This person has autographs from Beck and Radiohead? Geeeeeaaaaarrgg! :)

Wah. I made a really crappy flash animation which consists of a bouncing ball, lots of blobs, and...uh...yeah. Mmwell. You have to start somewhere. At least I like the song ("Rocket in the Pocket" by Console...which is why I called it Rocket Power!, hehe. I cut the song down a few minutes). The song doesn't match up with the animation (not on my computer at least) whcih really bugs me...eh. The whole thing only took me a few...hours...those few precious hours of my pathetic little life, *sob*.

..er. Yeah. Whatever. Sooo. My family had a nice New Years Eve dinner, I guess. My mum bought a duck. And we had a hot pot which is something we apparently do every year but I always forget. Eh.

Not many people online. So they're probably out doin STUFF unlike me. Not that I mind staying home, but...eh...nevermind, wouldn't make any sense to write about it here.

I don't think anything else happened today. Uh. Haven't done any homework, that's for sure. I want to kill. Things. Which start with "ph" and end with "ysics"...sigh.

..oh, am I supposed to reflect on how the year went like karen? Mm. Okay, I'll give it a go.

This year sucked ass, just like ever other freakin high school year, although maybe not as bad as last year. Actually I'm overreacting, this year I went toa buttload (well, not really, but for me at least) of concerts, starting with Sigur Ros, then Air, Radiohead, and Rufus/Beth Orton...AND EVEN JOHANSENNNNN but anyway. Why did I just do that? That was great. Even. Wasn't just the performance itself (I've forgotton most of it sadly). The whole...thing. I dunno. That didn't make any sense. Actually. ...I'd like to believe that life is just pointless and dumb, because I think this past year I've realized how dumb everything is (boy, am I eloquent or what). Oh yeah, I totally forgot about September 11...well, that sucked. I was somewhat out of it for a while after that, but now I realize that other problems are just going to be pushed in the dark. And year, terrorism is baad, but honestly, how could people think this would never happen? I think many people thought "Duh, this is America, we live in a bubble of happiness and peace" or something. I'm getting sick of seeing American flags on everything now to tell you the truth. I mean...that sounds kind of bad doesn't it? Okay, well...guh. Nevermind

Screw that whole thing. Um...let's see, this year I realized that life may never get better, in fact it'll probably get worse because at least for the time being I live at home and my mum cooks me my meals and I have my own nice comfy bed with stuffed animals. And after that? I dunno. Don't really enjoy anything that I could do for a living. Unless I become a professional cookie eater (if anyone's hiring, I'm here). And. Um. People really screw up their own lives for no reason. That's all. I don't really feel like arguing about it...cos...can't...explaaaain. No one seems intelligent. Certainly not me. I don't want to live in an "advanced" society. I want to throw my computer out the window (which I'm using right now, duh) and live in a cave. heehee...the most intelligent people are those who haven't been sucked into an advanced progressive society with blah blah blah...I'm just as bad as everyone else I think.

Actually. What was I talking about? Um. When it comes right down to it, I just don't like school. I think that's it. I'm frustrated because I don't understand what I think I should understand and school makes me feel like a stupid idiot, which is GREAT and all, yeah? And I see all these people which make me want to disown the human race. Mmhm. And I have no self esteen becauase I don't see what there is to be proud about in school, and that's where I feel like I am most of the time. "You figured out this physics problem, well you must be a genius." Even if I DID figure out a dumb physics problem I know there's so much more to life than that and then I get disappointed because this is some kind of measurement of one's abilities to do...nothing very important. I'd like to exercise my brain in some other way if possible. If I'm not tired from sitting in school all day.

I guess if I was really smart I wouldn't be hating school so much. I mean. I would know the value of it. Technically I guess I do, but...I just don't see it most of the time. And if I was really dumb I wouldn't know if i was dumb, would I...

I've decided to stop believing in things...actually...that wasn't just this year. Boy, I sound really negative. I dunno what I seem like in real life but I hope it's not this. Or..do I...well all that crap that I don't believe in is probably really...hm. Can't think of the word. I could say "gay" but some people don't take that word in the meaning that I mean. So.

Gee, I don't karen very well. Reading her livejournal entry..mmwell. It's weird, because in 6th and 7th grade I used to think my little group of friends would "never break apart, neverrr" but of course we did. I was dumb back then though. A DIFFERENT dumb. There are many kinds. I'm not like Karen at all, I think I've got nearly nothing in common with her now, although maybe I didn't before either. Oh well. She ought to just live her nice life in Arizona and...um, I'll sit in my chair here. Cheers.

I DONT WANT ANY VIAGRA, GOD LEAVE ME ALOOONE!

*delete*

Oh well. Junk mail sure is. Annoying.

I don't know why I write here. Anyhoo. I felt weird last night. And I stayed up until 5 I think. Reading my web design book. It's really interesting, actually, except some things I know nothing about (cascading style sheets for one) but it's okay. The author talked a lot about the Requiem for a Dream site, which is totally screwed up. When I first went there I hadn't seen the movie yet and was totally confused. And then I saw the movie and, well, the site is still pretty screwed up but I'd love to make a site like that. It's pretty much a giant flash movie. Mm. Well.

..okay, I can't stand that site anymore. It's just freaky. Not as freaky as the movie I guess, but still. The website book I'm reading also has a quote from "Everything in its Right Place", that was pretty unexpected. The author introduced each chapter with a quote and they're all pretty different. Then it's like BOOM Radiohead, whoa.

...yeah. Um. Anyway! This is my last full day of freedom before school starts up again. Yeah.

I went to Treasure Island. My mum wanted to go and I needed some nylon string (well, didn't REALLY need it, just wanted it...when would I absolutely need nylon string?) and so I got...string. And some elastic string, hell, why not go a little crazy. TWO types of string. What am I gonna do with it? Eh, I dunno. Spiffy up the plain audiodregs shirt I don't wear much anyway. Make another bracelet I'll never wear. I just like making em really, don't feel like wearing em. It was kind of crowded, they were selling all their Christmas stuff and of course my mum and I pick the slowest line. It looked like the shortest...it WAS the shortest, and the other line was really long, but then it got...um, short and we were still standing there like idiots. So we finally moved. And I've got string. Victory is miiiine.

My mum was telling me stuff about my dad. Cos. Well, I wouldn't really know otherwise. Still know next-to-nothing in Chinese. Anyway, my grandma (all grandparents paternally speaking, since my maternal ones are D-E-A-D) is moving out of her old apartment. No wait, my dad wants to move her out into one of those Marriot places that takes care of old people. She thinks it's too much money, but my dad says "Oh no, money is no object." Okay, this is nice and all for your parents (my grandparents are extremely stingy, just like dad...or is it the other way around). It get's weirder though (in my opinion) because my grandpa, he wants to live with my uncle in Florida, but I mean...er, I wouldn't want my 80-something year old dad to live with me. So what my uncle wants to do I think is buy another house JUST for my grandpa. If you think it's weird that my grandpa and grandma don't live together, well it's not, I suppose they can't stand each other, but if I was either of them I wouldn't want to live with the other person either. So. It's been like that for ages, I mean my grandma has been living in the US for a long time and I think my grandpa is just now moving to the US permanently from Taiwan. But this is ridiculous, to get a house juts for him. And of course again, money is no object, right?

