, I mean) long after you go offline? And then to think...even more...yeah, it's probably abnormal, so I'll stop right here.




I'm Randy Goldman!

Take the Jimmy Fallon recurring SNL character quiz here.

created by stomps.

How the hell did I get that? *shrugs*

I'm sorry, but I'm going to do a survey now because it will amuse me for a short time period of my meaningless life.

1. What facial feature do you find the most attractive on others? ...hair? eyes? then again, if someone just had hair and eyes that would be scary. not that that would happen. ...oh god.
2. Would you vote for a woman candidate for president? ...why not? as long as I thought they'd make a good president.
3. Would you marry for money? ...no. i can understand why people would do that, but it's just...*trails off*
4. Have you had braces? yes. good thing too, I guess, my teeth would look quite horrible by now without them. i would scare little children...wait, I already do.
5. Do you pluck your eyebrows? I have done that, I was wondering if it hurt much (no) but generally, no. what's the point?
6. Do you like hairy backs? why, GOLLY GEE YES who doesn't? ....erm
7. When was the last time you had a hickey? when was the first time?
8. Could you live without a computer? technically, yes. technically.
9. Do you use ICQ, AOL Buddy list etc..? i use it ALL because i'm..pathetic!
10. If so, how many people are on your list(s)? let's see...37, after I cleaned it out a bit. I don't know why though, I only talk to maybe 5 people on a pseudo-regular basis
11. If you could live in any past time period, which would it be? the 60s. i think i would have fit alright in that time, except for the drugs and sex...uh..hm, maybe not then.
12. Do you drink enough water? well I've been trying, and I end up going to the bathroom a million times. oh well, I can only recall 4 times in my life when I was REALLY dehydrated...
13. Do you wear shoes in the house or take them off? take em off...the shoooes!
14. What is your favorite fruit? apples..bananas. persimmons. yum.
15. Do you eat wheat bread or white? i don't really eat bread.
16. What is your favorite place to visit? NY I guess, figuring this "place" is somewhere I go sometimes...
17. What is the last movie you saw? ....hm. does Beauty and the Beast at IMAX count?
18. Do you kiss on the first date? ...um...*shrugs*
19. Are you photogenic? ...I don't know. not un-photogenic
20. Do you dream in color or black and white? color. I don't think I've ever dreamt in black and white
21. Are you wearing fingernail polish? nope
22. Is it chipped or fresh? ...
23. Do you have any dimples? I don't know...uh...I guess not
24. Do you remember being born? yes, it was a most magical time...um, no.
25. Why do you take surveys? because I'm bored and pathetic! yes, I encompass...everything into one neat little package
26. Do you drink alcohol? never
27. Did you like or do you like high school? hell no, get me out please
28. What is the most beautiful language? icelandic is neat. well, when sung by Jonsi, hm.
29. When you are asleep do you like being kissed awake? ...what?
30. Do you like sunrises or sunsets the most? sunset. sunrise is crap, then you realize you have to live through another hellish day. well, it could be hellish. well if you have a NICE day, sooner or later you will have a crappy day, unless you die on that nice day...ponders...
31. Do you want to live to be 100? maybe. as long as I can walk around and not live in a hospital and my brain still works
32. Do you think women should be expected to shave their body hair? they are expected too, but they shouldn't be, I think
33. Do you like salty food or sugary food the most? can't I have both? CAN'T I HAVE IT ALL? *boohoo*
34. Is a flat stomach important to you? would be nice, but I think it's an impossible goal to reach
35. Do you or have you played with a ouija board? once, it was completely pointless
36. Are you loyal? to...whom?
37. Are you tolerant of other peoples beliefs? ..yeah, as long as its not "I think it'd be great if we could kill everyone in the world with a giant blender, ya!"
38. When you watch movies at home, do you like the lights on or off? ...matters. if it's day, then i don't have the lights on anyway and...uh...I don't know. I don't like movies very much.
39. Do you believe in magic? ...eh...no?
40. Do you have nightmares frequently? Not really.
41. Do you like your nose? if I can breath through it
42. Do you like abstract art? i guess...I don't NOT like it
43. Do you think you can draw well? I can draw ..stick figures! although not very well
44. Do you listen to music daily? yes....tooo much
45. Do you like to watch cartoons? i...guess?
46. At what age did you find out that Santa Claus wasn't real? I don't know. once I asked him for socks though.
47. How many pairs of shoes do have in your closet? well my closet has no shoes.
48. Do you like to wear the same shoes everyday or do you like a variety? the same pair every single day...exciting! and they're still in good condition
49. Do you write poetry? neeeeh. i write meaningless strings of words though...like right now!
50. Do you snore? sometimes
51. Do you sleep more on your back, front, or sides? ..hm...I dunno. i toss and turn. because i'm just difficult
52. Would you rather have a poodle or a rottweiler? a penguin
53. Do you lick stamps? Envelopes? well, if i have to...eh..
54. Do you use an electric can opener? why yes, when I open CANS.
55. Have you ridden in a hotair balloon? yeah, it was pretty freaky.
56. Which hurts the most, physical or emotional pain? emotional. then again, I haven't yet had my body smashed into many tiny pieces or had to undergo major surgery. so maybe i can't say
57. Do you think balding men should shave their heads? ..no?
58. Do you know anyone who is clinically depressed? well, I might, but I don't really know it...does anyone really know? DO YOU!?
59. Do you prefer a piano or a violin? violins sound nicer, if they're played by someone who knows what theyre doing...at least
60. Are you a sex addict? ...how could I be a sex addict?
61. Do you know someone who has cancer? my grandma? heh..eh.
62. Do you like to argue? not really.
63. Do you hunt? ..no.
64. Do you like fast food joints, or expensive resauraunts? well i'll assume that there couldn't even be a "good" fast food restaurant, so I guess I'll have to go to expensive. as long as I'm not paying
65. Would you rather visit a zoo or an art museum? ...thats hard. matters what kind of art museum.
66. Do you have a middle name? What is it? Pace. ..eh.
67. Are you basically a happy person? I don't know.
68. Are you tired? yeah, all the time...ugh. unless I'm seeing EVEN JOHANSEN LIVE or something, but that doesn't really happen often.
69. Did you drink anything with caffeine in it today? ...no.
70. Have you ever met anyone off the internet? two. maybe in the summer i can make that three.
71. How many phones do you have in your house? ...hell, I don't know!
72. How long is your hair? its like..um. um. I dunno. I don't know my measurements very well, but more than 6 inches past my shoulder.
73. Do you get along with your parents? ... i guess?
74. What color of eyes do you prefer? ...i dunno. prefer? what am i'm choosing for? light eyes always seem the nicest, but then they also scare me the most for some reason. i have this issue with looking at people straight in the eye...I usually can't. I don't know why, but it just makes me feel uncomfortable...*shrugs*

Would you like to hear a run-through of my day so far?

...no.

Oh well, you're going to hear it anyway.

Well, I went to bed at 6 AM. Why? Because I'm stupid? Eh. You know something's wrong when you go to bed and the sun is coming up. I was listening to Sigur Ros, which I haven't done in ages, and yeah...that's definitely some nice stuff. sigh. And I was doing more dumb paint-by-number puzzles, which I stopped doing because I got...tired. Naturally. Of course, would have been more natural to go to bed when the sun was down, but sometimes you just can't help these...things...okay, I could have. I'm living out my last days of vacation to the last moment, I guess.

one more day before school...sob.

Well I woke up at 2 PM. Alright then...went on the Internet a bit, completely wasting my time. Got the mail, realizing that I probably won't get my insound crap for some time since I haven't gotten an e-mail telling me that they shipped the stuff. Or maybe I'm wrong, but anyway, I really want my Phonem cd. I just went to the website and listened to the stuff when I wore out listening to Radiohead for too long. Uh...yeah, well more fun COLLEGE CRAP in the mail today. Why do alumni members of certain school send out mass letters to prospective students also? I mean, I know why, but it hardly make me wanna go to the school. I got one from someone who works at Tommy Hilfiger...yes, my dream is to one day work there too! Eh. So that's four letters from places in Pennsylvania, and then one from the University of Tampa. I'm ruling that out immediately, even though it looks like a nice school, because one of my uncle's families lives in Tampa along with my grandparents (well, they're going to live there) and if I go there for college I can expect that I'll have to visit them a whole lot. This is why I don't even GO to Florida anymore with my mum and bro like we used to, we'd be pressured to have to visit out relatives and well, we don't want to! What's so wrong about that? Yeesh.

Retreated back to my bedroom for more Sigur Ros/paint-by-number fun. HA...ah. I somehow got really tired, and decided to read a book (I'm somewhat skimming through a Carl Sagaan book right now) and then fell asleep at around 5 PM. Ye think something is wrong with my internal...sleeping clock?

I woke up sometime before 7 PM and went straight for the KITCHEN cos I was...hungry. Yeah, aren't I always hungry...ugh. I ate a lot. One of my friends had perfect timing though and happened to call JUST as I was sitting down to eat...! I mean, I don't mind helping her with stuff (I just haf to fax her a few things) but I just hate phones. I mean, talking-phones...obviously I'm using a phone line now, but it's not phone lines that annoy me. It was ironic because during this entire vacation, the main phoneline in my house has been getting 10-15 sales calls a day (what would I do without caller ID?) and I was completely surprised to get a REAL call. Generally the only other real person who has called during the week was my brother. And what are those other people trying to sell? It's ridiculous, maybe they call twice because they're bored...

Advertising is scary...but I knew that!

I made a really bad font.

Oh god. I'm in some random chat room. Except it's not...it's a PENGUIN chat. I wanted to see what it was. Everyone is a little penguin and you can waddle around. Whoa. You can see why I'm so amused then. Except people in these chatrooms have got...uh..problems. Seems like everyone wants to have a boyfriend or a girlfriend. Isn't that somewhat sad? "Ne 1 hot in here? Any girls who wanna chat?" sigh. I think I'm older than most of these people anyway. I'll just pretend I'm smarter.

I'm watching that Canadian pair skating....cute.

Well then. ...wait, I think they're doing an encore...okay, not really. Just another flippy thing in the air, that's all.

Alright then! Uh. I spent 2 and a half hours playing the Neverhood. Too bad the official site doesn't exist anymore, but then I forgot that the game is about 6 years old already. There are a ton of fan sites there anyway...do they still make the game? I think you can download a demo. I didn't think it would be that fast to beat, but then I've got a cheat guide...yes, I'm too stupid to figure out the game on my own. Saaaaaad. But I love the game anyway, even though there isn't actually a whole lot you have to do. It just looks cute, all made of CLAAAY!. There are two endings...one is a lot suckier than the other. Actually, another funny thing about the game is the black and white "Making Of" segment. In one part apparently the gamemakers had a bet of $1000 to whoever could drink 4 liters of fruit punch soda. They show a nice clip of one dude barfing it all up. Yum!

I LOVE WILLIE TROMBONE! ...No, that doesn't mean much. "Hello chum! I have a hole in my head!" I have some pretty freaky weird e-mails from Willie Trombone.

The skating exhibition is so much more fun than the competition...the Russian pair is doing...uh, something...cute! :)

So today I've accomplished pretty much nothing. I ate two brownies...okay, that's not an accomplishment. Ate some nice Japanese food. I've only been up for nine hours...on a regular school day by now I'd be up for 17 hours, I think. Ack...school, go away.

And I think that's all the wisdom my little brain can offer you right now. Aren't you lucky?

Oh wait, I forgot something else. At the Japanese restaurant, I ate shumai and dipped it in some yellow sauce which I figured was mustard sauce, but I failed to remember how SPICY that stuff is. So I stuffed it in my mouth, and thus commenced A SERIES OF TINY EXPLOSIONS taking place in my sinus area. Ow. It happened two times. Watery eyes...cleared sinuses (well they were already clear, so it was really ...yeah) and me going "Oh crap!" And my mum in the meantime saying "Ah, I was going to tell you about that..." Uh huh.

Scroll down a bit on this page and look at the dog/radiohead look alikes. The Thom one is quite perfect, isnt it? Hooha.

I took this test incorrectly...cos I'm stupid...yeah, I should stop taking tests. But...eh, I dunno.

I don't know why I was reading this, but I didn't really agree with most of em. Actually...mm. I'll agree with nice hair, good manners, and creativity, although as for the creativity I don't think I'm thinking about it in the same sense. I can't understand what a cool car has to do with anything. Ack, I haven't even learned any driving yet...ugh. As for scent, I just find cologne quite...bleeeech...I'll stop thinking now, for your sake. And mine, I guess.

Oh well, I guess I'm not seeing the Gorillaz after all! Not so bad, I save $40. Haha....eh.

But I just spent $9 sending something by Global Priority Mail. $9 I could have used for...COOKIES!

Or...not. Mm, well. Vacation...finished, practically. I woke up at 2:30. There's my excuse to skip lunch. I ate a banana though, I guess that was a lot...of...banana....m.

Ah well, haven't gotten my insound stuff yet. Apparently I haven't been checking the mail very carefully lately, some college crap stuff has been coming in for me. Which is making me think that my other friends who get much better grades and did much better on the PSATs that I did must have their mailboxes STUFFED with letters from colleges. Oh well, at least some colleges seem to think that I'm intelligent, or...something. Most of the stuff I got is from Pennsylvania. Well, because they have so many colleges, but I don't think I want to live there. Why would I move from the suburbs to live in...the suburbs? In these brochures all I see are TREES and colonial-era looking buildings. Well, just the trees that make me think "middle of nowhere"...aren't I nice?

Out of the college things I got today, the nicest one seems to be from American University in Washington DC. So, of course, I doubt I could get into that. The brochure has the nicest design too, ah...eh. Okay, the FIRST page of the brochure goes like this:

Some universities describe their students with numbers...test scores, grade point averages, percentages. American University got beyond the numbers. We describe out students with adjectives and nouns...leaders, intensely engaged, pacesetters, global thinkers, pragmatic, enterprising, creative, doers...
Are these words that are used to describe you?

...um...no.

...well, I could think of some adjectives and nouns to descibe myself. Lazy, aimless, tired, follower, boring...god, yes! ...stupid college. They try to sell themselves to thousands of prospective students, but in the end YOU have to make yourself seem worthy of going there, and I'm too honest so my college essay will probably not look very appealing. I don't like ...that. I don't like the whole world of advertising (this is like advertising, isnt it...maybe?).

Ah, great, I dunno what I'm talking about. That university seems to be the most global, if that means anything. I don't wanna be shoved into the forests of Pennsylvania.

Anyway. Rufus was on the Rosie O Donnell show this morning. I taped it, I mean, cos I wasn't going to wake up at 10 AM...ha. She did a nice 5 minute interview after he performed "Across the Universe", which was nice. Geez, Rufus is skinny, although lots of people are skinny, but...I don't know. I was thinking that if I was skinny, I'd probably look different, so maybe I should just keep stuffing myself with sweets and stay my same ol' self, yahoo!

I got a postcard in the mail too. Highly unexpected, but really nice I guess. From a friend in Taiwan who went to Vienna during the Chinese New Year vacation. Vienna...wonder what that place is like. In the meantime, I'll just sit here in from of my computer like...a...person who sits in front of their computer. I should probably keep in better touch with my old friends, but then I'm kind of too lazy to do that. Yeah, I'm horrible. shrugs....

They were both drunk? You don't say!

National Slacker Day May Be Too Much Effort...oh god, what's wrong with this world?

And for whatever reason, I think this is stupid too, although I'm not Jewish so maybe I shouldn't say anything...

Would I be crazy to want this? ...yeah, I guess so. But holy crap, slowly downward has been updated, which means that stanley donwood is NOT dead. . . . . .and. . . . .doot.