My dad is incredibly stingy I think. I mean, yeah, could be worse, but...neh, it's just weird. I think in his head, the younger you are the less deserving you are. Spend all your time and effort on the elders. It's also an "Asian" way of thinking. Not JUST asian, but..well. If you're Asian, you tell me. If my mum wasn't normal, I dunno what I'd do. Actually...I don't think my dad thinks my mum is deserving of anything either, which is why we only do "fun" stuff (like..uh, buying good chocolates) when he's not here. This is a totally screwed up way of thinking..er..like..um. Um. Nevermind, I don't think I've got the slightest idea what having a "normal" dad is like. Of course, it could be worse...

I think I just heard a robot speak German.

Oh well. My foot feels numb. My brother went out with friends to the mall. Fuuun. Actually, one of his friends, who brought a bunch of his friends. Mmh. This morning my brother put the giant Pikachu pillow he bought on me. He thought I didn't know it was there but I was awake the whole time. Eh. You'll notice things like giant pikachus sitting on you.

this dude. told me to get self esteem. laughs maniacally...yeah. hehe.

...uh. i'm still here. thats bad. uh. uh. um. boy. this is really getting pathetic. er. er. um. mhmmhmmmmmmmmmm.

yeah, thats all.

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another note. um. I just downloaded the song "Crabcraft" by Console and it's the same as "Heirloom" by Bjork! Without the singing...I never knew that. Technically it's the other way around I suppose. But...I dunno. I really like that song...Heirloom, I mean. This is weird. Because now I'm just going to think it's a Bjork song and not a Console song. I ought to read the liner notes of Vespertine more closely, it must say in there, right? I like every song by Console I've heard, all this great bloopy...stuff. Still too cheap to buy a CD though. I just thought that was...erm...neat...okay, it probably isnt.

I DID SOMETHIIIINNNGGGG ARRGHHHHAGSG (that was a good "ARRGHHHHAGSG")

I'm talking about Flash 5. I did *something* with it, although nothing spectacular, but it sure is better than anything I would have been able to do beFORE I knew...anything. Er. Well, I just modified this page rebbie made and made it into this. You need flash to see it, but...uh...yeah. If you don't have it, you may as well download it anyhoooooooo. Nothing about it is very...neat, flash-wise. But. It's still kind of neat, okay? OKAY?! GOD...CRAPPIT!!!

...anyway. I don't know what else I did today. Not much. Still didn't do any homework. Great, eh? Eh. Um. I ate food. Guh. 2 more days until school starts. Commence suicide...NOW! Oh well. I wish. Somewhat.

mrraaghrh. I make lots of weird noises, don't I? Sniff.

I went outside my house today. *silent cheer*

Er. Anyway. I don't like to go to stores, cos then I SPEND MONEY (well there are other reasons) and well, I spent money, a great deal of it. I bought two books and a magazine and it set me back $70. I got a Flash 5 book, that was $30, and the other book, this web design thing, was $35! Color...costs a lot. Eh. And I got the latest issue of Tokion magazine. Because I wanted to read something. I also got physics flashcards (oh god help me) which better help me in some way. They probably wont cos I probably won't look at em. hm.

ANYWAY. The moon was so bright, jesus...keeeyrist. It was pretty weird. And I wouldn't have known if I didn't go otuside. Which isnt' a big deal, I don't stare at the sky and go "ooee stars are cool" because if I DID stare at the sky, I would probably go "ooee stars are cool" and well. Um. Stars are scary. The moon is scary too. But stars...AHH. I can't imagine lying on a field and just lookin at the sky. It would probably be a nice feeling though.

Oh yeah, while driving to the bookstore my mum and I passed a hosue that had this lit up display of Santa...on a dinosaur. No joke. Why? Don't ask me. It's weird, man. I think the dinosaur moved it's neck (a brontosaraus I think...I know I spelled that wrong. Wait, are those the dinosaurs that don't exist? I forget. Screw it, they're extinct, I could call em wigglewormdoodles for all I care). Anyway, that really just doesn't make sense.

I've never seen so many people on my buddy list online. But I'm not talkin to any of em. Hm.

I wanted to show you the pictures Diana drew in my christmas card...:) :


Heehee. I'm on the loose. Lock up your penguins!


Thom and a penguin! And Jonny. Without a penguin.

Oh well. :)

I think...this life is sad. Pathetic...me! I haven't done anything for the past two days, Friday and Saturday. Aren't those the day normal people do...stuff? I think my mum is worrying about me. "Don't you want to go out somewhere? The mall? The bookstore? The movies?" It's funny, I think many of my friends wouldn't have their MUMS askign them if they want to go out and do stuff, but oh well. There aren't any stores I want to go to, no new magazines or books I want to read (I've got plenty unread books as it is) and no movies that interest me at the moment. Are my expectations too high? Things that would interest normal people just don't "do" it for me anymore? Sigh. This is pretty sad. I guess I can always try to learn flash again.

I hate junk mail.

I just found out that the lyrics to all the Velvet Teen songs are on the CD...not written in the liner notes, there's a program that comes with the cd that plays the music and everything is in there. That's nice, I guess? It says MP3.COM everywhere, on the CD, on the cd case, in the program, like I'm going to forget or something? Hm.

Oh well. Woke up after 2 PM again. Mhmmh. Ate leftovers from dinner last night and a COOKIE. Felt weird for some reason. Overwhelming guilt about something stupid. I think it went away now though. Wee.

Mucus. Sucks.

I had very weird dreams last night. Don't really remember any of em of course, but god, weiiirrd stuff goes on in yer headee doesn't it.

Remember this? Haven't seen that cartoon in ages. ...leeet's keep it that way.

This site is always too pretty. Grrrrrrrrrrrr!

FLASH is evil! I can't figure this stuff out...errgh. i did all the tutorials in Flash 5 and I didn't know what I was doing, not really. Oh well. I guess I don't need to know how to use it, I just want to know. Sniff. Almost makes me want to cry...

But not really. Because I'm not too bright, and it's okay! Wee! I'll dance in the streets with underwear on my head, how about that? Mmhm!

Someone kept downloading Even Johansen songs from me on Audiogalaxy..gah! Well, I didn't mind that much because I want people to listen to his music, but still, kind of prevents me from being able to DO anything. And now if you search for him on Audiogalaxy you'll get the "Untitled" songs too, although there are two versions of some of those. At some point I'll mind people downloading from me, just that now I'm not DOING anything. I've spent so many hours in front of this stupid computer and I'm not even sure what I've accomplished (the same can be said about life in general, but I shouldn't get into that).

Actually I should rename some of these songs...so there's a difference...*why does it even matter, who's gonna download it*...mhmh.

Man I did a really crappy job converting Rebecca's recording into mp3s...hm. Hm...no, I don't want to do it again, I think I'd turn to sludge uploading everything. *NOOOO*...but...hm. Maybe I ought to listen to the tape again. What is WRONG with me? :(

But this sucks, argh I screwed up..even sounds all muffle-ee. *bashes head against the wall*

man i can barely understand what the heck even is saying...i think i've just realized...no sometimes its easy ot understand, but wuh..wuh...duh...screw it

Is today a special day? No one seems to be online. I've got 4 mroe days until school. This sucks crap. I have a history project due in some weeks, and i haven't remotely started...haven't the slightest idea what i'm doing to tell you the truth. actually i forget what the project was on. actually. i forget all my history. actually. iwant a cookie. *blows nose*...i think i feel sicker than I did this morning, but not really...oh man, that means I'll probably be all sickly tomorrow. and i took something like 8 pills...er, well they weren't all different, but i hate swallowing capsules of stuff that i don't know. noo now someone is downloading libido from me and i think i'd feel bad if I just got off. "Crash Out" is a nice song. like sleepy! eee! oo. pillows! i suppose i'll play solitaire for a while. i suck at that game. a lot. sucksucksuck.

I was watching TV (ohno) and there was a thingy about kids and being in foster homes and biological parents and social services being weird and oohohohuniauhsda all strange stuff, was odd. well. no not really. but. nevermind...its hard to keep things in perspective..that was random..i have issues..with things...er..

crap, another un-winnable game of solitaire.

...crap again. I could have won, but I did something dumb. duh.

..okay, lost again..hm.

..and again.

...and again.

And again. that was quite a losing streak. hm. i think the ultimate dream woudl be to go to sleep and never wake up. right? if you think about it long enough. okay, maybe its just me.




Take the What Should Your New Year's Resolution Be? Quiz



oh.yay! my dream come true. actually, i really wouldnt mind doing that, kind of scary. better than sitting here at least. invader zim is mentioned in the quiz. thats about all i remember.

There seems to be some arguing at karen's guestbook. I'd probably be more like Ben than karen's friends, but I don't really take either of their sides. I'm more of a depressing person myself, is all. I don't think that Ben guy should have said anything in the first place. Truthfully I think someone who is happy most of the time wouldn't be able to understand...the other type of person. Actually I'm happy sometimes, so that's not really...er. Hm. Actually that Ben guy sounds somewhat crazy, but then I don't understand all of Karen's happiness much. i don't think i go around telling my friends i love em, unless i'm in some scary euphoric happy mood (which happens a lot, when I go psycho) and well, leaving that to rest...there's certainly no reason why this guy should have dissed karen about being happy though. that's just...dumb. unless she was dumb, but she's not.

Go to Diana's livejournal...she put up a pic of some stuff from our "video", HAHA! I forgot that we did kind of go nuts.."I'll get you, Scott Tenorman!"

Man that episode of south park was so funny. Hoooooooo. "Little crybaby..."

..I'm talking to myself, I know. Okay, that's all I wanted to say, I think.

This is a nice site. Of. Cute strange things.

I know this isn't supposed to be funny, but for god's sake, they're LEGO dudes walkin around and it looks creepy! HOLY CRAP and it's just a weird thing...my god. This IS funny.

Oo, I finally got my Velvet Teen CD. I didn't even check the mail, I figured I wouldn't get anything. My mum got it and said "..did you order something?" Oo. I woke up at around 2. My dad went to Staten Island I think, and my mum and bro went to Palisades Center. And I slept. I know I'm sick, but at least I don't have that sickly feeling, just that big gobs of mucus keep coming out of my nose. What do ye know...

I installed my writing tablet thing and decided to use it a bit in Painter, this what I ended up with:


I was chatting with Katherine and she was talking about her cat being a devil. Mmhm. She doens't look like that though. I'm quite the pro at stick figure drawing, I know...:P


Blue penguin! I make my penguins blue cos if they were black you wouldn't be able to see their CUTE BEADY EYES, right? It's demented, but ye know I'm not used to the stupid tablet yet, it screws things up...I swear...oh yeah, I'm not an "artsy" person. HAHA obviously. I don't draw much.


That's my really demented handwriting. Ee.

What does anyone think of my Radiohead remix? I mean I don't want to force anyone to listen to it, but I'm just wondering. Some..critique-ing? I redid the end of it anyhoo.

Hoo.

...O.

Has anyone else been getting tons of sales calls and junk today? The phone rang about 5 times during dinner. mmwell. Is there any method of communication not littered with ..JUNK?

"Say cheese, everybody!"...Even!...heehee. Yeah, a pull-sting doll of Even would be great, wouldn't it? It would be equiped with a lap steel guitar, a magnet, be styled with black nail polish, earrings, and heck, you could even change betwen 3 different hairstyles. And it would have over 50 sayings! Okay, pardon my silliness, but it was rebecca's idea..nehehe...

I dunno why but I ended up working on that dumb "everything in its right place" remix again. its probably not much better. unless you're wearing earphones. hmhm. yesterday I woke up sucking a lemon....

not that I'd ever BE a music producer...but i definitely don't WANT to be a music producer. mmHM.

Let's see, its 1 AM, and I'm stilllll here. I was planning to do something. But I can't really do it now...ah..e...uh..m.

I ate a cookie and it made me happy, until I ate the whole thing and realized i had no more cookie to eat. Of that one. And I figured it wouldn't be good to get another one. I've gained five pounds this winder..oo yay. That WOULD be useful if we were normal human beings and were storing fat for the winter cos food would be scarce but we're not, but you knew that. Mmhmh...I wanna live in a cave. With penguins!

My brother got a Maxim magazine 2002 calendar...HAHAHA...loser...neh. That's mean. My brother is very unique and that's quite nice to tell you the truth. ...except the penguin infatuation can get odd. But then look at me. actually...don't.

listening to idioteque...head bopping madness, right here. for some reason I like the "Live at Air Studios" version more than the album version...

I've listened to the stuff Rebecca recorded a Easy Street Records something like a bagillion times by now. Okay, maybe more like 10. But it seems like more and oo I wish I was there! Of course that would have been impossible, but if it was possible to like, uh, float to Seattle for a day and be like "ooee, coooool"...holy crap, it's definitely too late, I haven't any idea what i just wrote. neither do you most likely. :)

I still haven't gotten my Velvet Teen CD and I think I ordered it...a...while ago. Wait. Hm. Maybe not. 10 days? I dunno, but it's felt like a while. WHERE IS IT?! I WANT IT! RRRRAAARRGGH! (I'm very good at rrarrghing)...and I want "Rocket in My Pocket" by Console. It's just been sitting in my Columbia House shopping cart for ages. Cos when I buy from there I like to get a few CDs, but they don't really have anything I want. Unless I want another set of Radiohead CDs...*hmmm*...neh.