This has got to be one of the coolest sites I've ever been too. Except:

1. It made Juno crash
   
2. It made IE crash
   
3. My entire computer subsequently decided to crash, I suppose, since it was already rolling along quite nicely with the crashing...yeah

God dammit, Friday already, eh? What have I been doing? Ah, pretty much nothing. I can't believe this vacation is practically finished already. It's been a week since Rufus, at least. Ugh. So what did I accomplish this week? I'm thinking...ah....er...um. I got...no, I didn't even get that much sleep. No matter when I go to bed, I can't seem to sleep any later than 1 PM. Of course, that SOUNDS late, but if you go to bed at 4 AM that's not actually a whole lot, I think...

Well, I decided I wanted to do a few things.

1. Learn some more flash junk
   
2. Read a book...with words
   
3. Burn all my journals. Have a big freakin bonfire and go "WOOPA" while celebrating amidst the ashes of dying memories which should be dead dead dead
   
4. Lose some weight...ha!
   
5. Burn other things

Sounds good, no? Yes?...no.

So anyway. How fun was that ice skating, yeah? I would have liked to see Michelle Kwan win..alright, I think a lot of people did. Sigh. Oh well. I won't think about it too much.

Can someone tell me why there is so much space after I make an ordered list? It's probably something stupid, but then my HTML skills are sub-sub-par.

For some reason I think the flash thingy looks better if you zoom in a lot...and I just sneezed everywhere. why.

Click here if you want to have nightmares for the rest of your life.

Don't know why, but I made another flash thingy, and it really has absolutely no purpose. So if you decide to watch it..you can keep that in mind. I have no infatuation with the word "worm" (that I know of). I would like a cookie, though. The music in the background is a short clip from Godspeed You Black Emperor, although I don't know what the name of the song is. Eh well...one of those long ones.

Watching women's ice skating right now. Mm...hm. "Michelle is the reigning world champion...and that is a good omen." Really, you don't say? I would have never imagined. That's just what the commemator said, I think. Ha...ha...uh.

Why does this exist? Okay, I didn't even read the page, but the title was enough to make me think...actually, no it didn't. However, I could be the poster child for mundane behaviour.

And as for the milk comment on this page, DRINKING COWS MILK IS COMPLETELY UNNATURAL! You all see that? Yes! Alright then!

Ah...Canada. I remember seeing Mr. Sub. I just liked the name. The US really has to change to the metric system at some point, I mean it would take a long time so when will they start?! Ugh.

Ah...I think I'll eat some sushi now. Yeah, so what that it's about 11 PM, last night I ended up going to bed at 4 AM, for whatever reason. Damn paint by numbers...oh god, what is happening to me?

wait, another note...holy crap, the American skater, Sarah Hughs I think, she just skated...perfectly! Practically...! It seem...! whoa...!!

Check out Diana's art page, Without Words. She's been putting some stuff there lately. Or if you like Radiohead, just go here, it's a funny flash South Park-esque Jonny and Thom interview doo-dad. JONNY'S HAIR...it MOVES! Yes.

And check out release1 as well, while keeping in mind not to take it too seriously. Oh, but it's so much fun! But really, if I could just get my hands on some SuiCIDER...

So the most exciting thing that happened today was getting a new issue of Adbusters. Well, I also got a muffin, something called a whoopie pie, some brownies and a package of biscotti (all from the local Whole Foods, whenever I go there I end up getting stuff that isn't all that healthy, unless chocolate and various baked goods have amazing medicial properties). Anyhoo. Haven't read the whole thing yet, but I usually find the letters from the readers to be really interesting. The magazine smells a bit. It's not as bad as National Geographic though. If anyone reads that magazine, then maybe you know what I'm talking about when I say that the magazine reeks of chemicals from all the ink. A great magazine, but holy crap...

Anyway, I was talking about something, I guess. I wanted to put a letter here that I liked...or at least struck me in some way:

I am a male, 27-year old high school teacher in Canada, and I've noticed myself becoming more depressed over the past three years. I just brought my first house. My career is doing well. I have lots of close friends. I play soccer and hockey year round. You'd think I'd be satisfied with all this. I feel selfish to say I am not.

I think I am depressed because I grew up watching television sitcoms and movies of "normal" lives. But these lives are not normal. I grew up expecting the "TV life." I have also spent a lot of my life worrying about money--how much money I have and how much I'll have in the future. Now I see other cultures have survived and flourished without focusing on money. They focus on the primary needs of humans--food, water, fresh air, community and love. I was hoping my new insight would allow me to be a happier person, but I think it will make me even more depressed.

Happiness will only come with social change. Corporate rule can only be addressed after more people really analyze and reflect on what is really important in life. It's time to kill up the emptiness.

So...ah...um. I guess I liked that letter because I agreed with it, although I'm not really depressed about anything. It's just...true. And I'm not good at putting those kind of thoughts in my own words, so I took his. There.

...here's another one:

In the mall there is a store called Hot Topic that sells punk, rock, metal and rave clothes. They also sell anarchy t-shirts. They're a corporate entity looking to co-opt underground music and sell to today's disaffected youth. I saw someone at school wearing an anarchy shirt. When I asked him if he was an anarchist, he said anarchy was "stupid" and that he just liked the shirt. The traditional anarchy symbol is meaningless; it's become another corporate symbol. Perhaps you could have a contest to desgin a new anarchy symbol.

yeah..well. Hot Topic. You've probably guessed I don't like that store much, for those reasons. They sell Invader Zim merchandise. Sigh. Anyway. I'm not into anarchy-punk-rock-metal-rave anything, but if I saw someone wearing an anarchy t-shirt and they just though it was "stupid," that would bother me. It probably shouldn't...but it would. It does bother me, actually...like when people display on their clothes or backpacks that they're "PUNK" in some sense , I'm thinking "Eh, no you're not, you're living in an upper-middle class white suburban neighborhood..."

:) Oh well, it's not up to me. I try to be an unnoticable as possible. I try to blend in...with the walls. Hooray for walls! Anarchy probably shouldn't even have a symbol. Whatever is considered an anarchist action is just a symbol of...oh well, I lost my train of though. It's sluggish today.

Listening to the "I Might Be Wrong" live CD. It's great, you can hear the audience singing. Especially during "Idioteque", they're practically shouting the lyrics. Doesn't really surprise me that the CD wasn't recorded at all in the US...not that audiences in the US don't sing along also, but there's definitely a difference.


What is YOUR Highschool label?

Oh, that's...great. And they've got the picture of the pooping animal keychain in all it's wonderous glory. I used to have one, what happened to it? I used to have a bug-eyed animal keychain, and my friend squeezed it so hard that its eyes were permanently buggy, and so she pulled all the white goo out of the plastic panda figure. Needless to say, it was pretty nasty, and looked like a grotesque white bear-shaped squishy grub thing. Ah, memories...

For whatever reason, I'm listening to Belle and Sebastian right now..."Electronic Renaissance." I've had "Tigermilk" for a really long time, and I never really listened to it. Yeah, I'm evil, sorry.

Mmwell, haven't gone anywhere for the past few hours. I decided to clean out my favorites, although I ended up not really deleting anything. But I've added a chunk more links for you to go to, because you sure as hell won't stay HERE for long (I hope).

Gee-golly-hoo-haw. Farkinpootdammit (that was not a word, I know), why can't I think of such wonderfully lovely prose such as that? I'm such a waste of human life. Someone should use my brain as a sponge...or a pea holder (if there are no other sponges or pea holders within walking distance).

rolls around laughing on the floor for a bit...actually, no I'm not. Have I ever rolled around on the floor laughing? Could be fun, except for all the dust mites...

Because I'm a loser, and I'm downloading a 5 meg mp3, I'll do a survey, because there are some things that you are dying to know...and this survey isn't going to fulfill any of those desires. sorry...wait, no I'm not...

* Full Name: robyn pace lee (pace? ...yes)
* Nicknames: "rob" "robbo" "robbie" "stupid head" "you there"
* Sex: female. we think...if not, then I guess I'm just a plant
* Birthdate: august 27th. yes, you best mark your calendars, because now that you know I expect you to lavish me with gifts.
* Age: 16. i think. I don't do math.
* Where do you Live: new jersey. Hey, it wasn't my decision.
* Do u have a pager?: no, who the hell would page me?
* Ever stolen before: yes...I've stolen people's thoughts, and then I made a cake out of em, and then I ate the cake...and then I puked it up because it was a bad cake, because I'm a horrible cook, you know.

note: I have no idea what I'm talking about. I really need to take a shower. I haven't showered in many many many hours. I think colonies of unidentifiable organisms are starting to form on my scalp

* Height: 5 feet. maybe. and an inch, if I'm lucky. wait. being short is absolutely peachy...um.
* Eye Color: I used to think my eyes were black. But they're just dark brown. you like, like everyone else.
* Hair Color: i guess technically its just really dark brown, but it looks black to the UNTRAINED EYE...yes...gasp!
* Curly or Straight: straight, but not the nice asian way, its straight, and then it goes foop because it's not very soft, so my hair can shove it
* Nationality: chinese. unless...
* School: ramapo high school
* Grade: 11...ONE MORE YEAR.
* Do you have a Job: hell no. ha! no one in my family has a job, and yet we still manage. don't ask me how.
* Any Piercings/Tattoos: nope. I really don't see why anyone would want to pierce themself someplace. ears are conventional, but anywhere else it's like they're trying too hard to do something trendy or something that's against the grain of society which isn't true because...wait...I'll stop now.
* Do you wear Glasses: yes...since the 4th grade, I think. they're premanently attacked to my head. I superglued em.
* Ever been involved with the Police: yes, that one time in mexico...I mean, no
* Who's Your Role Model: I have no idea, which kind of scares me. I'm more likely to just observe what dumb things people do and not do those things
* Best thing you've done this summer: probably seeing Radiohead. and listening to Even. God, doesn't that sound lovely? ITS SO FREAKIN LOVELY...yeah. okay. Peering at Thom through binoculars...yes.
* College: well, what do you know, holyfriggincrap I still don't care which is definitely not good, but eh.
* What style of Clothes do you Wear: I dunno. the kind that covers the skin, I suppose.
* Sibling name(s): Hubert (...yes)
* What Shampoo/Conditioner do you use: I forget. I got it at the Whole Foods Market
* Do you have any Pets: nope. unless my stuffed animals count.
* How many Languages do you speak? one. English. Because I'm stupid and can't learn any languages. forget asian languages, I gave up on that a long time ago, I think. and european languages don't like me either, unless I can survive in Franch just knowing "J'aime le fromage!"
* Do you collect anything? ...not really. do dead bodies count?...no?...*shrugs*
* Are you a Ditz: ...I don't think so.

My Faves....
* TV theme Song: I still dislike TV...sigh.
* Spice Girl: ..uh
* Backstreet Boy: .....
* Fruit: persimmons are good, although they don't seem to have a very long season. so apples and bananas for me, how boring.
* Teacher: ah, this is hard...Mr. Lindgren, my 6th grade science teacher was beyond cool, but then my 7th grade math teacher Mr. Puckett was really cool too. Yeah well. that was ages ago, now all my teacher are just...well, teachers, and nothing else.
* Day of the Week: any day without school.
* Candy: chocolate. CHOCOLATE! GIMME!
* Disney Movie: ...hm. hm...I'm drawing a blank.
* Thing in Your Room: my bed. to sleep. my stereo. to give my muuusic hooha!
* Rapper(s) and R&B singer: eh...
* Restaurant: ...mmm...a japanese one
* Actor/Actress: ..mm...*blank*
* Songs: a ton. "How To Disappear Completely" comes to my mind first, though.
* Celebrity: ...um.
* Animal: penguins
* Radio Station: i don't listen very much, but WFUV plays the best music it seems
* Drink: ..water. :P
* Thing to do on Weekend: sleep
* Season: winter, except this winter has been the biggest pile of crap I've ever lived though
* Number: one wth a lot of...zeros.
* Characteristic about Yourself: ...*blank*
* People to talk to: myself...not as much of a favorite as much as a last resort
* Sport: ehhh, maybe like basketball and badminton, and tennis
* Movie of all Time: ah..um.
* Perfume/Colonge: perfume and cologne have got to be some of the dumbest products out there. I can understand why they're made, but I can't imagine myself ever wanting to buy it.
* Toppings on Pizza: i'm not supposed to eat pizza. but basil and tomatos are good. as in, no tomato sauce.
* Sesame Street Character: ...probably cookie monster. god, i want a cookie right now.
* Song Lyric: "i'm a loser baby"...I don't know.

Do you believe in:

* God: ..neh
* Aliens: ..mm...yeah
* Yourself: e...no
* Heaven/Hell: neeh
* Love at First Site: neh
* Do you Have a Religion: yes, robynism. join me on a pilgrimmage to the mothership...

My Future :)
* If you could have any Occupation: ice cream tester...ha...ff.
* What's Your Dream Car: i really don't like cars
* If you could Live Anywhere: in the middle of nowhere, preferable located somewhere
* Dream House: a nice ...one. that's circular. and has a million windows.
* What Age do you want to get Married: married? i don't want to
* How many Kids do you Want: ...zero. :) i have that loving motherly quality, as you can see
* Girl's Names:
* Boy's Names: well my imaginary kids will all be named Sigurbjorn, har har

Have You Ever...?
* Given Money to a Bum: yes...although not much. I was little and in NY with my dad. I think i only gave like 50 cents, what a cheapskate...
* Named Your Goldfish: ...I haven't had goldfish. so I guess, no
* Gotten in a Car Accident: not really
* Sat through an Entire Dawson's Creek Episode: yes. oh god, why

Things to make You think
* If you were stranded on a desert island and could only bring 3 things...what would they be?: lots of food...ots of cds...a cdplayer with lots of battiers
* Where were you when you found out OJ Simpson was innocent: i think 5th grade in my science class. there was a radio and we were listening to it. and we all thought it was a load of crap.
* Where were you when you found out about September 11: physics. we just continued class as normal though. great.

For Girls...
* Do you prefer Guys With or Without Hats:...uh. hats?
* Facial Hair: well, Thom can pull it off. kind of.
* Do you prefer guys with or without Boxers or Briefs: whatever goes, boxers are cool though.
* How often do you REALLY shave your legs: ...i don't know!

And for the Guys... (if I was a guy)
* Do you Prefer Girls With or Without Makeup: ..without?
* Do you prefer girls with Long Hair or Short Hair: ...uh
* Why do you wear your Pants so Low?!?: because i'm a dumbass

Nightie Night :)
* What do you Wear To Bed: clothes. i mean. yes.
* What's Your Bed Time: usually around 1 AM, for some reason.
* Do you Wish on Stars: I look at them and think "the light from that star is really old..so it's acutally dead already..yay!"
* Is there a TV in your Room: nope
* What's the Last thing you do Before you Fall Asleep: turn off the light?
* Person who knows the Most about You: people who i dont associate myself with anymore, which is really crap
* Who do you talk to on the Phone the Most: phones suck
* Parents Married/Divorced: married, but I dont know why
* Any Siblings: a brother. a very disturbed individual
* How many Schools have you been to: ...5? three elementary school, 2 middle schools, one high school...wait, thats 6.
* Do you get along with your Parents: i get along with my mum fine
* Vanilla or Chocolate: chocolate!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

* Craziest/ Funniest Dream: ...*blank*
* Would you rather be Hot or Cold: cold.
* What is your Curfew: curfew? ..whenever I get home? ha.
* What is your Favorite Halloween Costume of all Time: i never liked halloween very much. every costume looked dumb
* Do you Play any Musical Instruments: yes....not well though.
* Talk Shows = Real or Fake: ...uh..how about pointless?