Today I woke up to... Mr. Penguin. Mmhm! And an itchy throat. *HACK COUGH*. And Diana doing crazy things with Mr. Penguin. Hooyeah.

Sometimes it takes quite a bit of force to wake me up. LIke hitting me a lot with a gigantic stuffed animal. mm...hm!

After rolling out of bed Diana and I ate some apples and went to the COMPUTER to burn some CDs. I got some nifty art programs that I'll probably never use seeing that I cannot DRAW although maybe I'll try and learn some flash technique junk that I will also never use. :) And then we tried playing a "song" we made up randomly which consists of two chords and four bass notes i think...mmhm. It's called "Let's See How Fast Robyn Can Play Guitar!" Not very. Uhhuh.

We did another "Everything In It's Right Place" remix, it's kind of weird, but cool too. Really loud bass drum...hoocrap

and..uh..ya...ate...food at some point. In the day. I eat food. nehheahaha!

Oh yeah, yesterday I did a very dumb thing. While recording to my MD I accidentally erased everything from what I recorded at Brownies when Even played...mmhm. First I thought "OHMYGOD CRAP AHHH" and then I thought "NOOO I'M GONNA CRYY" and then I thought "Actually it sucked anyway" and THEN I thought "Well I was lucky to be there" so I guess I'm OKAY. Phew. Not exactly a near death experience. I did make a few sound clips of him saying stuff though. So. That's okay! YAHOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (too many exclamation marks, I know) You only need to make a mistake like that once to be extra careful...next time. If there is a next time. Sure there will!

MY MUM GOT ME COOKIES! I asked for chocolate chip and she accidentally got chocolate chip with nuts, so before getting to the cash register I guess she went back to the cookie place and got normal chocolate chip cookies, so I've got something like SIX COOKIES but I shared one with my mum, so it's more like five. It's silly to be excited about cookies. But. They're. Yummy!

Rank #1 equals your best match Item

Your Results Page # 1 Phil Selway
# 2 Jonny Greenwood
# 3 Thom Yorke
# 4 Colin Greenwood
# 5 Ed O'Brien

So I'm most like Phil? What about you I don't even know anything about HIM, but I guess I wouldn't be like Ed seeing that he's..tall! AHAAHA.

Rank #1 equals your best match Item

Your Results Page # 1 a hamburger
# 2 a spork
# 3 an ugly shoe
# 4 cheese in a can
# 5 some guy named Bob

Uh...I'm a HAMBURGER?! ...well I'm definitely not the other 4 choices. A spork MAYBE. Sporks sound a bit happy though...

DOOODAAAA! Today was WEIRD! Diana is at me house right now and she really wants to sleep cos we've been...uh...doing something all day. ALL day. Like 12 horus we spent on this thing...ee. making a "music video" for "Where Happiness Lives" and I don't know how it took that long but it did and BLAAH you can't see it cos it's 30-something megs. Eek. We took a bunch of pictures of stuff and stuck em together and well I don't feel like explaining it, we listened to the song A MILLION TIMES and decided to hate Even for a while, but it's okay, you can't hate him for long. Why the hell is this song so friggin long?!!!! That's what we said a lot...somewhat. Nahaha. Eh.

...but anyway. ALL DAY! Well what I've learned from this experience (we used Flash 5 and Adobe Premiere) is that I'll never want to be a music video editing person or anymating person or a blah blah BLAH! I'll do something else. Mm...yessssssssss!

We also ate food at some points. As a break. Woo. !!! It was interesting, not really torture although I think we lost our minds at some points. Many various points. "Uh, we gotta play the song again....*twangy guitar starts*.." And then I go "NOOOOOOOOOOOO!" Hehe...er. Somewhat. GOTS TA LOVE EVEN I'll just keep telling myself that. Oh yeah, Diana did pretty much everything cos she's really really good at that stuff. Holy crap. She drew these great pictures in about two seconds. Freakish! In a good way! All I did was edit the audio (cut out a few seconds) which didn't take very long...eh.

Oh yes another good thing that happened today is that I got the SACRED PEN and some other cool stuff from Rebbie. She's hilarious! I dunno if she knows that. Well not like a stand up comedian (comedienne?) but man I was reading her letter and couldn't stop laughing. "How dare that ugly freak ruin the photos!!!" Haha...noo! That's terrible! Ah! Rebecca rules. Diana and I pretty much had the same thought when we looked at the pictures Rebbie took...Even is kyoot...grr...graah...*noOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO*

..that was nuts. Neh ..raar.....rhrhherue...amodnuisdf$$43. I dunno. Diana and my bro are watching "Family Guy" on the computer now...sounds scary. It's a funny show I guess. Teevee. Eehee.

The whole house smells of TURKEY. In a way. And it's not the most terrible smell in the world but it's a bit odd and it makes me hungry. Crap.

You know what I spent most of my waking hours today doing? Remixing "Everything In Its Right Place"...well I suddenly felt like it after listening to the Velvet Teen's remix, although mine doesn't sound so great. Mm. Well. You should keep in mind that it's realaudio and the mp3 sounds not as mushy. Or maybe it does. I can't really just take the vocals out of the song or anything although that would be nice. I just used acid music and maybe three sounds from fruityloops...i don't KNOOOOOOOOOOOOW. I got lazy and the end and pretty much left it as is.

For dinner my family had turkey. Oo. Fun, I guess. It was good. I like turkey. Just the white meat though. Which is fine with the rest of my family, I think they like dark meat.

Haven't done much else today. Tomorrow Diana is coming over, that should be interesting...what will we DO? Er. We'll do some neat stuff, I'm sure...

I want a cookie! But I ate them all. Well not JUST me, but I ate the last one. Sniff. No cookies, MY LIFE IS INCOMPLETE! CHOCOLATE CHEEEEP COOKEEE NEED NOW!

"Does anyone have the PICKLE code?!?!?!?" ~Kings register girl

That's from my brother's friend's site. He was using my computer a bit and left that page open. Mhmmh. PICKLE CODE! I wouldn't wanna work in a supermarket.

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!!!!!!!!!

I got someone else to buy Quiet & Still...! Um.. Well that's cool isn't it. Not like I threatened them with death or anything, they liked Even is all. :)

The "Ice String Tribute to Bjork" version of "Venus as a Boy" is really cool. It's like...woo...neato.

Mmhmh. Well it's Christmas. WOO. It's so late, I ought to sleep now..oops.

Bah. Dinner at great uncle's house...uh...yay! There were something like 20 people there including my family. YAY. Of course, I'm the odd one out because I always am. Not surprising but it's always a bit annoying. There was another girl there from the west coast who's also a junior in high school, but I didn't really talk to her. She talked to my brother though. I didn't really like the food because I'm not very into meat with bones and such stuff. There was lots of food though. Oh well. So I sat and ate semi-quietly. And the TV was on so I watched some. Gah...TV. I don't like it.

And then...yeah...I found myself not being like anyone there. I guess it's possible I wasn't the only one feeling that but I was the only one not talking to anyone, so I wouldn't be surprised. It's just that my ideas and ANYTHING that I find worthwhile talking about isn't anything anyone else would find interesting. There are barely any people in this world I'd want to talk to really. So yeah. My mum's cousin is getting married soon so they were talking about that a bit I guess. He's a cool guy I guess. Actually...yeah sure why not. His whole family is nice I guess, my great aunt is kind of odd sometimes but nice, same for my great uncle.

On the way to the house in Staten Island I listened to "Trailer Park" by Beth Orton, really nice album, although I like "Central Reservation" better i think. The song I really like is "Don't Need A Reason" but it seems like the tuning in the some is just a bit off so when I try to play along it sounds really gross. Ee. I can make do. It's a pretty song. And of course i listened to Even a lot..."Quiet & Still" two times. In the song Quiet & Still, what is that instrument during the chorus that isn't a guitar, a xylophone-ee thing, or a bass, or Even singing..there's this one other thing and I want to know what it is. I haven't a clue though. It's soft and flowee but its like...guh. If you listen to the song you'll know what I mean. I love ever song...every one! I think seeing Even was the happiest moment of my life, I wonder if that's pathetic. I can also point out the unhappiest times of my life, but that would be sort of depressing and unnecessary I guess.

Like just 9% of the population you are a MASTERMIND (SIAT). You can be silent and withdrawn, but behind your reserved exterior lies an active mind that allows you to analyze situations and come up with creative, unexpected solutions. Normal people call this "scheming." Don't learn German.

Anyway, your sense of style and originality are your strengths, and people will respect your judgment once they get to know you. If you learn to be a little more personable, you could be a great leader--you've definitely got the "vision" thing down. Just make sure all the plotting you do behind those eyes of yours is healthy.

Famous masterminds in television: Dr. Claw, The Scarecrow and Mrs. King, Montgomery Burns.

I don't want to be a mastermind. maybe it's wrong. 9% of the population is small though, which could explain for a lot eh. I don't want to be a leader. I don't want leaders period.

No mail. Poop. Actually, I (or my mum) got Seventeen magazine. I'm dying to read about "Humiliating moments with A.J., Ashtom, Blink-182"...wouldn't YOU?

I woke up before noon. Wow. My mum made me...I got some sushi. Which I ate in the car. It doesn't seem to matter how much I eat the night before, I'm always able to eat normally the next day. I need to detoxify. Uh..yeah. There's a 30-day thing you can buy at Whole Foods, but I did it during the summer and you end up going to the bathroom a lot. Won't be very good when I start school. So I'll probably have to wait until the summer again.

My mum pointed out something that made a lot of sense. My dad doens't really listen to me, my bro or my mum, but if someone else says the same thing that one of us says, he'll listen and think about whatever they say. Then again I probably wouldn't want to listen to my dad, but still, there's something wrong there.

Heh.

"Across The Universe" is such a nice song...nicest when Rufus is singing it, heehee! Well the original one is good too. But. I like this better. Tis a good thing, yessssssssssss? I guess I would want to go to that Rufus concert at Town Hall, but for some reason I don't have this big giant urge to go. Nothing will be as good as SEEING EVEN, maybe that's it.

Hi Robyn,

Rimur arrived today (Christmas eve), i was so happy and I've been playing it all day, particularly tracks 3 and 5. It was such a kind thing for you to do and am very appreciative.

I hope you have a lovely Christmas and New Year!

Lots of love,

ALEX xxx :D

:) That made me happy...to give someone something you KNOW they want. On the Sigur Ros mailing list this dude had asked if anyone had the Rimur EP, and I had no idea that's what it was called but I have it so I made a copy for him and sent it to him for no charge. I don't think I'm incredibly fond of the CD though, not that Steindor has a bad voice (he sings in about all the songs) but...mm. Well. Lala. :)

Tonite my family is going to Long Island to visit my mum's uncle's house. I don't mind my mum's side of the family much, her aunt and uncle are nice people. I think in a way they can be snobbish, but not too much, it's just...nah, nothing very important. Last year we all went to a country club and hooo crap, I hate those places really. It's just WEIRD, the people that go there, a whole other planet, and I don't like it. *Shudders*. Then again in Taiwan I used to love going to the American Club, but that wasn't really a country club, it wasn't like you had to dress a certain way and everyone was nice and stuff. I ate curry every time I went there I think. I loved it. AHH no no good.

I love cookies.


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Gee. Well, I guess if you measure evilness by cheating and shoplifting and such stuff then I would only be 5%. I should be less! Hm.

Cheryl, Bob, and I threw around a fire extinguisher at the old AMC 10 around midnight. It was fun.

I'm just reading karen's journal...mmHM! Throwing around a fire extinguisher? OOKKAAY! I was like "huh"..thats all...hehe. Speaking of fire extinguishers, last week my physics teacher turned one on for us to deomstrate something to do with temperature. it went FOOSH...it was...fun. Ha.

my butt...MY BUUUUM HUURTS WHYYY OH LORD i should go to sleep.

Did anyone ever notice that there's no "Untitled 2" here? I just did. Apparently I can't count, but if no one else noticed then no one else can either.

...that's so dumb. Why would I do that...of course it's not the end of the world or anything, but...

Anyway. Today is my dad's birthday and I had aboslutely no idea up until everyone started singing Happy Birthday. No joke. Isn't that pathetic? Oh well, I can't believe I'm this bad at remembering people's birthdays. I had just remembered Diana's birthday on Friday and I asked her about it, it was weeeeeks ago. Oops. Then again I had given her a birthday present months ago and had forgotten about that...what is wrong with my brain?

My brother can't believe that I upload so much stuff. He's got a super fast ethernet connection in college I think and can get something like a meg a second. That's nuts really. Anyway, I'm transfering about 30 megs at 2 k a second. It doesn't go any faster than that. Ugh. Why am I even doing this? I finally converted all the WFMU stuff in better quality and I thought I should upload it (although who would want it, I don't really know). This is going to take a few hours, isnt it...