Silly Stuff [You're almost done!!]
* Do you Glow in the Dark: doesnt everyone?
* Do you Possess Magical Abilities: sure. i can make food magically disappear into my digestive organes
* Do you keep your underwear and socks in the same drawer: nope
* Can you name all 4 Teletubbies: po, lala, tinky winky, dispy...oh man, why can I do that?
* If there were a 5th, what color would it be and its name: smpoooosh.

I think I was just watching skeleton on the TV....so what's that like, sledding for psychos at at insanely high speeds? Mm, looks like fun! I think I would like to try that once (once because I'd probably die doing it).

Anyway. It's raining!...yay! I think. This winter has been the crappiest winter I can remember. Nearly no snow. No snow days at least. There's always at least ONE but I don't see it happening this year, unless it flurries in the middle of March.

I've definitely watched enough Beck for the day. Make a 6 hour video, smushing as much stuff as possible on it. Making me believe that Beck is the coolest human being on earth...really, who could be as cool as Beck? I was watching this video of a concert he did in Germany in 1997, and while he was singing "Minus" (I really like that song, although I don't know why) I swear he was saying "blah blah blah blah blah bluh blah blah" or something, and then suddenly he said "TAPIOCA!" and resumed the "bluh blah"-ing. A bit hard to understand him sometimes...yeah. Also watched the episode of Futurama he was in, god that show is hilarious. I heard FOX is cancelling it....first Invader Zim, now this? Then again, it's not as though I really watched either of those shows religiously, so I can't say I was much help. Hopefully they'll have videos.

And that was my lovely exciting day! Tomorrow is another fun filled day of staying home and doing nothing! Maybe I'll watch some more Olympics...woo. God, this vacation is practically over, what the hell have I been doing? ARGH!

Damn, I just spent way too much time playing this game. GAMES ARE EVVIIL! Even ones with lots of pretty bright cute colors!

I wish I could go to the Coachella festival, don't YOU?...oo? Just to see Bjork.

Okay, today I WILL make that Beck compilation video I've been putting off for so long. I WILLL WHAHHAHA I just need to hook up the VCRs and then bask in Beck-fun-happiness for a bit. ...why am I doing this? Because it will make someone happy! And it's best that someone out there be happy! Or...because I've got the time since I don't do much? Yeah, I'm definitely not doing anything today, my mum just went to the bank and the bookstore and asked if I wanted to go. NO, I'M A HOMEBODY! EEE!

Yeah I am. sigh. So last night I was debating whether I should have gone on the internet at around 2 AM. I mean, I didn't, because I should stay FAR AWAY from my computer (although right now I'm not...um) so I popped some neglected CDs into my stereo and gave them a straight listen-through. And here are some useless thoughts for you to read, yahoo!

Supergrass - Supergrass: This was...nice. ...actually, I don't remember much else. Except that it wasn't bad. But then it didn't strike me as something I'd listen to a lot, either. Well, I like more morose/depressing/slow stuff usually, so...yeah, that says absolutely nothing.

Pulp - This Is Hardcore: This was kind of nice, and weird (although not a bad weird, if you can imagine). Something about the lyrics struck me as funny too, but not in a HAHA kind of funny. I don't usually listen to this kind of music. Sorry, another useless observation.

God, wasn't that enlightening. Yeah well. I was doing paint by numbers as I was listening to the CDs. Yeah, doing paint by numbers isn't really the national teenage late-night pasttime, but well...actually, I don't know. But I didn't screw up any of em, so...yay. There was a gameboy game for paint by numbers actually, and I've even got a handheld Tamagotchi themed paint by numbers themed game. It's insane cute, when you finish the little picture kind of dances...um...yeah, Japanese stuff is definitely odd, but cool, no doubt.

Actually, I was planning to do logic puzzles, but those require a lot more thinking, and I didn't want to think very much. I suck at logic puzzles...sob.

what's wrong with me? aack...

Well, I'm definitely not a feminist, I have this warped idea that everyone is just human and...I dunno where I'm going with this (nowhere, I suppose). But why would anyone want this?

Why does this even exist? The world is full of frightening cheese-related possibilities, as I've always said...

Um...no. So anyway, guess I'm going to the Gorillaz concert if Diana can get tickets. WOO...ha...ha! I will use 800 film this time. Uh huh. Then again it'll probably be a big screen with the actually people behind it, eh? Maybe I should check on that...

Another fun site, which will direct you to such fascinating places like this!

And because torque rhymes with Bjork, here is a delightful song for your listening pleasure. Actually, this is really amusing me, does that make me a...dork? Actually, I will download the song so I can make the magic last forever.

Gee, this was so much fun...yes...lookit those SKULLS! HOOHA! Man, this is just one of those crazy sites that makes your head bleed, kind of like superbad.

Am I missing out on something by not listening to the Boards of Canada? I like the Geogaddi artwork...oo this site is pretty. Hooo...aaa.....*falls over in chair*.

Well, not literally. Gee, this sounds very unsafe...yeah. Great....Oh man, I must be bored out of my mind, to have gone to so many sites. And I guess it's a good thing I didn't go to that Liberty State Park Radiohead show, because I wouldn't have been remotely in this crowd, I'd probably be in the back of the line...in another state...yeaaah.

Anti-Bloggies? Yikes. The Radiohead obsesser isn't that obsessed with Radiohead, ah. See what wonderful prizes that person got? Well. Sometimes the world just sucks like that. HA! Crap, that's a lot of quizzes.

For whatever reason I can't understand what a meme is. Actually, there are many other things than that that (I said that that...damn) I can't understand. Like HTML. HTMfreakinL. I use Frontpage, you know. Am I one of the dumbest people on earth? I can't understand CSS either. Or...or...*feels useless*...

*yawn*...three posts today, I've hit my limit. Boohoo. I think I've hit a new low in my life, that during my vacation, no one is really online. Nice how these kind of things work out for me.

I ate snails for lunch.

...well, not just snails. That was just the appetizer. I mean the HORS D'OUVRE...wait, did I spell that right? Eh. I'm quite disappointed that after taking French for so many years, I've pretty much forgotten everything already. But yeah, doesn't that just make your mouth water? The snails! Hey, don't say anything if you haven't tried it...

Oh well, I just blew a chunk of money at insound. If you ever buy stuff from there, use my code roboppy and then you can help me save some money, pleeease? Please? Eh well, here's what I got, if you're curious enough:

Zealectronic Aubergine - Fleischmann

For Friends: Tomlab + Audio Dregs - Various Artists

Hydro Electric - Phonem

A Choir of Empty Beds - Fleischmann

Battle Record - 8-Bit Construction Set

Yeah doesn't that just...uh...I dunno. I hope it wasn't a waste. The restriction I put on myself was to keep everything under $50, and I had a coupon so I kind of got free shipping, phew. I don't usually spend much money, I think. So it's alright...right? I always feel guilty for some reason when I buy stuff that I'm not really DYING to have, because it's not as though I did any hard work earning my money (besides just living) and maybe I'm just throwing money around too carelessly when it could be used for much bigger better things in the world. Is that odd? Maybe I could save children in third world countries instead of eating those SNAILS! Goddam snails!

And this Beachwood Sparks album is great! Yeah, trust me, okay? I like the dude's...voice...all the dudes. Four dudes! It's all sweet sounding. Maybe it'll give you nice dreams. I had some very odd dreams last night, but I think I've forgotten them all by now. Which is weird because I had them...YES I remember! Alright. I was...nevermind, I can't explain it. But I can picture it (yes, I know you don't care).

If the some of the images didn't work before, can you tell me if they work now? Or if they still DON'T work? I think I corrected it. :)

I think we should have a moment of silence for Rebecca's teeth which have just been RIPPED from her skull. *bows head*....

This might be a dumb question, but should I go to a Gorillaz concert next Thursday? I wouldn't think twice about it if it was on Friday, but ugh, THURSDAY! I hate that. School! I HATE YOU, SCHOOL! Diana asked me to go because one of HER friends asked her, and she said she'd go if I would go to. I haven't even got their album (not really a fan, but I don't mind them)! Diana at least has it....mm. Well. I think if my mum lets me, then I'll go, and then I'll just suffer the next day. Eh well, Diana has to work the next day too, so we'll all suffer in unison, how about that? :P

AAAAARRRGH! I just remembered what I forgot to buy at the cd store (about 9 hours after I was there, of course)...Godspeed You Black Emperor! How could I forget? *sob...weep...getting all weepy for no reason*...well, I could have saved a DOLLAR, you know? A FREEEKIN DOLLAR!

...sorry. I dunno what's wrong. It's just a dollar! It's just music that I really wanted, but obviously not enough to have remembered in the first place! I should make a list of crap I wanna buy, my memory sucks, and it sucks, and I suck! There will be other opportunities for me to throw my money away, yesss! Wait...yeah, now I really don't know what I'm talking about. I guess my Tuesday has gone off to a good start, eh?

I think the simplicity (and pinkness and whiteness) of my new design for this site gives the false impression that maybe I'm a calm peaceful thoughtful artistic mindful person who loves the world. Well let's just say it doesn't make me look like a homicidal maniac, but in any way, it's all wrong! EVERYTHING! Well...no, not a homicidal maniac. Let's just get that out of the way. I haven't a clue.

This amused me for a while, although I'm not sure what it...does. And what the heck is this?

Watching ice dancing right now. The Canadian pair completely fell down at the end, ack! I mean they both...totally went down...it was kind of funny at first though. Sigh.

So what the heck have I been doing for the past 2 hours? Going to a million sites of record labels and such stuff for electronic music type...stuff. Am I that bored? It's not really boring, actually. But so many of these sites are really flash-heavy and my 40 k connection doesn't appreciate that, I think. I wouldn't mind having some nice techno-ee stuff to listen to...

Oh man, they're replaying the canadian pair falling again...!

Anyway. I'm going to download this now, even though I don't know what it is. Great, yeah? I may as well waste some time, hoodeedoo yeah HOOyeah-oo!

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many minutes later

WHAT THE HELL IS THIS PROGRAM?! It won't work. Yeah. Well. I want it to anyway. Error: The buffer memory has been lost and must be restored. Well, that tells me so much, I practically hold all of the world's knowledge in my pinky, now what?

Ah well, to make me feel better, the New York Daily News did a review of Rufus's concert. :)

Okay, so I guess this works? Besides the site tracking icon ending up in the middle of nowhere, this layout somewhat works. *cheer...CHEER dammit*

Because there's nothing more I'd love to do than buy a t-shirt for 30 pounds...mm.

HOLY CRAP...why does the phone keep ringing? It's safe to assume it's not for me, and then my mum never really expects any phone calls, so they're all CRAP I guess. Actually, at around lunch my grandma called and neither my mum or I like to talk to her. That might sound mean, but...it's true! First of all, she speaks to me in Taiwanese as though I'd understand (I don't, by the way) and then she speaks in English (somewhat) about stuff that...actually, nevermind. No matter how annoying I must find it all, it must be more worse for my mum.

Anyway. Finally went to CD World. A pretty good sale too, I got "I Might Be Wrong" for $10. I waited long enough to get it I guess. There was a sticker on the CD that said I'd get something free with it, but they ran out. And they ran out of sampler CDs that they always give out. SOB...alright, I've recovered. Also got the Beachwood Sparks self titled album for $9! I don't know if I could have done much better than that for a brand new CD, so I'll be content at the moment. And it's a very good album, although I don't think it's very long because I listened to the entire thing without really realizing I had...listened to the entire thing. Ah...yeah. That's not a bad thing though.

And of course, no Clinic CDs. They had that little plastic insert that said "CLINIC" on it in the cd rack, but no CDs in sight. In addition to that, the free monthly magazine they publish had an article about Clinic. Uh huh...great, thanks. So I'll buy those now, yeah? ...*goes to insound.com*....dumdeedum. FAARKA they have...sorry. Um. Mm. They have Clinic stuff, but I also would like the 8 Bit Construction Set album. Yeah, now I'm really just talking to myself, sorry...that you are still...reading this....bloop bloop...bleep bleep.

Actually. I can just wait till the end of the month until their next album comes out and buy everything at once. Yeah, why not I've already waited a few months...I'm patient (or maybe it's just laziness).

...um. uhhh...wait, is it Monday? I barely noticed, having no SCHOOL and all. I woke up after 1 PM. Hm. I guess I should dinner now...tofu and salad, here I cooooome!

Wait, watch this first. Hooha. It amused me, at least.

Man, look at this picture Diana drew of a young Rufus wearing an apron (and damn proud of it...HA!).

Okay, a little silly, but it made me laugh. She also drew a picture of me playing guitar in the bathroom, hm.

Well then, my Sunday got off to a fabulous start. Initially, I felt like puking. I could almost swear my body temperature went up a few degrees, it was about the most uncomfortable thing...well, that's not true, there are many things worse than nausea. But still. And then it went away, and I went back to sleep, later waking up and eating my lunch of EEL and rice. My mum says it's a symptom of menopause, which I definifely don't have, so...hormones. Screw em.

While I was eating lunch, I wanted to read something so I picked up an issue of US News about colleges which was buring in the back of the magazine rack in the kitchen. Blargh. I skimmed it and have come to the conclusion I'm screwed as for getting into any college my family would consider good (then again I didn't need to read the magazine to figure that out). My essay would go something like "I hated high school. And I'll hate college. YOU SUCK!" Ah, yes, it practically screams Accept me! I am good student-slave-meat! But really, if there are so many other people out there who are better, then why should I even bother? At least I don't think I have to take any SAT IIs...in the school I go to, I've beem made to believe that I HAVE to take a science, a math, and an English (I mean, I know you don't have to, but anyway) but that's because these people in my school say things like "Yeah, I wanna go to Amherst, no where else," and related ideas that make me wonder where I've gone wrong. Honestly, there's no college that I want to go to. Just stick me in one where no one will bother me, 'kay?

:) I know, I sound absolutely pleasant, so full of potential and crap! Yeehaw. Actually, I'm just full of semi-digested organic material.

I took this test although I'm not completely sure what my results mean yet:



Anyway. I took a nap at around 8:30 after reading The Universe in a Nushell (it's interesting enough, but if it didn't have so many illustrations I probably would have stopped reading it already) and I woke upat 11:30. So generally, this is why I'm still completely awake after 2 AM. Not that I care, my mum is still awake, she was taking a nap too.

Mm. Well. I wish I could see Homesick for Space tomorrow. But. Eh. I just saw Rufus, I can't be too greedy. :) Roof.

...man, I don't want to make another post. I'm editing this one, haha. mm. Here's a survery type thing from this journal and some stuff I left in that that person wrote, if I agreed (in italics!):

5 THINGS THAT SCARE YOU
1. food made from eggplant
2. the current state of America
3. ignorance
4. insane clown posse
5. the ocean

<--I agree with all of those...at least I can't think of anything better. wait, the idea of a neverending universe scares me. maybe that number six.

5 THINGS THAT MAKE YOU LAUGH
1. an army of emoticons
2. cheese...not the cheese itself, but the word I guess
3. a drunken Thom Yorke
4. Rufus Wainwright
5. blogs of weak, spineless people (I don't think he'll kill me for linking to his page...or maybe he will)

5 THINGS YOU LOVE
1. Kid A (listening to it right now)...okay, music in general. :)
2. chocolate
3. people who can be thoughtful/intelligent and completely loony/psychotic (you must be both to win my affection, ha!)
4. Idioteque (sorry, still listening to Kid A...it's warping my results...warping my BRAIN)
5. sleep + food + internet

5 THINGS YOU HATE
1. extreme hypocrisy <--yeah...sigh...I'm probably very hypocritical myself though
2. big giant corporations having too much power (actually, maybe that should go under things I'm scared of)
3. school
4. periods (yeah...well you couldn't possibly like that, could you?)
5. not being old enough to see certain concerts...*cough*

Actually, that list I made was very pooly thought out, but I guess I'm thinking very...locally...if that makes sense.