Oh yeah, so anyway my family and my uncle's family went to the Internation Buffet. Woo. Food. I ate way too much, I thought I was going to puke right there, or I would need a good ol stomach/intestines pumping. We spent an hour and a half there I think. Eh, not so bad. I tried the pudding. I thought it was rice pudding but it was just tapioca. Mm. I'm not very fond of buffets. The other night I had gained a few pounds and now all that weight I lost in the summer isn't lookin very lost anymore. I don't even want to know how much I weigh now. During the whole dinner it felt so weird. It...uh..I mean, I felt so weird. Hm. I guess everyone thinks their family is weird, but it's not that my family is really screwed up, I just don't see how I fit in there. My cousins that ate with us are in their 20s and they lead comfortable lives (one is married, her husband ate with us) but if that's my future, then..AH I don't want that. I know what I want and it's pretty much to do nothing important. Well, not exactly. It's just that my brother and everyone who's older than me tells me that when they were juniors in high school they weren't thinking about college and stuff, but the next year they were. I can't imagine that next year I'm going to be going crazy about colleges and stuff, but everyone says I will. I don't want to be. :(

For some reason I've been listening to Beth Orton a LOT lately (Central Reservation, mainly) and I've had this CD for 2 years. But then why am I just listening to it now? I think before I didn't like listening to it because it made me sad for no reason and I'm still not sure what the reason is but now it doesn't sound depressing. It's a really good album though, Beth Orton has such a great voice, yeah? When I think about it I've seen her the most times in concert out of all the concerts I've been to (3 times). And I still have her *supposed* water bottle, ha. It probably isn't, but I still have it for some crazy reason. Oh well. My most clear memory of her is from Boston when there weren't many people in the theater yet and so I got to sit in the front of the balcony on the stairs. I was lookin between the bars (this was before I had really heard any of her music) and the song I liked the most was "Pass In Time" which is a really preeettty song. I remember there was this guy next to us (Emma and I that is) who asked who she was and Emma was telling him she was Beth Orton, and she wasn't sure why she was opening for Beck since she's more laid back and folky compared to all that Midnite Vultures stuff (why do I remember this?). I don't think Emma liked Beth Orton so much, I guess it's not exciting enough for her or something. My mum thinks her music is too slow and stuff. A lot of the music I listen to is like that though. It's good! :P

Speaking of Emma, I don't know what happened to her. Not that any of you would care though. At some point we wrote letters to each other a lot (but that was the time when everyone wrote a lot, now no one does) and then everything died away last year, and now she could be dead, which is nothing I can control. Man, do I sound mean? I'm not trying to be, but...well, I dunno. The friendship between me and Emma was weird I think since we were nothing alike in my opinion besides the liking Beck and Bjork part (she got me into Bjork). She's a senior now anyway, she's probably busy as hell.

God, I keep burping this stupid cake/yule log that my mum bought. There was only one left at Market Basket I think, orange chocolate or something. Orange and chocolate don't mix well, let me tell you that much. I ate my piece really fast which could explain this excessive BURPAGE. Oh yeah, and upstairs my dad lit up the fireplace and down here in the basement there's also a fireplace and I can smell the wonderful smoke, yay. When I was little I used to like fireplaces and stuff, but now I realized it's dumb, we're lighting a fire inside our own house. This would be fine if there was no thing as central heating and such stuff, but there is. It's for the whole feeling of a fire I guess. That's dandy, but smoke smells like crap.

Download Rufus's version of "Across the Universe" from the I Am Sam soundtrack, it's really...goood. AAAAAAHHHHHHHHhh Rufus is too good.

Well today I'll have tons of fun, 5 of my relatives are coming over to spend the night but first we're going to go out to a giant BUFFET to eat. Woo. ...oh well. I don't like the buffet place too much but they have crab and some of my relatives really like crab or something. We'll probably spend 3 hours there or something. Last year for New Years we went there and it felt like an ETERNITY, I mean it's not as thought we're waiting for food, but somehow we spent hours there. I don't like hanging out with people I'm related to very much, you seeee?

Who thought of this? Someone who's really bored apparently.

I started reading The Hobbit and so far, it's...uh...hm. Mmmhm. Oh well. I'm not big on fantasy stuff. I've only got a few more hundred pages to go before I'm finished with it, woohoo.

The cd burner doesn't want to work. Gr.

One of my friends always asks me if I'm going to dances, and I always say no. I have a feeling that one day she thinks I'm going to be like "Oh yeah, sure, I love school functions, yay!" but...no! It's not like I try to be mean, but...gah. I think she's going with someone this year and so she wants me and Aliza to be there, and she'll probably have an easier time getting Aliza to go. I've been friends with this person since kindergarten (scary isnt it) but honestly, I don't know that much about her. She isn't someone I'd want to hang out with all the time. I don't think we couldn't be friends since we've been friends for so long, if that makes any sense. Well, it's nice she's...uh, excited about the dance I guess.

The Rotating Particle thing in Windows Media Player is so weird, I think I could stare at it all day. ALLLDAY...wooshwooshwoosh..."The thought of you wiillll fillllll.." I've noticed a bunch of little things in "Quiet & Still" when listening to it with my headphones. Little things that make it absolutely more wonderful.

Blah. My computer really died this time. I think my brother is reformatting it. I tried to open a program and it froze...well, no big surprise really. And so I restarted it and when Windows popped up again, all the drivers had disappeared along with all the programs. Mm...hm. That's useful. So now my brother is reinstalling everything I think. I feel bad for him, but then I wouldn't want to do it. :P

My family went out to a buffet place to eat. ARRGH no buffets suck, too much food. I ate two pudding cups. Well, that's not ALL I ate but it was the yummiest thing. Actually after the first pudding as I was nearly finished with it I realized how gross it was. A glob of white stuff mainly, flavored to taste like vanilla. But I ate the whole thing. The second pudding I ate was rice pudding and it was pretty good, but rice pudding is a weird food. Whose idea was it to put pudding in rice anyway? Well, whose idea is it to do anything?

During dinner my family talked a bit but it all seemed so dumb, at that point I realized that I don't really like to talk to anyone. In a sense. ...yeaaah. I mean, I don't mind chatting online much except I know that it's not much of a representation of how I talk in real life (too many spelling errors and stuff..okay, not just that). And well, I guess I'll end up talking to myself all the time. But not really.

ACTUALLY (this is getting odd) while eating and on the drive home from the restaurant I had the idea that the whole world was a big giant hell. When my brother was driving up this ramp on the highway I had that feeling, isnt that weird? Not very normal. "THIS IS HELL! With asphalt!" But is...it...uh. I forgot what I was talking about. I'm lookin at this Radiohead thing. Also that highway is right by this giant mall called the Garden State Plaza and it was pretty crowded...a sea of CARS. I don't like cars, I really don't. All these people buying stuff, it seems completely pathetic. Not that it's bad to give presents but it's like cows being herded into the slaughterhouse.

Oh yeah, I was also thinking about how computer suck. A lot. Sucks and blows. Both at the same time. How simple would life be without computers? What would I be doing right now? Stupid things to think about like that. Woo.

Oo, today was...interesting! Ah..yeah...so I went to NY and it took TWO hours, the longest so far I think. Yuck. So I got there around 6. I walked to HMV to meet Diana, which took about a second, and then we walked back to the Port Authority terminal to eat at Au Bon Pain. I love the Thai Chicken sandwich, it's the only thing I've gotten there for the past...years...yeah. Except that time I had SOUP. But anyway! After eating (a lot) we went on the subway to 72nd street to the Beacon Theater.

The Beacon Theater is...nice. It has SEATS...rows of em. Not just a giant floor. WOO. It looks like a old place, but a lot of those concert venues look like that, with an...old quality to it. Someday they'll all be refurbished I guess. But ANYWAY, we were in the third row, quite nice. The place was pretty much full (two sold out shows I think) and there were lots of big fans there. And the whole show was cool, the people in the band and stuff seem to really like performing and...stuff! Actually what I noticed a lot was the lighting, there was lots of lighting and it was...cool. Light is a good thing. I think. Lots of colors, it reminded me of AIR (that was nuts, lots of temporary blindness) and it was nice. Mainly, the Trans-Siberian Orchestra played Christmas songs, but they played some other stuff from a CD with Beethoven stuff and I actually liked that better. It's not easy to play Beethoven on the guitar...yeaaah...they didn't make it look easy, it was like...what the hell is that dude doing? Guuuh! ...!

I'm sure that made lots of sense...(not)...but blah. The bass player definitely stood out, he was really into the whole thing, I mean...you had to be there, Diana and I thought it was pretty funny. At one point a crazy fan just got onto the stage and danced with one of the singers, and she kissed one of the guitarist. And then a security guard took her off the stage, I mean, it was so casual, it was weird! Funny too I guess. At another point one of the guitarists ran off the stage and went to the second balcony and continued playing there, which was nice for the people up there I guess. :)

After the show we waited because Diana wanted to get autographs (along with a giant crowd of other people) so that was nice. And then the night was kind of...over! Well, not entirely, we took the subway back to the port authority and I bought a bottle of apple juice...drank that..walked around, and waited for me bus. Came back home. All is well. Listening to Even...nehehehe!

I forgot one thing, before we went into the Beacon Theater, Diana and I had time to kill so we went to Urban Outfitters. When I first went there...two years ago in Boston it seemed like a neat store. Then again, that was two years ago...now I think everything sucks. HA! Well, not really, but it's like any other store. With stuff. No, not really...stuff that you really really don't need but you could feel compelled to buy. Diana and I went around the store criticizing how expensive the stuff was (we recorded it onto an MD...cos we're dorks, haha!) and...uh..WOOO yeah that was fun. They had lychee gummies, that was probably the weirdest things. Who doesn't love lycheee guummmiiies?

Man, when I was in NY all I was thinking was "I saw Even here!...somewhere!" Well that's not ALL but I thought about it too much, the good and the bad, and overall the whole thing was more liekly to have never happened than to have happened (and it did...) so...this is dumb. Gotta stop thinking! Stop thinking! Destroy brain! Cells! Boom! Even go away faaar awaaay! AHHAYDASHFghfe~!!!

...I ate too much.

AHH Diana gave me the KYOOTEST (yes, not cutest...kyootest) card! She drew this hilarious picture of me (entitled "Robyn on the Loose") weilding a net running after a penguin, a really KYOOT penguin! HAHAHHA oh crap it's way too easy to draw me lookin like a psycho. Also she drew a pic of Jonny and Thom, and Thom is holding onto a penguin....! And on the back of the card is a drawing of Even (or supposed to be) but..ya...Even...hm, I dunno, not easily recognizeable. His hair! Er! He doesn't look odd, just different...he's got that norweigian glow! Yeah, I have no idea what that is...

News flash - Rufus will be performing at the Town Hall on Thursday February 14 at 8 PM. Tickets are $25 and $35. The Town Hall is located at 123 W. 43rd Street. You can get tickets through Ticketmaster or at the theater box office.

Hoo crap...that sounds cool! Wow!...!!!! Beck played there during the "Mutations" period, and I didn't go, although I wouldn't have been able to get tickets ANYWAY, but wow, this sounds plausible as long as tickets will be available for a while. As I think bout stuff. Town Hall is a nice theater I think. Not that I've been there...then again that's a school night, eh? ...is that Valentine's Day? I saw Beck on February 14th last year, didn't I? (Shouldn't I remember these things)...whoaaaa...yeah I really ought to see the show. At least I'm not superly-majorly obsessed. That is scary!

Well, tonite is about the TRANS-SIBERIAN ORCHESTRA!...I actually heard them play a song on Z100 this morning. It was weird, I wasn't paying attention but the dj said "And that was the Trans-Siberian orchestra!" It was a Christmas song, i forget which one. But anyway.

School poot. But it's gone. Foo!

Okee...well, I'm going to NY tomorrow. After much discussion (not really) with Diana...ya! She got a pair of free tickets from plj to see the Trans-Siberian Orchestra at the Beacon Theater...! Uh? It's a Christmas show...mmHM, interesting! Well, I hope so, it looks a bit weird at the moment though. We're gonna listen to Christmas songs for a few hours? Well they're front row seats so it should be fun, right? (Lookin at the tour dates....Orpheum Theater in Boston, AHH EVIL!)

...so yeah. I'll take the 3:45 bus so hopefully by the time I get to NY Diana will be by HMV and everything will go okee dokeeeee. I'll be fine. UNLESS THE BUS CRASHES!

:)

I don't know if I'm crazy, but it seems to be snowing...wait...no! What? The sun is shining, I can see the blue sky. Stuff is definitely falling though.

...nevermind, it stopped. I wonder what that was....giant dust? OO.

Rufus is still touring around....I don't think anywhere really close to me though. Somewhere in NY though...guh...foop! Diana wants me to go to NY tomorrow, hmmm maybe I WILL...or maybe...I WON'T...

School was okay today. In physics we did a lab and my partner and I actually got good results. The whole lab itself was probably really inaccurate but in the end it came out okay. We had to put water ina thermos and put in ice cubes and heated aluminum and brass...uh...nevermind. It was pooty, my partner did a lot of the work (as she usualyl does cos she's SMART) but, uh, I did something too I think.

. . . uh. Uh. Uh. My mind just went blank. Oh yeah, took another nice nap during lunch. *plop*. One more day of school before vacation. WOOPA. And my bro's old computer came in the mail today so now I have to back up all my crap on a bunch of CDs and stuff...but a NEW old COMPUTER exciting, I can rid myself of this piece of crap!

See "Lord of the Rings"! It's...really...good? Well, what were you expecting? :) At the tenplex closest to my house they were only playing the movie in one theater but it was pretty full. And the movie was very good. Those were my expectations I guess, but I didn't know much about the story and it wasn't that confusing, which surprised me. My mum said she liked it more than the book because the book has a lot of stuff in there. Er, well it's long! Which is why I don't feel like reading it. But anyway, just the whole story and how the movie was shot and put together is really cool. The only thing that bothered me was that sometimes the camera was a bit shaky and for a long time in the beginning of the movie I felt like puking, but I'm really sensitive to that for some reason. :( By the end of the movie the feeling passed though and...yeah...I shouldn't really say any of the story, but you should definitely see this movie!