5 THINGS YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND
1. mean people and their motives <--yes...stop the mean-ness!
2. goth, punk, indie (etc) people who think they're "nonconformists" <--same here, although I kind of understand it. But not really. Because I wonder if these people realize that by being "nonconformist" they're actually conforming to that standard of nonconformity. ...you know what I mean? just nod and smile.
3. myself
4. why boys don't like me (oh wait...)
5. everything

<--actually, all of those are good. Except I actually know why "boys don't like me" so I'll replace that with "people who drink/smoke/do drugs which I do somewhat understand...these people are idiots! :)

5 THINGS ON YOUR DESK
1. a pile of albums <--Vespertine is at the top of my pile
2. a cabasa (...yeah)
3. astapler
4. a pair of scissors
5. a scanner

5 OF YOUR CLOSE FRIENDS
1.
2.
3.
4.
5.

...five? I can't even think of five people I'd consider my close friends, but honestly, you'd know if you were my close friend. ...maybe

5 THINGS YOU ARE DOING RIGHT NOW
1. listening to "Motion Picture Soundtrack" and thinking it's aboslutely wonderful
2. perspiring
3. realizing its about 3:30 AM
4. scratching my ear because it itches for some reason
5. having a sore butt from sitting here too long

5 NEGATIVE FACTS ABOUT YOU
1. think too much about everything except what's imprortant
2. extremely shy for some reason I don't know but I can't help it one bit
3. thinks everything would be better off without my existance (in some way...hope that didn't sound too drastic)
4. has minimal interests...somewhat
5. not talented enough in anything to do anything so I think I'll just be a garbage man when I grow up, except I can't even do that because I'm a weakling

5 POSITIVE FACTS ABOUT YOU
1. nice, most of the time
2. semi-intelligent (maybe)
3. open minded (maybe)
4. don't hate my family
5. ...um. I've run out of ideas.

5 THINGS YOU PLAN TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE
1.
2.
3.
4.
5.

I can't think of anything. I haven't got any plans. I have "hopes" that don't mean anything though..! Yeah.

5 THINGS YOU CAN DO
1. write <--technically, I can write...hoohaa, look at me go, write-ee write-ee! Okay, that's not really what that means...
2. play guitar <--technically...I can play! somewhat
3. make toast <--I can burn toast...woo!
4. make some people laugh <--sometimes
5. dance badly <--yes, I can DEFINITELY do that!!!

5 THINGS YOU CAN'T DO
1. talk to strangers <--talk to anyone. ugh
2. do physics/precalc well
3. sleep at normal times
4. control my eating habits
5. many many many other things...

5 FAVORITE ALBUMS RIGHT NOW
1. even johansen - quiet & still
2. bjork - vespertine
3. poses - rufus wainwright
4. homesick for space - homesick for space
5. clinic - internal wrangler (haven't actually gotten the album yet, but I will, really)

I have to add GYBE too...!

5 THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX THAT TURN YOU ON
1. ...hair?
2. ...glasses?
3.
4.
5.

yeah a poor list. I don't think about it much I guess. I could tell you the opposite, but that applies to all people I guess.

5 FAVORITE MOVIES
1.
2.
3.
4.
5.

I don't really like movies. I mean there are good movies..that I liked...but. I like all movies by Hayao Miyazaki though. And then there's always "Happy Gilmore"...:)

5 BOYS YOU LOVE:
1. um...Even? Heh.
2. Thom...wait...PHIL! (that would make Alex happy, maybe)
3. Rrrruufus.
4. ...Beck? Well. I dunno. He's cool, how about that?
5. Another? I can't think of another. screw you!

ignore this...its for my future reference

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I finally finished the Rufus page! And I'm gonna assume all those links to the songs work. Now you can listen to Hallelujah...actually, listen to the apron story...:)

So that's pretty much what I did today. I woke up, ate lunch (eel rice, I'll get tired of it some day, maybe) and then spent the next few hours doing...this stuff. I was planning to go to Ackermans (that's a page I made for them although Anthony, the guy that runs the place, never seemed to get it up anywhere so I've just left it here for now) to buy some brushes and mallet things for the drums but then I didn't feel like it. And. Well, yeah. Maybe Monday.

And I was planning to go to NY tomorrow, but I just got my period today. Which is something like 5 days early (not that you need to know...but...I don't want these things to happen!) and ugh. I could go, I don't think I'll feel too sickly (although I usually feel a bit ill) but I don't want to go searching for public bathrooms in lower Manhattan, you know? Yes? The worst time I had my period was during a group tour thing in..Asia. That's a bit vague...Asia...well.

So I've got a fuuun week ahead of me. I suppose it's better to have my period now than during school, just like getting sick or something, but...eh. Mm. R..rar. I think I'll go eat a cookie now before I am glued to my chair.

A new Wallflowers album...coming out in the summer. I barely listened to the last one, maybe I should go listen to it again. Last night I was listening to their first album which might be my favorite, since I forgot it was in my stereo, hehe. I mean...mm...I guess I'm not really into them, but when I do listen to them it's really nice, for some reason. But them going on tour in the summer sounds like possible concert-ing for me, heehee. A few of you could imagine if I could see them 3 years ago, I would have gone absolutely nuts. It WAS three years ago, the whole...yeah...anyway. But the first album is very good...didn't anyone buy it? :)

Oh yeah, wanted to show you another picture of the internet cafe Diana and I went to. That's Diana and her page on the screen. So you see...uh...lots of screens. Tons more than in that picture at least. I didn't even notice all the cameras at the top..oo. And next to all the screen there's a "phone" to listen to audio.

Rufus singing "Hallelujah" = very good stuff...like...FOOD...no, nothing is like food.

Ah, they look so happy! I'm glad...yeah? They skated perfectly it was scary!


What's Your Style? Find out @ She's Crafty
You're a true nature chick who loves the outdoors. Because you're always running from activity to activity, you have zero time for a full, fussy face of makeup. Instead, you want to be able to hop out of the shower, pull your hair into a ponytail, slap on some sunscreen, and go. Just make sure that your laid-back, all-things-natural attitude doesn't lead to you become lazy -even on-the-go girls need to glam themselves up sometimes!

HAHAaaggagGAGGEA *explodes with evil laughter*...it's funny cos I'm just lazy, period. And that's about it! The idea of me having many activities is funny to think about though..hooha...ha!

*yawn*...this is a pointless post, I thought I had something to say, but then I...don't. I am tired though. I had a weird frozen dinner for..dinner. Something my mum got at the chinese supermarket. Beef and something. Hm...

Oh yeah, the picture that I thought came out the best (forgot to put an "h" in the tag..uh..anyway) is this one:



I have another picture that looks nice, but for some reason it was developed panoramic. I've probably said this before, but my camera doesn't take panoramic photos, and almost every time I get them developed there's a panoramic one in there. Anyone in the field of photo development that can explain this? It stinks because Rufus is cut out of the picture...a...then again all you can see his the back of him, eh? Heehee. This one came out okay..this one too, but the other one is more...colorful! :)

Damn, that's funny, and so very wrong, but I laugh of course. Nice sound effects (I'm thinking of the cupid one, all those arrows!...yeah).

Today was definitely one of the most pointess days of school ever.

sidenote: whoa, someone on the rufus list is trying to sell a ticket to the Clinic show I wanted to see, apparently he can't go. WHAT IS WITH THIS? the pain! the reminder that I am not old enough to go, stop it stop it now! someone is out to get me...

Here's my page for the concert so far. This picture came out the best I think. The pictures really didn't come out that bad compared to what I've done before (most of that is really horrible though, so it's not much of a comparison). Still, you've got me, not very good of a photographer, and then the 400 film and the no-flash and the far-away-ness. You can factor that all in! :D

Back to the pointless day of school...it was quite pointless. I didn't even do anything in PHYSICS (for the first periods we continued working on our lab from yesterday but my group finished) and then the second period, my teacher talked about all different stuff and decided to screw teaching us. HAHA! He knew we didn't wanna listen and he didn't feel like teaching anyway. Good thing he kind of thinks like us.

And then..blaarg. Yeah. Math quiz did NOT go well (they're really quizzes, but they're always hard and so..it's poo) and we had a fire drill during it. Oops. Hope he adds some points to mine, I think I got a C, hooha.

Hm...am I the only one who DIDN'T eat candy yesterday? My Rufus shirt would have been nice to wear yesterday, although now I think it's to ored to ...wear. I don't really have any red stuff, I realized, except for my beck sweatshirt, eehee.

Here's a little thingy I made of pictures Diana and I took of ourselves in front of a mirror at the Port Authority Bus Terminal. Eehee. Okay, we had a bit of time to kill, and some film to use up! :D

Hey steph, if you come with me to the B&S concert, then sure I'll go! NAHAHAHA aaa...sigh.

HOOHA I'm home. I dunno what hooha means. But anyway. A bit tired, but I had a great night, woo!

The concert was pretty much packed. I dunno if it was sold out...but then they added the show on Wednesday I think because so many people were going to today's show. SO. Anyway, I forget who the opening act was, but it was kind of odd. Not in a bad way, the music was nice, the guy singing was a bit scary (so very gay) but I guess he didn't take himself very seriously. Some...interesting chit-chat with the audience. So overall, not bad, but nothing I could really get into. :)

And then the RUFUS came! With others. Of course, Rufus was as...himself as ever. Well, he was un-drunk at least (but has his glass of wine handy of course) and said lots of funny things. The thing he said I remember the most was at the end though (played two encores), when he talked about how when he was a kid his favorite toy was his apron, and he'd wear it and...yeah, have I said too much? Aprons, eh? I can imagine, how frightening! Rufus wore a white blouse and some nice pants which looked familiar, but I can't really remember from where. He must have worn them in a performance on TV, I'll have to find out what.

Here's the setlist:

Gray Gardens
The Greek Song
Rebel Prince
California
The Consort
Evil Angel
In A Graveyard
Moulin Rouge
Hallelujah
One Man Guy
Cigarettes and Chocolate Milk
Beauty Mark
Foolish Love
Poses
Across the Universe
April Fools
Tower of Learning
In My Arms
Quand Vous Mourez Des Nos Amours

Lots of stuff! About an hour and 45 minutes (good thing so I could catch my bus!) and the whole place was great, really. No annoying people! And at least it was a nice mix of people...or at least older than what I'm used to, which is very nice. I recorded the whole concert by the way, although it's all a bit distorted. Some of it is quite nice and some stuff is really HORRIBLE but generally whenever he was talking it wasn't distorted, and singing just with piano or guitar came out okay (I have to look in my manual about adjusting recording volumes! aa!). So I was listening to it in the bus, it's very nice to...listen back. Because I forget so much of what actually happens during the concert. At some points I closed my eyes and then it felt nicer, but then it's stupid too, because it's...a concert! I should be watching, right? And in a way, I don't have to, the atmostphere of live music is what I really like, and seeing the people playing is nice too. My seats were alright (balcony row E seat 39), as in I could see the stage fine, although I was angled in such a way that I would be looking more at the back of Rufus's head when he was playing piano. :)

So, I suppose that's it! I bought some t-shirts before the show four of em...one for me, one for Cristen, one for Diana since she didn't have enough money although that's because she gave all her money to ME for the ticket, and another person who will hopefully want the shirt) so thats $80 down the drain. $20 a shirt isn't so bad for concert stuff though, although they're a one-size-fits-most women's shirt type deal. It fits me, although not in such a flattering way. Which is why I avoid girly clothes, *cough*.

Hm, got an e-mail about Belle & Sebastian playing at the Hammerstein Ballroom on May 5. I'm not really into them enough to want to go though. Not a super big fan at least, and they've got tons I think.

And that's all I've got for now. I'll record some stuff from my MD later, and show you my crappy pictures (I'm sure they're crappy, they always are!).

Foo! I've managed to update my blog when I'm not at home, isn't it scary? Okay, maybe not. Mm. I'm in NY right now, killing some time before seeing Rufus. I'm at an internet cafe, neat place, tons of nice flat monitors everywhere...ROWS of em. Yikes. School was a poot, but I didn't really work much. Who wants to work? There's only one more day before vacation. Oh yeah, and...Happy Valentines Day. Ha. So. Happy. :P

Mm..anyway! Only took 90 minutes to get to NY this time. Um. That's good, I think. What else...ate yummy sandwich at Au Bon Pain. YEEAAAH THE CHICKEN. And ate a brownie and a cookie (well I shared with Diana...she's sitting next to me, oo!) And we are all WOOEE for Rufus, yeah? I was listening to his first album on the bus and I like it a lot more than his second one. And I like the second one quite well, just the first one I like more, so yeah. It's all good of course, I'll see if I can record the concert and maybe it won't be crap..

Hey, yours truly (ha) may be able to manage an official Even Johansen website! That would be pretty neat. It's an offer I'm getting, somewhat. I want to keep my little fansite too though...

Gaack, my PAANTS...yeah, that was totally random, sorry. But the pants...food..food...food...mmmmfmfmf! :)

Don't you love games that test your knowledge about genetically engineered food? My tomato mutated three times. Oops. I wonder what it looks like if you get every question wrong...

So I'm feeling stuffed since I ate...food. Eel anyone? Alright, more for me!

Whoa, Karen updated her page! My school almost NEVER has assemblies. In the past three years I remember 2 assemblies (that weren't class meetings, and those are pretty pointless). It would probably be good to have an assembly about cliques and prejudice related issues, but I know most people wouldn't care anyway. Let's just say that anyone who WOULD care is probably already knowledgable about that stuff, you know? Mm. Well.

And in response to what she wrote about beauty...yeah, it's a kick in the butt. I was thinking "The world would be so nice...if there were billions of less people." Ha! Eh. I can understand if someone looks beautiful (just as flowers are beautiful...I'm not really a flower person) but that's such a trivial thing. To me though, no one is really...beautiful. Well, maybe that's too...well. Either no one is beautiful, or everyone is.

What's wrong with my intestines? They're poppin out...set the intestines free! Wait...no! Go back in...*suff stuff*...

I know that made no sense. sorry...

5% addicted to Instant Messenger. How about you?

...yeah, I suppose that may be correct.

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I forgot I had a page at blogspot. I sounded more...angry or something. I don't think I've progressed very much in a year...sigh. Here's a reccuring feeling: "Oh I know what poop must feel like, cos I feel so crappy today. It's a combination of being sick and mentally, being odd, and right now I'm home alone which adds to the constant loneliness of me." HAHAHA I LAUGH I LAUGH AT MYSELF cos it's funny as hell and I use the word "cos" too much. Maybe I should just type out "because" in all it's wonderful glory! But honestly, what the hell was wrong with me? Does anyone KNOW?

Man, I'm way too amused by looking at this old crap. It's like the definitive look into my immature...psyche. That probably made no sense. And not that this is very mature, but really, was I more thoughtful a year ago? In some way maybe? Hm. It's a look into the depressing side of ME YES YES that's what you want! The beginning of sophomore year didn't seem to go very well...



*Take This Test!*

It's lying.

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What the hell is THIS?

I hate hating things, but that's too ironic isn't it? So I guess in reality, one part of me says I don't have anything, and then the other side which is being beaten every second of the day and is tied to a train track in the middle of the southwest where a train comes by ever 5 seconds and runs over it and bashes its skull in with its tons of steel says it hates EVERYTHING and especially you. One part of me says "I want to feel love, wouldn't that just be peachy?" and the other part says "I hate your love, it's not real. I know you don't mean it because no one could possibly love me."

You see that first person but I'm really the second. You can say it's horrible, but it's not. I'm not gonna murder anyone, I promise. Just don't make me too mad, okay? Because you don't really "love" me, no matter what you say.

That's an except from some old entry, and I don't even get it. Now I'm kind of disturbed, although at first I found my older crap somewhat amusing I'm looking at it more with...I have no idea! But what the hell was that about?

YEEHEE I know the names to the songs Even played on WFMU now! EEHEE EEEE....wait, I don't want to be excited. I still want to take a nap...can't take a nap if I'm not worn out and tired. Goes into worn out and tired mode...blaargh.

I like this story...about a Rufus concert that is. I guess now if I ever find myself in a similar situation I'll tell the police guy that I didn't see anything and was so devasted I tried to kill myself. Heehee. And I guess they will sell Poses t-shirts tomorrow. So I can wear Rufus's mug and display it to the WORLD? Ooee...heehee.

...anyway. Help!

Oh yes, I had school today, and boy, did it SUCK! Nothing new there. Except in physics we've started a new chapter about magnets and I really don't understand it at all. Sigh. But the electricity crap isn't over yet either because we have another lab about resistors tomorrow, I think. When will the pain END? WHEN WILL IT EEENNND!?

My Russian teacher has already decided to stop teaching us for the week. I mean, out vacation starts next week and tomorrow we'll be watching "Peter the Great" and I think on Friday we're going to play Pictionary (with Russian words of course), so that won't be too bad I guess. About a third of my Russian class won't be in on Friday. Me, I'm just staying home all vacation! :P

During health the teacher was talking about food. FOOD. What I found so stupid was that she was talking about how cheese is bad for you, but not about how milk (or dairy in general) is bad for you. DOESN'T ANYONE KNOW? And it's not just the fat, for god's sake. "But I drink skim milk! So I'm safe! And you suck!" Nonono, I don't suck, you do! I mean. No you don't...but people just don't know, and it's scary. I mean, the fat in milk certainly isn't a good thing but if I HAD to drink milk, I'd get whole milk...from a farm. Straight from the friggin cow. Why would people want something that's more processed? Obviously milk is supposed to have fat in it. And people in general...man, I dunno, this is such a trivial thing I guess, but people seem to think that making tiny little adjustments in their diet will prevent them from going the American way to heart disease and cancer and whatnot. "That poor kid's got cansah...in his ahss!" (I just had to put that in). I'm not saying I'm an example of perfect health, but it's so easy to cut out meat, dairy, and all drinks besides water out of one's diet!

I ate a falafel wrap today. Falafels = yum.

Before I forget...

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!

..yeah, like you care. Well, I don't care that much, not as though I can celebrate in any way. Well, alright, I celebrated by eating lots of food. I think around this time Chinese people will eat like nuts until the Lantern Festival. I used to like the Lantern Festival...I think. ...yeah. Sigh. I think we'd all go to Chiang Kai Shek Memorial Hall and there'd be tons of people there. You'd be in a SEA of PEOPLE and...wait, was this fun? Maybe it wasn't really that fun. But that place is nice to have in the middle of a crowded polluted city, yeah? Yeehaw.

Just watched the video for "Cocoon"...well, the sound wasn't working, so I just played my CD in the back and miraculously got it to synchronize. Well then...odd video, but I guess nothing is really as odd as the "Pagan Poetry" video. Well. It's up there. Kind of reminded me of it though, just focusing on a naked Bjork (like the "Hunter" video too although that's just her...head. And "Hidden Place" too I guess). Ooh, look, there are red string thingies coming out of her nipples and floating around...! And then she gets all wrapped up in the strings and levitates a bit at the end. Who else but Bjork could do this? :)

I took a nap. It was a nice nap, although I guess I was cranky when I woke up. I think I must always be cranky because when I wake up from a nap I go straight to the KITCHEN. For. Food. I had a pretty disgusting dinner, eating some stuff I got from Whole Foods. Had some vegetable dumplings and lemon flavored Tempeh stuff (tempeh is some soy stuff plus brown rice and other stuff, I think) and that definifely tasted funky. I thought I'd like a lemony flavor. LEMONY FRESH. I guess not. I'll just stick with tofu, I think.

Guh, am I supposed to sign up for SATS? I'm completely oblivious to all this stuff. That's not a very good thing. I guess. Does this mean I have absolutely no desire to go to college? I don't really. I'm not looking forward to it in any way (assuming I'll go the normal way and live in a dorm somewhere and end up hating everything, eehee). But why can't I just WANT to go to college? Why can't I just think normally? Actually, that's probably the thing I'd least want to admit, that I'm as normal as everyone else (or average) but then that's just..socially, I guess. As far as what humans in general are like...

...yeah, I dunno what I'm saying. But yeah, I think I used to figure that I'd just be dead before I'd have to go to college and then I wouldn't have to go, haha! Um. That's a bit morbid, sorry. I'm not obsessed with death. Lately what I've been mulling about too much is the thought that my heart will just stop beating and then I'll collapse and die while clutching my chest and I won't be able to do anything about it. Kind of a dumb thing to think about but I'm imagining my arteries are completely clogged. This might not be true...but my fat percentage is way above healthy (you can guess, if you'd like...but why would you) and that worries me.

I think I was just talking about college and then somehow shifted to dying by cardiac arrest (I'm using terms from health class, kill me). Hm...I'm odd, I know. This is what happens when you don't talk much, you write lots of crap in a BLOG blog blog. I've made myself believe that people who talk too much don't spend enough time thinking, since they're just...talking. That wasn't very well thought out, I know. Wouldn't it be easier if we could all communicate through brain waves and understand each other perfectly? Maybe...not.



What obscure band are you?

I actually DID want to be Mouse on Mars. Well, I don't know what other band I could have been but Mika was also Mouse on Mars. They aren't that obscure are they? Bloopy music. Hooyeah...oh wait, the choices are TINC, The Dears, Mouse on Mars, Modest Mouse, Shonen Knife, The Strokes, Sigur Ros, and Hefner.



What obscure animal are you?

...yay.



What Where You in a Past Life?

HAHA...don't ever come to me for advice. You'll get...blankness.

Last but not least (or maybe it is least):


I am the nature-loving Jesus. There seems to be nothing that will stop me from protecting the earth and my furry friends. I may also have a hidden passion for sweater knitting.

Take the What Jesus Would You Be? Quiz

...okay, I just don't get that one. I'm too lazy to protect nature. Bunnies...heh.

Crap, it's nearly 11...probably doesn't say that in the blogger code since I keep adding to the same thing, but arrgh I hate taking showers. And I haven't taken one yet today...

Hooray for Phil! You know, the guy in Radiohead who sits in the back and...well, no one really knows what he does. :) Heehee.

Iceland...sigh.

The new Bjork video is up! It's a 14 MB download though. ...oh well, I'm always wasting time anyway I guess. If you want to download it click here.

Ate a lot. Again. Got some TOFU. And other stuff. What the hell did I eat...leftovers from last night's dinner, some dumplings, some sushi, some tofu...jesus crap, no wonder my pants don't fit anymore. My pants that I once liked have become most uncomfortable, which I found out after wearing them today. Actually, I already knew that, but I decided I'd give em another try...yeah. Maybe not.

Anyway. Damn I'm tired. I went to bed kind of late. Because I'm not a normal human being that can fall asleep in 7 minutes. Okay, change "normal" to "average"...who are these average people anyway? Hm.

Had a maverlously fun physics quiz during...physics. But I actually got the problem right, which is certainly a turn of events. Then again, I think 99% of the class got it right. People were stumped on the inital arithmetic though...2 + 3 = 5. Even I could get that far! Sigh...sometimes I worry. But I semi-cheated...I had the answer but I wasn't really sure, so I took at a paper of another student that the teacher was holding and I saw that I got the right answer. That's kind of cheating, eh? Eh. Honestly, those quizzes are...aargh.

I don't think much else happened. Well I was thinking about a lot of things, but I'm too lazy to recall them right now, and they're not that important I guess. Well one thing I was wondering was what is really important. A really general question that has no right answer. Great thing to wonder about. Ugh. Shoot me.

I know I took this test already, but what the heck, I took it again:

Disorder	Rating
Paranoid:	Low
Schizoid:	Moderate
Schizotypal:	Moderate
Antisocial:	Low
Borderline:	Low
Histrionic:	Low
Narcissistic:	Low
Avoidant:	High
Dependent:	Moderate
Obsessive-Compulsive:	Low
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I'm avoidant...teehee! I think I'm other things too, but I guess not. Dammit, I'm not that strange...probably took the test wrong. I'll just say that. WOOyeah. Decided to take it after going to this blog which is a nice little...blog. I'm not at all influenced at all by there being a link to my page on it...nuh uh. Har...har. But the person listens to good music, and you know what that means!

Actually, I don't. I was wondering today exactly what the type of music someone listens to says about that person, and I don't know. But it says something. Except it's not really the same thing for each person. I sure as hell don't know what it says about MEEEE but since no one in my school listens to the same stuff as me...well, I'm not surprised.

I took a nice...nap. With an odd dream that I've pretty much forgotten. I had a really weird dream the other day, except all I remember is one part where I was stuck in some giant room and big tentacle gak-things came down from the ceiling and lifted me up. It was extremely odd...anyway. Ate a big dinner too, the Chinese supermarket was closed cos it's Chinese New Year's Eve I found out, and my mum didn't get any food. So we ordered Japanese food. HOO...god, I need to stop eating so much. :P

And I've still got a crapload of English and physics to do. Sigh. The crap is neverending! NEVER! Life is an endless cycle of crap! You can have that engraved in your tombstone, eh?

This sucks. Makes you kind of angry, doesn't it? Eh. Then again I can't imagine ever wanting to be a part of Limp Bizkit...

For a Monday...today wasn't so bad. Except this morning all I could think about was how much I didn't want to go to schoo, but that's a daily thing. Of course, now I'm not really that tired...but I think I'll look into taking a nap anyway. (man, I'm so lazy...ugh).

Physics was definitely the most...blah. BLAH. ...nothing really happened today. Actually, I am tired, I can hardly think. I don't think I actually did much in school. First period, took a test, second period was just...nothing, third and fourth was PHYSICS during which the teacher went over homework problems mainly, then history took a quiz and watched a video. I spent my whole lunch period studying for my Russian map test which ended up being pretty easy...math, ugh, learning crap about circles. Incredibly useful? Ah...no. I can't really understand what makes most of the people in my English class annoying to no end, but yeah, they are. Only once the talkative people were quiet because the teacher made a bet with them to be quiet, and she lost $3. Money, what can you do?

Then again, what's just about as annoying as hearing the talkative people always talking are the other people who complain about those people talking, which kind of adds to the noise...pollution. And sometimes arguing (more unecessary noise, aargh). Do these people know what they're doing? Oh well, it's in all my classes; the honors classes, the normal classes...there's a thin line between the mentallity of the people in each type of class if you ask me. Maybe one type of student can understand a subject better, but in other respects, it seems like half of the student population is just...I dunno. So where does that leave me, I haven't a clue. Which I guess is my problem...

...yeah. Well. My mum cooked me some chicken for lunch, I thought that was nice. She somewhat figured out why I gained so much weight compared to her, even though we pretty much eat the same stuff. Foods like bananas, nuts, and certain grains that even though aren't junk food, will make certain people (ME) gain weight anyway. But I think tofu is still okay. I don't really like vegetables, although that seems to be the only thing I could eat as much as I wanted. Great. I don't have the same genes as my mum at all. My brother on the other hand, I think he does, and in college he eats lots of crap. What a butthead. My brother said that he's more immature now than he was in high school, I think. I could agree with that except I'm not really around him much anymore. I thought he was already kind of immature. Maybe it's just the stuffed animal thing...or maybe the freedom. Or maybe that he can spend as much money as he likes, not that he's really irresponsible with money, but still.

My mum surprised me by giving me twice the amount of Chinese New Year money than I thought she'd give me...eehee! How nice. Except the more money you have, the more you're likely to spend, obviously. Sigh.

What is the point of this site? I guess this was kind of amusing...maybe.

Ugh, third update this day. I try not to go above 2...mmwell. I should sleep. I took two naps today. And I'm still tired. And I've pretty much accomplished nothing. I wasted maybe an hour and a half attemting to do pre calc and physics homework, but got nowhere. I wasted a CD that didn't burn correctly...sigh. That's happened a lot, I don't know if it's the CD or my computer. I'm figuring it's the...cd. Maybe. They were only 50 cents each though...

My mum said she'd give me some Chinese New Year money. My friends in Taiwan have got Chinese New Year vacation now...I don't really celebrate it. I remember it was fun though. Of course being a kid, the best part was getting red envelopes of MOOLAH. I haven't got any since I moved back here though, and I think my mum feels a little bad, but then I feel a little bad for taking her money...aargh! Only slightly bad. I mean, this is the only holiday I could celebrate (except I can't, cos...pretty much no Chinese people live here, hm) I mean, I'm not religious so that excludes all religious holidays (I barely celebrate Christmas) and then to me birthdays aren't a big deal. So. Yeah. I'll probably end up spending all my money too quickly on CDs or something...ugh. No...I shouldnt...should...uh...I dunno. What should anyone do?

Are you Addicted to the Internet? 46% Average@Internet-User.com (41% - 60%) You seem to have a healthy balance in your life when it comes to the internet and life away from the computer. You know enough to do what you want online without looking like an idiot (most of the time). You even have your own Yahoo club or online journal! But you enjoy seeing your friends and going out to enjoy life away from your computer. The Are you Addicted to the Internet? Quiz at Stvlive.com!

Hm. ...

Oh well, since there isn't anyone online to talk to right now and I should be studying for a bunch of tests I have tomorrow (wouldn't you want to memorize a bunch of Russian cities and crap?) I'll do another fun as hell survey

[p.h.y.s.i.c.a.l]
Height: 5 foot..something...maybe...I dunno.
Hair: dark dark dark brown? nothing is really black i guess.
Eyes: dark dark dark brown
Lips: ...um. yeah, i have...those.
Nose: ...i have that too.
Hands: I've got...*gasp*, two of em
Feet: size seven..maybe? um.
Ears: completely...intact
Face Shape: ..uh...i dunno. not rectangular

[s.o.c.i.a.l]
To chill: ...um. sleep.
To do: ..huh?
To avoid: daylight..haahaha...ugh
To relax: in bed. with. stuffed animals.
To shop: shopping..poop.
To be weird: ...huh? these aren't even questions. or. what is this.
Night-Life: well in NJ, I'd be on the internet...or sleeping...whoa.
Vacation: ...sleep.
Weekends: sleep
Job: nooo.
Rainy days: are the best
Friends: ...huh?

[i.d.e.n.t.i.t.y]
Trademark: I don't think I've got one.
Nickname[s]: rob
Theme song: ...none
Favorite song: um...raar. I'll say something by Even Johansen. mmhm.
Movie: muh...ye know, movies suck a lot.
Style synopsis: clothing, preferably.
Guilty pleasures: reading teen magazines and getting a kick out of em (actually, I was looking through a Neiman Marcus catalog and found that amusing too...who buys all that crap?)
Addiction: sleep. chocolate. this crap.
Perfume: god no. perfume is really stupid, honestly I don't understand why people use it. I don't think they're even...thinking.
Word: ...crap.
Relationship: ...huh?
Need: not that you could provide it
Want: ditto
Mood: I don't know.
Habit: can't type well. should use proper punctuation more often. glargh.
Perceived: how the hell should I know?
Discovered: ...what?

[s.c.h.o.o.l]
GPA: ...uh. whatever represents a B?
Schedule: ...lots of crap.
Subject: they all suck
Backpack: It's yellow...holy crap it's yellow. with a beck patch stuck on it. and some sigur ros buttons. and a beaded crying minotaur.
Contents: lots of crap that have to do with school. and a sketchbook that i'll probably never use. and a cd player that has "Quiet & Still" in it. and some pictures of Even and Rebecca, heehee.
Lunch table: the one in the corner of the cafeteria closer to the gym. i sit there alone and kind of barracade myself in the corner with the gigantic round table, eeyeah.
Means of transportation: car. bus (rarely)
Average lunch: dumplings. that i cook at home..mm.
Clique: i'm personally not in a clique. as for everyone else, i try not to pay attention to them.
Social ranking: I think i've gone beyond social ranking, I'm just another...uh...human to breath oxygen, mmhm. is that a rank? "oxygen breather"
Mood at school: i dont know. ask my classmates, ha..yeah.
Over-opinion of school: boring as hell, and holds absolutely nothing to look forward to.

[m.e.d.i.a.]
Movies: ...
Shows: tv kind of sucks too
Books: i haven't been interested in reading lately, reading jack kerouac makes me wanna...not..read at all, ever.
Music: i dunno. stuff that "no one" listens to, ha.
ttings: ...um. yeah.
aritst: stufff....man, i'm so lazy, all I can bear to write is stuff. i'm listening to Even Johansen right now..

Holy crap, did you really READ all of that? I'm sorry for making you do that. This survey was really dumb. Technically they all are I guess. I've got a health test tomorrow. I don't know anything. hm. hmmm. oh well.

The age restiction for the Clinic concert is 18 and older. I think if it was 17...I might just try to get in somehow, haha! ...okay, I guess not. If it was on Friday I think I would try, so if I didn't get in I could at least...do something. But it's not. I'm going to take stephanie's tears and alex's tears and stick em in my jar of SORROW, how about that? ...that made no sense, sorry. I haven't got a jar. I have a can with beans in it though, will that do?

I never looked on livejournal for people who like even johansen before...mm. Well. ee...eee...ee...here's someone. Listened to Poor Rich ones...and William Hut (I want to buy his album...yesss) but this person apparently died back in September. What a shame. Not that I would try to contact them or anything...man, livejournal is slow as hell.

Whoa, Thom doesn't get much hotter than that. HAR HAR "hot" is a dumb way to describe people (unless it's temperature, I guess). Okay, Thom's loving glow of happiness is usually more apparent. Is this a song? It sounded really funny at first, until I realized he didn't say much, and it was pretty odd, actually. I don't want cars at all, I just want bikes. :P

Okay...I guess I'm over the (not) seeing Clinic thing. Although it's probably just because I feel very tired. It's 4 o clock...I woke up at aroud 10:45, then I went back to sleep at 12 or so, then I woke up at 2, and now I want to sleep again. That's not good, eh? I haven't started my homework yet, I'm kind of hoping I just don't have any. My mum just asked me if I wanted anything for dinner and I was too tired...or just...I dunno, too something to think of a coherent...answer. "Muh...uh...do we have any food? Um. I dunno..." I'm sure later on I'll be hungry for something. All we have in the house is fruits, veggies, and nuts. Which aren't bad. But. ...eh, oh well. I know if I sleep then later I'll wake up wondering why I wasted so much time. Then again...

...I have to do my laundry now. It probably isn't even completely dried. 70 minutes never seems to be long enough in the dryer. And no one's really online. Not that I find myself such an intruiging character to talk to...uuggghhghguguguugugug I'll just type gibberish, yeah? yyeeee...a..h . . .h..h.h . . ah . . h.e...he.a..h..e.eaaaahrsmooopppersdscaarlll. Everyone could be dead right now, and I wouldn't even know it. Eehee.

FHAUIUASID! AGGHGHAHGGHAGH

I'm too young to see Clinic at the Bowery Ballroom! THEY SUCK (they as in the Bowery Ballroom of course)! SUCK SUCK SUCK! Diana is old enough to go. I'm old enough to see em at Maxwell's though, except I've never been to Hoboken before, and my mum thinks Hoboken is dangerous or something. Then again she lets me go to NYC by myself, can someone explain that? I think a train goes there...ah. AH. This is...ugh. I must sound...spoiled or something, but really, only so many things in life make me happy. I should have been born earlier, it's all my fault...and i dunno if Diana would be very happy to have to go to NJ...um...man, I dunno, this whole weekend has been a pile of suck.

I just realized that I've got two tests tomorrow to study for, and I haven't..remotely studied for em. I guess I can fail some stuff, no problem, not really. I'm kind of tired anyway, woke up before 11 AM, whoaaa. And already started my day with crap, I think I'll go back to bed then. This morning while peering outside my window, I thought pretty much what I think every morning..."Why even bother to get up? You know the day will suck anyway!" Next Sunday I think Diana and I will explore around lower manhattan though, so maybe that's something to look forward too...sigh.

Why are there nine people on my buddy list online? And I don't want to talk to any of them? Hm. Well.

*Sniff*...mucus. So many wonderful liquids the human body does make, wooyeah.

Oo, e-mail. 3 junk mails and another mail that's kind of like junk mail. Maybe. If I liked punk music...no, *delete*.

Sorry, I'm talking to myself. Don't you hate that?

ANYWAY! Today I didn't do much. I've got a fun Sunday ahead of me...ha. Tonite I saw the play of "The Sound of Music" at Indian Hills High school, I thought it was very good. The singing and everything was very good...yeah. I totally forgot what the story was before I saw it, I think I saw the movie when I was really little. The night pretty much went as I planned...which really won't mean anything to you, I guess only some people would understand. *shrugs*.

I realized stuff...um...yeah nevermind. I missed the CDworld sale and got frustrated for about two seconds. It was from 8-11 but I thought the play wouldn't be that long. And now I really don't want to spend my money, knowing I could have spent less. It's stupid, I know, I thought of many stupid things tonite...I don't like money. I wish I wasn't so cheap. I am, aren't I? And it's not that important, I may as well just steal music from the internet like everyone else, right? Actually, I'm still frustrated, it's just that for the first time in a long time I felt like crying...eh, couldn't have just been...yeah, nevermind, sorry.

I just put up another song...jesus crap, someone listened to it already. that's weird. well, it's pretty bad, but it's only about 4 minutes long...yeah, only

..m...i..mm..hm. hello. poot, that cdworld sale is from 8-11 PM. I'm going to see a play tonite with cristen. Well, it wont be THAT long, but eh. i'm just itching to see "The Sound of Music"...I hope my mum will give me some money.

Last night wasn't so bad. Not that I'll ever have a sleepover with her again...we didn't really have to talk much, I guess that was it. We watched "Scary Movie". If you haven't seen that movie, you're not really missing out on anything. It was pretty bad in my opinion, although I guess there were some funny parts, I just can't remember what they were. Too bad it didn't get to the point where it was so horrible that it became funny, it was just kind of bad with some little funny parts, maybe. We also watched an hour of NSYNC which I hope I'll never be made to do again. It wasn't torture, it was just boring. She brought this tape she recorded with nsync stuff. There was a music video on it for their song "Gone" and that was a pretty dumb video, although most music videos in my opinion are just beyond pointless, don't you think? :P

I know, I sound chipper. WEE. I should get some chocolate in my system, but I've already eaten three pieces today. Eh. Um. Ate at Veggie Heaven, that was good. Tofu "chicken"...I ate too much, dammit.

Someone has asked me to make a video of beck stuff. I don't mind really, but the prospect of watching lots and lots of beck stuff isn't the most appealing thing right now. I mean, I don't have to watch all of it, I can just leave the VCRs on, but I'll have to pay some attention since I've got a few tapes to copy. Mmwell, I can imagine years back when I would have loved for people to make beck videos for me...BECK! :)

Well then. My mum went somewhere. This weekend is going to suck, I've only got one more day of doing before having to go back to school. Alright, that's how EVERY weekend is, technically. Nevermind then.

The Grammar Test
Your Score: 78%

Not too bad at all. My grammar skills are definitely above average. But, as they say, there's always room for improvement!
Test yourself at geekykid.net

..that isn't very good. mmwell.

Were you a gifted child?
Your Score: 51%


Test yourself at geekykid.net

YAAAAAAAAAAAAY

This is really cool. I put the scary picture of Jonny and Thom in it...mm...well then

Times girls have said, “Hubert’s so cute!” and then hugged me: 0...aw, my poor brother. That's kind of sad. At least he's got the PENGUIN! Maybe someday I'll show you a picture of me and my penguin. Eehee. Probably not.

And that's all for now. I'm tired. GOODNITE.

Robyn, What's Better Than Free Satellite TV?

...everything. Just looking though my e-mail right now...most is crap of couse. Unless I want FREE SATELLITE TV!

Speaking of e-mail, last night I found out I went over my limit in hotmail. I had to clean up some stuff. Apparently I've saved tons of e-mails over the past 4 years or so. I still have all those weird e-mails from Willie Trombone (I think only Karen knows what I'm talking about...I don't think I could even explain it, but Willie Trombone is a fictional character. I used to love this game...I swear, it's really neat and I don't even like games that much) and "fanmail"...har har.

Holy crap! CDworld is having some big sale...okay, I guess that wont excite you much if you dont live in NJ (they only have stores in NJ, boy how special)...

$1.00 off all items $4.99 - $11.00
$2.00 off everything $11.99 - $49.99
$2.00 off all used DVDs
10% off everything $50.00 and above
20% off all Pop Culture Items
Buy 1 Used CD - Get 1 Free

Man, I'm glad I didn't go before. Then again they probably won't have the Clinic cds, maybe...raar. I should at least get "I Might Be Wrong" then. I guess I've got my Saturday night planned...great.

Where was I? Oh yeah. E-mails...old e-mails and kind of depressing, especially when they're from people you haven't heard from in ages. Something that annoyed me...well, I guess I can't reallty explain it, so I'll just direct this to Rebecca who might slightly understand what I'm saying; that page he made is still up. the pink one. does it ring a bell? jesus christ.

Rufus talks about luuuuuuuv. Woo.

Sitting here...I want chocolate...and sleep. Can I have BOTH? The Olympics start tonite, I keep forgetting. There's also a Mardi Gras dance at school. I thought it was funny because in the morning announcements they'd say "You have to buy your tickets at lunch. We will only sell 400 tickets..." 400? That many people want to go? I certainly don't. I've never been to any dance at my school. My friend said that people go there intoxiacted and half naked. I'm sure that's only...a small portion of em, but still, why would anyone want to go there? NY almost sounds safer...at least I've never encountered anything extremely odd yet in NYC.

I got some MAIL, wooyeah. Sandra absolutely rules, she sent me a bunch of Radiohead/Air/Beck articles, some stuff I haven't maybe cos they're from Canadian publications. Air is so cute, ee..hee. They're funny, in a...foreign way (since they are..yeah). And Rebecca write the most hilarious letters, I'm telling you, it's sick...unleash your inner Tralfamador.

raaar, I hate the mercury lounge!

...okay, that's kind of a random thing to say. Their calendar is updated, and I'm pretty much positive it's 21+, mm well. I don't know anyone who's over 21, and if I did they probably wouldn't go just because I want to know what Homesick for Space is like live.

I'm sorry, this is a pretty dumb thing to be complaining about. I should be complaining about normal things like the inevitable doom our society will face when big corporations overthrow the government and force us to eat Big Macs. :) But I was looking around the internet for age restrictions because the lowest age (if venues aren't all ages) are usuall 16, I'd say. I mean, it's not like I want to drink anything. Well. I certainly don't have anything to do in New Jersey, eh?

I found a nice review of their album though, compared to Radiohead...I didn't even think that, but it seems like everything sounds like Radiohead. What is with that...?

Homesick For Space-"s/t cd" Immigrant Sun- Here it is, the new I, Robot band. Oh my God! It has a very Radiohead sound mixed with Pink Floyd, a little King Crimson and Sunny Day Real Estate. Ex members of the best scream-o band ever playing some of the best atmospheric rock. That's probably the best way I can describe it, atmospheric rock. Get this, lock yourself in a room with the one you love and make babies, or at least try to. Fans of I, Robot will not be disappointed. It's nothing like, I Robot but it has that same quality that grabs you and won't let you go until it's all over. Then you hit Play again and the whole process begins anew. -JF

The CD is pretty short, so generally, you do have to hit play again because it's kind of...short. Not that that's bad, it's better to have a short album than a longer one with crappy songs shoved in there. Mm. Well. There's another review here, which apparently says it's emo. Robyn listening to...EMO? Then again it's non-standard emo, or something else completely. Well then, that makes it okay. Heehee...um. Don't get mad at me if you like emo or anything, I tend to not...though.

I thought this page was funny. Scroll down to what it says about Brownies..."make sure you have your ID"...uh huh. Maybe on the night I went, everyone who worked there was on crack or something. Hmmm...hm. Actually, I hope they weren't, they all seemed like nice normal people. I definitely wouldn't wanna hang around there if they shoved it with 225 people though...

still annoyed

Warning: pointless post looms ahead. Maybe you should go somewhere else. I'm looking at this site right now. "soul cup"...that sounds nice. I especially like the entry on Tuesday, it's pretty much everything that I think about but can't put into words because I haven't got the ability to do that for some reason. Not sure what the big difference is, but words in my head don't come out correctly when written down. Maybe my brain is speaking another language...roboppy-speak. :)

I'M HOME WOOYA WHOAAA and all the cookies are gone (because I...ate them) but do not fear, CHOCOLATES...APPEAR! *ding*......anyway. Got some chocolates in the mail. I mean, my mum ordered em, they're quite good, and she got them from here. She got two boxes (the two pictured on the page)! One is decorated for Valentine's day though...to me, Valentine's Day is a pretty dumb holiday, like Mother's Day and Father's Day. They're not really bad concepts or anything, but to me it's just another greeting card holiday. I guess it's not really fair to say that I hate any holiday who's main purpose is to make money, although...

Nevermind. Let's think about...not being in school! Hooray! One more day of hell and then there will be a breach in the hell-ness, and then back to hell, but it's okay I guess. That's life. I didn't ask for it, but eh, what can you do. We did a lab in physics, which I somewhat slept through, since I didn't know what to do. Good thing there were 4 other people at my table that kind of knew what they were doing, although I think it was really only two of em that knew what they were doing. Somewhat. I didn't. I feel kind of bad, but I can't help it if I'm stupid, can I? I mean, it's not like in real life I'll need to know how to hook up resistors in a parallel and series circuit thing and hook it to a battery then test the ohms and compare it with...yeah, nevermind, see how boring this stuff is? Do you feel the pain? FEEL IT!

Of course, even though I was tired in school, I'm not now. Sigh. I spent my lunch time studying for my math quiz the next period, which I think didn't go so badly. A B, I think. Bs are good! Why are some people so disappointed with them? Not an A, but not a C either, just be thankful! RAR!

Not much else happening....well, during health I got to practice CPR on the dummy. Those 15 compressions are absolutely crucial if you expect the dummy to live...yeah. It's just a torso. It makes clicking noises when you do compressions on it. I don't know if it's supposed to, but if you ever need to do that on a real human, I don't think there are going to be...clicks. That would be odd though.

One week till RUFUS! The excitement is brewing. I already know that I've got a math quiz next Friday though. Another hard one, most likely. And I've got note cards due in English. Hm.

What do you know, I was just thinking about how much I'd love for Dustin Diamond to teach me chess...because, you know, the power is in YOUR hands...

Actually, no it isn't. See? Boy, that excites me. I think I barely understood anything in those 3 paragraphs. I think I could easily give into the drugs and live never suffering in my fabricated state of HAPPY. Or not. If you haven't, read Brave New World by Aldous Huxley. That book is just a freakin ray of sunshine. :)

And because it's been a while (I guess the perverts have been laying low), here are some more weird search engine queries:

- "invader zim" psychology (INVADER ZIM! It's just nuts. never been very interested in the psychology of it though, I figure Jhonen and his band of slave monkey animators and writers are just GENIUSES)
- rape sex shopping (that just doesn't make sense)
- prettyswanky pacey (how much more specific could it get? That's practically my URL...hm)

Oo, a nice Sigur Ros interview...joy.

Anyway. I ended up taking a nap. At 6. To 8:45. Oops. I didn't mean to sleep that late. Oh well, I guess my life would have been wasted anyway if I was awake. I guess I must have had some dreams, but I don't remember them at all. Mmwell, I guess they sucked or something.

I hope I don't have much homework. I have a math quiz tomorrow which I think is not going to go well. Not that they ever do, but usually the best I can hope for is a B, and this stuff is...harder, so maybe a C. I've always got high hopes. Go me. Wooo.

I'm completely annoyed by that...annoying girl. Yeah? She called me and said she was getting annoyed or something cos I didn't call back. I called her yesterday at around 4 PM and I don't hear from her today, and she expects me to be waiting for her call or something? I went to the bookstore and I slept, and I dislike talking on the phone...mmhm. So I talk to her and she really doesn't care at all what I want to do. I'm not very interested in seeing Scary Movie, but she is. She already saw it and she kept saying that she wants me to see it, but I have no idea why. My mum has to bring us to the vidfeo store to get it too, I mean I don't want to make my mum do more stuff than she has to. Honestly, I don't like watching movies very much, or at least not movies like...Scary Movie. I told her that, and she said "Well, my other friends like to watch movies..." Man, does she have no idea that things most people like to do I really don't? I don't like to hang out, I don't like to watch movies, I don't like to go to the mall, and there are more things I'm sure, but I'm just really annoyed. I'm never going to hang out with her again, that's what my mum and I have decided. Phew. She's still going to make me watch NSync though, although I keep telling her I don't like them. The plan my mum and I have is that we'll just pick her up later so I don't actually have to do much besides watch TV with her and then tomorrow morning my mum can drop her off early. I want to...sleep. Yes. She's so insistent on sleeping over my house and I have absolutely no idea why, my mind is just...blank. Ugh. I'll go to sleep early on Friday.

I ate a TV dinner. Yay. Yum. Dinner. Delish. I feel like dying now, I hate...um...stuff. AIM isn't working correctly in Trillian, not that it matters because there isn't anyone online I want to talk to. I countred the people on my buddy list (well all my stuff put together, AIM, ICQ, Yahoo, MSN) and there are something like 30 names. I don't even know that many people...well some names are just for one person who decides to have a million screen names, but...yeah. Weird. There are probably less than 5 people on the list I enjoy talking to, not that you need to know who the 5 people are. Neheh.

I want to go back to sleep. Maybe I'll eat a banana. Love food. Food food.

42% lazy...how did that happen?

I've never been very concerned about stealing other people's website stuff...stuff. At least I never put copyrights on anything. Who would copy any of my stuff anyway? And if people do copy some code, then they just don't know any better and I don't see the point of attacking them if they're not profiting from...stuff. Or. Whatever. I mean...nevermind. Whatever I say will sound stupid.

My bum...MY BUM! MY BUM BUM BUM...

Anyway. I think I must have been probed by aliens last night. Or not. All day my bum has been in distress. And it's not as though I've put it through any kind of strenuous activity lately (well, sitting on it every day for the past 16 years might do something) and it's not just that, my arms hurt as well, from the elbow to the wrist mainly. I didn't DO anything out of the ordinary lately. So after mulling over this for, oh maybe one minute during school, I decided that aliens used a Mr. Probey on me during my 5 hours of oh-so-peaceful rest last night. HAR HAR...ha.

Well then. I'm tired. Ish. Don't feel like taking a nap though. I went to Borders with my mum and she bought me some stuff. I bought two other Jack Kerouac books that looked more interesting that "On the Road" and shorter too. Maybe I'll FINISH one. And I got a blank sketchbook, because I should probably stop drawing stick figured on my pre-cal and physics notes. Also got a book called Lies My Teacher Told Me since it looked somewhat interesting. Not that history interests much, but more the idea that what I'm learning in school is crap...WOO! And my mum got The Universe in a Nutshell which already looks like a book I'll never finish. Mmwell. I got through a few chapters of A Brief History of Time and Space and it was interesting but couldn't get very far...mm well. You know my relationship with math and physics, right? Yes, it's practically a lovefest...

Oh, what now. HEY I didn't fall asleep during physics, wasn't even that close. At least my head wasn't hovering my desk dangerously. I actually got the homework problem right that we had to do last night, and so that put me in a not so bad mood. The rest of the day was...normal, but not feeling completely hopeless during physics, there's something worth mentioning.

Or maybe...not. But...eh. Eh. I have two cookies left. TWO. I'll probably finish em by the end of the day. I saw a cookbook for COOKIES and BROWNIES and other good stuff in the bargain section of Borders but my mum said we already had cookbooks. But it was on sale! Lots of nice photographs OF COOKIES! Oh well. Yeah, I'm happy just looking at cookies, isnt that sad? Hm.

What the hell is this about?! Jesus christ!

<--that's certainly...um...nice. Having no legs must suck.

During health I got to practice how to help someone when they're choking. Yay. I don't like it when people touch me..GET AWAAY...I didn't say that, but I was thinking it. Eehee. Another thing I was thinking, during pre calc I was looking at the wall (a fun way to spend time, yeah?) and thought what the hell am I doing here?!?!?!?! That was kind of random. Then after that I was in a daze.

I was bored, so I decided to watch the Overthrown music video again. Eehee. Well, some of it. It started looking like a slide show after a while (28 k connection anyone?), mm well. I don't know why I find that video funny, it's not...funny, but it's Libido, you see?

*just nod and smile...yeah, woo*

Hm, maybe I'll go to bed now. Not even 10 PM yet, wow. I haven't got anyone to chat with, I guess it's a good thing, although human interaction even if it's just on the internet is better than nothing, yeah? Not that I didn't talk to any human beings ALL DAY, but eh...

Ate three freakin cookies today. Sigh. I could not resist the COOKIE. And I drank a bottle of...Pelligrino. It seems to taste while while you drink it, but then after that it tastes a bit odd, I guess I'm not completely used to it yet. And now I have to pee...

And to REEbecca, I guess I do take the math contests for fun...they're not ever week, there are two a month. I mean, there are two that I choose to take each month, there are some other math contests that require going to another school each time I think. It's not too painful I guess, and I haven't got any other school activities, if you can even CALL it a school activity.

And another thing: there are always cookies at the contests. *evil smile*...the teachers are nice in that way, yeah?

Damn, I have physics work...sigh. Nevermind, I won't be going to bed until 1 probably...

HAIL THE COOKIES GODS....um...sorry, I dunno what I'm saying.

give into the chocolate chip cookie power! eeeee!

If you're wondering, I ate a cookie. I enjoyed every second. EVERY COOKIE BIT MM yeah. My mum cooked me lunch, I thought that was very nice. Unexpected too. Yum.

Let's start the Rufus countdown! Only nine more days! Woo yeah.

Every day/come out and play/come out for me/sit in a tree...are those the lyrics to Plock? I don't suppose anyone has every gone to my Plone site. I forget about it cos...well, no one goes there, and there's never any reasont to update it, eehee. But Plone = good stuff.

-Due to popular demand, Rufus's album Poses is being re-released February 12th including a bonus track of Rufus's version of 'Across the Universe' as heard on MTV2, VH1 and the film I Am Sam.

...but I already bought it! Damn you! I'm not buying it again...eehee. I think my mum is going to buy the I Am Sam soundtrack anyhoo. But really...sigh.

Mmwell. Uh. School sucked. WOOee, yeah. I had a close encounter with a mannequin. During health, I had to practice rescue breathing on "Little Annie"...haven't a clue why they would name it. It''s just a torso, and it doesn't look like a girl. And it smells like...hm...weird. Well for the rest of the day that's all I could smell. I had to breath into it at least 20 times since it didn't seem to be working. I didn't tilt its head back enough or something. I mean, if it was a real human, I would probably have snapped it's neck or something! Maybe. Not. But anyway...

...uh huh.

I think I should take...a nap. Yeah. Took a nice little nap during lunch after working on some physics *gasp* and now I feel pooped again. I stayed after school to take a math contest. Got 4 out of 6...well, I don't think I would have ever gotten those other two. They SUCKED! FFFRARAAAAPRAPARKPARraar! Yeah.

And it's only Tuesday. THREE MORE DAYS TO GO.

Which British Band Are You?

Man, that made my day. WOOHOO!

Crap. I guess I should check if my audiogalaxy is evil. I don't want to get rid of it altogether...eep.

Whoa, Homesick for Space is playing at the Mercury Lounge! At first I thought "Ah, no good, it's a Sunday" but it's the first Sunday of my vacation! DIANA, I NEED YOU! Um. Yeah. Says so here, but not at the official site. Damn, I need more info! MORE!

..oh wait, I think I have to be 21. Or 18. Damn, I was pretty excited for a second. Figures that when something semi-works out, in the end it really doesn't. :P

Another song. I think I'll just upload my stuff on my acidplanet page from now on. I know, you're at the edge of your seat...HA HA HA!

Huh. I ate too much for dinner. Nothing new. I ate THREE cookies today. Freakin good chocolate chip cookies ooo yeaaah the coookiiessss! THE COOKIES! THEY'RE AMAZING!

Have yet to do any homework, since I was doing that song. Honestly though, I don't know what I was doing, which is why it ended up being more than 6 minutes long. Hm. I made use of the cabasa Anthony gave me last year for Christmas. Or maybe that was 2 years ago...I don't even remember! Eek.

Sigh. But Anthony would be so PROUD of my...drumming abilities. By the way, if you're confused, he was my drum teacher. I took the drums from 1998 to 2000...maybe? I don't really remember. Oops. He said I played like his grandma. Not a compliment...hm.

If you DO listen to the song, the stuff at the end is flute playing gone horribly wrong. Well not really. It's not a typical flute. Cos I don't know how to play those. It's just a ceramic tube thing I found that has holes in it. Okay, not really, but work with me here. It doesn't sound like a flute, but I'm glad, cos the flute stuff came out HORRIBLE! iI was out of tune cos I'm not really knowledgable on how to blow into one of those things. I haven't got the LUNG POWER. My lungs...they're...sub par! *wheez*...yeah.

And if you listen to any of the songs, at least comment on them or something, you can go crazy criticizing me! Yeah, that's what I'd like...better than nothing at all. It would be nice. NICE. :)

I gots me...a cd! That rhymed...HOORAH.

Check out Binky's DeadJournal! Hooray for...deadjournals...yeah!...yeah? Hooray for death! WOO...*throws make believe confetti in the air*

...oh yeah. Got my Homesick for Space cd. It's practically overflowing with...FIVE SONGS. Five is okay. I only paid $6 for it anyway, hehe. And I also got a sampler CD, gotta love those. And some stickers of...stuff. GIMME FREE STUFF!

Hm. Okay, took a listen to the sampler CD, I don't think I like any of that stuff. HAR HAR AARRGH it's okay. Not unbearable. Some of the most unbearable stuff I heard was when Even was on WFMU and before he played all there really terrible songs kept playing. But I listened to all of em...oo yeah...EVEN! Oh wait, seeing POD was kind of unbearable...

...yeah, that was random. Last night I was in this *gug want to sleep hate school sleep sleep school* mood (if that IS a mood) and I was like that today, but I'm fine now. Probably cos I ate stuff. Apparently eating 2 meals a day will make me gain lots of weight. Maybe people aren't supposed to eat more than one meal a day. I'm just accustomed to it, yeah? I was thinking about everything that I do, and if all that stuff really makes sense. Like...eating meals...and going to school. Okay, going to school I'm sure is...needed, but sometimes don't you just wonder "Why do I even bother to wake up and come here? Am I learning anything useful? Will I need to know all this vector crap?" I think that...er, almost every day. Then again I can't be too full of philisophical proufound-ness since I'm still a dumb teenager, yeah?

Sigh. We were talking about that in history, somewhat, about whether of not our society is progressing, and I would think...not. I'm sure 10 years ago people were smarter, yeah? I think at this rate, there will only be a small handful of "smart" people in the world and everyone else will get dumber and have to rely on the smart people for computers that break down a lot so we have to buy more of em. Um. Well. I got a chocolate chip cookie in my stomach. That is happiness in a bun...yup, in bold, it's just that bun-happy.

Physics is getting much more horrible than before. I think. This electricity crap is about as useful as a dead skunk, although it doens't smell as bad. Speaking of things that smell, this kid in my history class smokes and today he carried the most wonderful scent of putrid cigarette air into my corner of the room. Anyway. Physics = crap. Shoot me.

Today was senior cut day. I guess the cafeteria was noticable less crowded, like the table of seniors near me was...completely empty. There were barely any people in my Russian class, although that was because some people wre also absent. Our quiz got postponed though, and we watched a video about...Russia and speaking Russian stuff. Well, it's a bit old so they still refer to it as the Soviet Union, hm...yeah.


I am RUFIO.
Find out which band you are!

...what's Rufio? Hm. Well, apparently, that's what I am, not a carbon based life form as I had always believed...

Oh yes, I had no idea that the Superbowl was yesterday. Oops. I mean, until I heard about it on the radio this morning. Hm.

And is it just me, or is my crappy messageboard not working? I can't post anything at least. It HATES MEE oh and I thought I was doing so well....sob.

I took a nap. Woo. Ee. ...I could say more, but you've heard it all before. I'm trying to think of something else to say...

So far on this Poor Rich Ones CD, I like the first two songs the most. And then I found out they were both recorded by Even, heehee. Okay, that's not the only thing, they're also the two newest songs and...um...

I had weird dreams again, I think. I remember I was chatting with Rebbie and she was talking about Even. Ee...hee. Ugh. Well it's kind of depressing...I mean. ...neh, I dunno. I realized that anything that makes me happy also makes me depressed, and it's not like the two cancel out and make something neutral, it's just one or the other. Or...something.

doodoodoo.

Man, are my hands always greasy or something? The liner notes are getting gross lookin. I did that to my copy of Quiet & Still, it's all messy looking with fingerprints. Sigh. I'm stupid or something.

Protest, wee! Ee. Oh I never did say that I finished No Logo, did I? I did. Very good read. Buy one now. Or get it off a friend. Or. Um...I dunno. The chances of you buying it sorely on my words is low, eh?

Argh, I've still barely read any of...ff...the phone is ringing. Screw it. Anyway. Where was I. This book...yeah. I should have just chosen a poet to write about for my essay. Poems are shorter than 300 pages, if I remember correctly. Hm. Unless they're...not. Sigh.

Oo, yay to Karen I'm not trying to sound sarcastic or anything, I'm just tired, sorry. Then again it's depressing because I just realize more differences between us. Actually, I see that with all the people I know, even the people who have something somewhat in common with me, which is kind of why I don't like...um

mm, nevermind. Still thinking what I'm going to do about Friday. I don't want to have anyone over! Argh!

I'm hungry. But. I ate a lot today already. As in, I had two meals and something in between. My mum cooked me beef and rice, how nice...sigh. poor mum. I think she's sleeping now. Always tired, we are, I guess. I'll eat anyway. This weight management thing isn't really working. And why don't people sign the guestbook? Not really this one, but my diskobox one or something? Why did my site get 37 hits today? Why doesnt...um...mm. I don't get people. I don't get this either, but probably cos I don't watch TV anymore. Still, I used to and I don't remember those Dell commercials having much impact on me, or at least not the guy in the commercials. I thought they were as dumb as any other commercial I've seen. Oh well, I guess it's nice that the rest of the world doesn't think like me, we'd all be screwed.

I know none of you are wondering who Joe Maynard is...but I was. Here's a nice review of the Poor Rich Ones CD I got. Why doesn't anything ever sound like Radiohead to me? Mm well. When I think of Radiohead I think of...weird...stuff. In a good way.

I'm tired. I only woke up...about an hour ago, but it's Sunday and that just means I've got school tomorrow. And I have to do my homework. I hope I don't have that much. My laundry is washing as we speak...oo. That's all I can do on Sundays pretty much...LAUNDRY. Woo.

When I woke up it felt so odd. The sun...shining...no! Actally it's kind of cloudy now, but an hour ago I think it was pretty sunny and I just like rain/snow really. And I could hear the kids next door playing outside, which isn't a giant rackert or anything but I'm thinking "Go back to sleeeeep..." I had the most messed up dream too, I think. I remember it was like some weird movie with Conan O Brien in it, but it was a drama, a creepy one too. I don't remember the plot, but it was very weird. I remember a train and a cloudy city ish place. I think it was...Europe. ...yeah, that means nothing.

Why would you microwave a smilie? Stop the madness.

Listening to "Old Age and Failures" by the Poor Rich Ones, it's a nice song. Download it. ...oh nevermind, you'd not going to download it.



Go me. Well, course I'm not Moby.



HAHAHAHAheehee.

Raar.

Today was okay! Uh. Hm. Anyway! More about the "raar" later I guess. I woke up at a normal time...12-something. And I ate at the coolest restaurant called Veggie Heaven. Heehee! Ee. I had chicken curry, although it wasn't really chicken, it was tofu stuff. It was so good...whoa. Yeah. And my mum had this tofu-nut-salad thing and that was REALLY good. There was a taro donut in it too. It was like a donut with...taro filling. Kind of weird, not very healthy since donuts are fried, but it was really yummy. I ate so much. IT WAS SO FREAKIN GOOD AAAGAGAG!

I eat way too much. I was full, but later I got hungry again and ate an apple and an banana. And then I felt like puking.

Anyway! I went to Cristen's house and watched TEEVEE, so much tv to seee! Ee. Heehee! We went to Ramapo College to see Lucy Kaplanksky play, but the performance was sold out..oops. But we weren't too depressed...mm, yeah. I mean, if that time I saw Even Johansen sold out, I would have probably cried. HAR HAR HAR oh boy. Anyway! We went to Blockbuster and decided that 99.99% of the movies SUCK. But the best (or the worst) of it all was BOY WONDERZ. With a z...yes. Look at that page...look at that picture. Doesn't it feel wrong? Holy crap. Yes, run out to your local video store and BUY IT NOW YOU MUUUST...

please dont.

Her dad drove me home, but then my mum wasn't there and I forgot my key. Oops. Go back to Cristen's house, yeah! We watched a bit of Charlie's Angels and then we watched a show called Becoming on MTV. Well, I've never seen it before, okay? Isn't that show kind of...sick? I mean...well, you know what I mean. Or maybe you don't. It's such a weird concept, for a fan of some artist to want to BECOME them. I mean, I don't want to be Thom Yorke or something! Obviously, that wouldn't work. The episode that was on was for Britney Spears and the girl did her own video for "I'm a Slave 4 U" (did I spell that correctly incorrectly?) and it was weird. Yeah...alright then. Just seems like such a waste of everything, but then most TV is a giant waste.

Oh well. My "raar" in the beginning was because my mum and I were talking about this upcoming sleepover on Friday (if you don't know what i'm talking about, read yesterday's entry) and how I could get out of it. She feels obligated now since she met the girl's mum, and she kind of forced my mum. Actually, my mum figured out something that makes a lot of sense now, the girl...she acts like a little child. I mean, I never looked at her that way because she's 20 years old, but not that I think about it, the way she acts wouldn't be so different from that of a seven year old, maybe. So maybe now when I talk to her I'll just pretend I'm talking to a little kid. I don't imagine that I can tell her that I don't want to hang out with her because she's too childish for my taste, I mean...ugh.

I've probably had too much time to think about it. My mum implies that it's my fault she's sleeping over, that right off the bat I should have said I had plans or that I don't like sleepovers (which is half true I guess) but I wasn't really thinking at the time, kind of caught me off guard. It's stupid, this whole thing...yeah.

Listening to the Poor Rich Ones, got my CD in the mail today! Woo. Nice songs, William Hut sings very well...*happy*.


Which Carbonated Beverage Are You?

Yeah, that's not true. Oh well.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY STEPHANIEEEE

Here's an important lesson: don't cook dead cats.

I'm listening to Amnesiac right now. Haven't listened to it in ages. Jesus christ, this is good, it's too good. I'm scared. *gulp*...

soaking in radiohead. ahhh. save me.

you must check out singlecell.

I wish I had this, don't you? ok, i'm lying.

Jesus christ, I got 15 junk e-mails...no, I do NOT want to see any live girls having sex. Sorry...

As much as I would love to take advantage of a waste sale, still not cheap enough. Give away stuff for free, and I'll...buy it. Ha...ha...sigh.

New Bjork stuff, yes! YAY! I think I'll buy the DVD. When it comes out. Woofa.

"Those breasts were lethal weapons," he told reporters. ...they sure were. What is wrong with the world? Can someone please tell me?

Today was definitely odd. Sigh. First of all, I woke up at around 8. School starts at 7:35. OKAY...but unlike the last time I was late to school, this wasn't completely my fault. There was a blackout and my alarm didn't go off. And I wasn't the only one, when I got to school I saw some other people who had gotten up late, and later heard about other people being...late. Oh well, if I'm late two more times I get a detention, woo, as if that's a punishment for being tired, I don't know.

Anyway, there was another little blackout during third period (physics) so for half an hour or so, we didn't do any work. WOOEE. My teacher said "You know, it's Friday...I don't feel like doing anything." So he just talked to us about stuff. I don't mind when my physics teacher talks about non-physics stuff, he usually has interesting things to say. But then the power came back on and...well, that sucked. I think the middle school in my town cancelled school because of the blackout...I wish.

And. Yeah. It was all cloudy and rainy again. Woooyeah. Nice. Didn't really feel like I did much in school today. I guess I never really feel like I do much. It was boring. Period. There.
So, I actually had plans after school. Whoa. I went out of the house, amazing, I know. A girl in the special ed class wanted to "hang out" (a note: I hate hanging out) and I figured I'd be nice. I've been nice to her all year pretty much because...well, I dunno. I don't want to be mean to someone with mental problems...or anyone really, but anyway. Hm. Yeah. She's pretty annoying, I found out after spending hours with her at the mall (another note: I hate the mall). First, she, my mum and I saw "Beauty and the Beast" in the IMAX theater. It was pretty nice. Gigantic. You can see how primative animation was before computers...ha ha. Actually, I think that movie was the first, or one of the first to use some computer animation. It's very little though, but when the screen is GIGANTIC you can really tell.

And then we ate. Food. Yay. Buffet. Crap. I probably gained a bunch of weight. Hate that. Well, who would like that?

After that...oh wait, before we say the movie, we went to FYE to look at the CDs. No Clinic or Beachwood Sparks, so I'll have to buy those online. Or maybe I should wait until after the Rufus concert. Sigh. I can wait another few weeks. I want to buy em from here since that seems to be the cheapest place. CHEAP WOOHAHA!

Oh yeah, I was talking about something. Well my friend wanted to buy a CD because she liked this song she kept hearing on Z100. She didn't know the name of the song though or the artist. Real helpful. So I asked her to tell me how it went and she couldn't really tell me I guess. She asked the people who worked at the store and they actually figured it out (the Nickleback CD, turns out) and so she bought that. The thing is that she wanted to listen to it before she bought it so she'd know that she wanted it. Alright. So she got to listen to some of it at those listening station things. I told her that we didn't have much time because the movie would be starting, but I guess she wasn't paying attention to me, cos she wouldn't stop listening to it. I mean...I dunno. I like to be punctual. And it's not just that, but she didn't listen to me at all, or she doesn't know the value of being on time, I dunno. I listened to some of that Strokes album, and honestly I wasn't very into it, so I guess it's just not my kind of music. But anyway...she thought I was getting mad at her. I don't really get visibly mad, if you know me well enough, I was just getting annoyed. I felt horrible, it was written on her face that she really thought I was getting mad and I dunno, she almost looked scared. I wasn't! I mean. Well. Maybe I was. I said something like "We have to go soon, my mom wants to meet at 4:50, okay?" And at 4:50 she was still listening and I told her we had to go, blah blah blah...and...man, nevermind. She kept thinking I was angry. "Robyn, why are you angry?"

But that really bothered me, I felt so bad. At the same time I'm thinking "This isn't my fault..." but. Argh. I can't act like myself around her for one thing, we have absolutely nothing in common, and then I really have to think about what I'm saying before I say it. I mean, how do you talk to someone who you know...man, I don't even know how to word it. My mind isn't on the same level as hers. She seems to forget some things really easily. She told me some things multiple times while we were at the mall, like the grades on her report card and her school schedule and stuff, I just don't know.

Oh yeah, when we were in the car going to the mall, she asked me if I could sleep over that night. Ah...well, technically I could, but definitely didn't want to. I don't like sleepovers, not really. Okay, I definitely don't like sleeping at other people's houses, I don't mind mine so much, but even though I don't have sleepovers often. My mum wouldn't want me to sleep over at her house, so she suggested she sleeping over our house. Okay. I mean, we didn't really invite her, my mum just wanted to say something nice so I wouldn't have to go over. But later when we dropped her off and met her mum, she said "Robyn invited me to sleep over her house next Friday, is that ok?" I'm thinking, "I didn't invite you," but how do you reason with someone who...doesn't seem to listen? That's what I noticed that I probably wouldn't notice in school. She doesn't really listen, and she gets frustrated easily. And she's agressive. Why ask anyone anything if you've already decided in your mind what you want that other person to do? She kept asking me what we could do next week, and then she said she'll bring over some NSync and Backstreet Boys videos, and a movie of some sort. Alright...I don't like to watch movies (not really...nothing really popular at least) and well, forget the other stuff. But I said...ok. Once won't kill me, right? I think from now on I'll just have to say that I'm busy ever single weekend.

I'm really going out of order here, but anyway, after dinner we went...ICE SKATING (cos there's an ice skating rink at that mall, just to clarify). That wasn't so bad. I've NEVER ice skated before, just to tell you. I thought it might be like regular skating, and well, it's not really. When I stepped on the ice, I was like..."HOLY CRAP this is nuts" because it was slippery as hell, if you can imagine. After a while I got the hang of it (hey, at least I didn't fall on my butt) but it's really uncomfortable, jeez. Then again, I had rental skates. We were skating at my friend had some problems with her skates. Actually, the first time we went around the rink my feet had some kind of cramp and it hurt like hell. Later, the laces of her skates had some knot in it and she didn't tie them correctly so they came undone. She actually asked for help from some random stranger that was there. I'd never even think of doing that, I'd just get a new pair myself or try and get out the knot. I thought that was...weird. Meh. So. Ice skating = not so great. Maybe if you're with the right people, it's fun, but I dunno who those people would be for me.

After that, she said she wanted to go to Afterthoughts to get a ring, but they didn't have it. We passed Hot Topic and in the front of the store I saw a sign for INVADER ZIM MERCHANDISE! OH GOD. Hot Topic. That saddens me. I guess that store would have Invader Zim stuff, but honestly, I don't like that store much. I heard they had Radiohead stuff too. I mean...ugh. I can't explain it. I think I don't like the store because it seems to be trying to provide alternative style and at the same time, it's extremely...not. I don't know if the people who shop there know that, but whoever thought of the store must know. Do you know what I'm talking about? Some people seem to think that they'll have a more unique or cool style if they shop there (and other places...uh...yeah) as though they're making some kind of statement, but it's completely the opposite. These companies make money by feeding off the naive idea that...

I forgot what I was talking about. A good thing I guess, I wasn't getting anywhere, sorry. They had Gir shoelaces... But Invader Zim is being cancelled, so it's sad. And none of the shirts just had GIR on it. And. I'm cheap.

...um. Mm. I'm just frustrated, I don't want to be mean to this girl, but I don't want to hang out with her. She's too insistent on "hanging out", she practically invited herself to my house. I hate it when people do that. Well, I don't really know anyone who does that, actually. I guess she doesn't have anything else to do. Honestly, I love doing things alone. I had some songs in my head I wanted to get out, but it's already kind of late so I guess tonite I won't be doing anything. I've forgotten the songs anyway. I think. Sigh. I hate that.

Oh yeah, for that Willy Wonka test, I was Augustus Gloop. "Eating everything in sight: I'm hungry." That pretty much sums it up, eh?

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BEWARE!!! SURVEY AHEAD!!! RUN FOR YOU LIVES!!!

four things you would eat on the last day of your life:
1) lots of really good french chocolates, ALL KINDS
2) lots of eel + rice
3) lots of ice cream + cake
4) lots of raisins + walnuts

*sorry, thats more than four i guess. i cheat. i'm am awful cheater*

four cd's from your collection that you will never get tired of:
1) "Quiet & Still" - Even Johansen
2) "Kid A" - Radiohead
3) "Rufus Wainwright" - Rufus Wainwright
4) "For Beginner Piano" - Plone

*honestly, there are more than four. this survey is quite restrictive!*

four movies that you adore:
1) Castle in the Sky
2) Totoro
3)
4)

*I don't really adore movies...I don't even really adore those movies, but it's all I could think of. If I ever see Nausicaa, I'm sure I'll..."adore" that too.*

four vacations you have taken:
1) japan
2) taiwan
3) france
4) california (going along with my "foreign places" theme...hey, it's pretty foreign to me. i'm not much of a west-coaster)

four songs you get stuck in your head recently:
1) any annoying crap i hear on z100 (argh...you could say, just stop listening to it, but it wakes me up in the morning and i need that. to get to school. i hate alarm clocks)
2) something by even johansen
3) something by clinic
4) actually, i've just been making up my own songs in my head to get the other songs out, and then after a while i forget my own songs. so.

four things you'd like to learn:
1) sing like bjork (well, i guess you don't learn that, you're just born with it)
2) HTML (or every other computer language thing)
3) every language in the universe
4) how to pay attention in school...okay, that was a bad one. there are a million things i'd like to learn, how can i just narrow it down to four?

four beverages you drink frequently:
1) water
2) water
3) water
4) water

*what else could i drink frequently? yeah*

four places to go in your city:
1) i dont
2) really live
3) in a
4) ...city.

four things to do when you're bored:
1) go on the internet
2) sleep
3) read
4) eat

four things that never fail to cheer you up:
1)
2)
3)
4)

*well, NEVER fail to cheer me up, that's tough. there isn't anything that would NEVER EVER fail to cheer me up. Some things will cheer me up sometimes, and sometimes they won't, so...yeah. actually, i'm just too lazy to think about this question*