I really liked the scenery. I was thinking "This looks much prettier than New Jersey." Ah, well that's not very hard, but it's neat. Because it would be my dream to sleep in a gigantic field of...green...stuff! Grass. Yeep. It was funny how the hobbits were so much shorter, I mean I know they're supposed to be shorter but how did they make em look all short and not really odd...I dunno.

When I got home I...ate. I must be missing something because I always seem to want cake and cookies. Well, who wouldn't? Cookies, mainly. I haven't got any though. Cookies!

I did that pressing the backspace key thing again and I was done writing too...oh well. It wasn't much. Just me complaining as usual...FUUUUN IN A CAN O CHEEESE

But anyway. I tried taking a nap during lunch. It was a short nap. Lasted through "The Recluse" and "Where Happiness Lives." I realized that in a way I still can't believe that I saw Even. I don't know why but I look at the pictures I took and it doesn't seem like I was even there. I listened to the crappy recording I made last night before I went to bed and I've gotten used to it, the major buzz and fuzz in the background that is. Cos every so often for a split second Even's voice will be somewhat clear and I guess that's good enough for me. WOOya. I can block out the other crap. FUUUUZZZ! bad fuzz.

I want to eat dinner now...

My mum and my bro want to see the midnite showing of "Lord of the Rings"....well, they don't desperately want to see it. My mum said if she goes tonite then she doesn't want to bring me tomorrow, so I said..NO! :) Well, not really like that, but I want to go tomorrow, so she'll wait. It's not like we're really into Lord of the Rings, I just want to see it. Yeah.

Has anyone seen Vanilla Sky? I was wondering how all the Radiohead and Sigur Ros songs fit in. I heard there's a clip of the "Big Time Sensuality" video in there...or something? Hm.

I don't recall much else happening. ..AH crap. I just realized something. I think the recordings of the WFMU stuff I made are a little distorted...when it gets loud...wuhhh, NO I have to do it over! Well, technically I don't have to, but this sucks. I wanted to make a CD out of it. It's barely distorted, but it's theeeerrrre and it's gonna bother meeeee...e.

I've probably mentioned this before, but the stuff I write online (anywhere really) and the style isn't really like me...is it...oh yeah, like you know. It bothers me a bit because I think about what I'm goig to write yet everything still comes out sounding semi-moronic in a way. Too many smilies I guess. It's not wrong to have smilies but how intelligent does this seem:

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..mm well. I can give the illusion that I'm smiling furiously...:) :) :) :) :) :) :)...STOP THIS MADNESS! Cos I'm not, nahahHA!

Today a girl said to me, "Robyn, you're so shy!" Ah..ya. Good to point that out sometimes in case I forget because people frighten me. After school a person who I didn't know at all and I don't think was even in my grade, asked me what my name was. "...Robyn." End of conversation. Phew. Maybe he wanted my name so he could put it on his "People to Kill" list. Boy, wouldn't I!

I changed the site again somewhat. The square image at the top should change randomly every time you come to the page (although there are only 15 different ones) so you don't have to look at smilies surrounding even's face every time. BUT WHY WOULDN'T YOU?!...! :) (crap. another smilie)

If you're wondering, or it you're Lea, I got that fading picture script from http://www.j-scripts.com/. I don't think I can use that and the random picture script though...well I dunno. Blah!

Even Johansen, man now this man was super funny. Hes from Norway and like the settings were all messed up and he kept getting feedback so he kept talking to us and to his homie in Norweigian, which was pretty neat. I realized that I have him on one of my CDs' which was awesome, because I really like his stuff. oh man, what a beautiful singer..

That is from here. That is cool...I don't even know what Norwegian sounds like. He was talking to his homie. :) I still haven't sent that $1 for that sampler CD. Does anyone wanna do it for me? Er. Yeah it's only a buck but I'm so lazy, I dunnoooo ahh. Even has a most beautiful voice, it just make you want to EXPLODE (or maybe that's just me)...

Oh yeah, that girl signed my diskobox guestbook thinking that Even would read it I guess. I should put a disclaimer on the site..."THIS IS A VERY EXTREMELY UNOFFICIAL SITE" because people might be confused. Well not that really, but..mm. well, everyone loves Even!

I had written something, but then I pressed the backspace key and the browser went back and destroyed what I wrote...that's happened before...how do I make it stop doing this? It probably isn't very hard. But I don't know, someone tell me.

Well, I got a progress report in the mail today, HOW WONDERFUL I think, because it's my first all high school. WOOaa. Apparently, my grades in physics are "poor"...no, you don't say? I thought I was getting a B-, or a C+. I thought that was okay...er, oops. Isn't a C supposed to be average? Whaaa? Oh well.

...mm. Today was...boring. Gym sucked...ass. Physics was....poopy. Isn't this wonderful? YA! I hate volleyball, and Ihave ever since high school started. I don't remember disliking it so much in 7th grade. Everyone really sucked back then though. Now it's like..."Ball? Hit ball? Huh? No..." Uh...yeah. I think that was my day. By English, everything is better. I had a quiz in pre calc, that definitely sucked. A C or a B is my guess.

When I got home I furiously ate half of a turkey sub my brother got from Markey Basket. Oops. Note to self...chew more.

At one point during school when I was walking from physics to history, I felt like I was walking in a graveyard. I mean, I was outside and there weren't a lot of people out there yet, and it was this very eerrrie feeling of DEAD PEOPLE but not entirely. It was cloudy. Maybe that was it.

I can't help to smile when I think of Even. It's a funny way too. He's not funny! I shouldn't laugh. Well, I'm not LAUGHING, but something is funny there. Maybe the black nail polish. Ha! He's all pale and stuff. Oh well. I'll take happiness.

An EVEN JOHANSEN SONG was on Roswell! His album wasn't mentioned at the end of the show, but wow! They played a smippit of "Where Happiness LIves"...what does this mean? I've heard Radiohead and Beck in Roswell before too...hm. Oh well. Yay, Even rules!

...that's all I wrote? I thought I'd be more excited. That was a while ago...September 9th. I was just curious what my Even excitement level was like before. I wrote "smippit"...hm.

...for some reason today at lunch I had this realization that "The Recluse is a really good song." ...I don't know. Lunch. Ha. The stench of cafeteria food in the air. Wonderful.

I'm hungry, but really shouldn't eat anything. I'm scared by how much I eat. I eat really fast and although I've tried CHEWING a bit more, it's really hard, dude! ..DUDE! I don't know why it's so hard for me to chew. I give up after a few chews..."Neh, I'm hungry, the acid in my mouth ain't doin NOTHING" and then later I feel so full to the point of chucking my cookies.

I want cookies, by the way. I want to listen to some...thing. My mum is in this same room on her laptop. She would usually stay in her bedroom but my dad goes to bed early so she can't really hang around there. And she's watching Memento on her computer so I can't really listen to anything...mm well. I could use headphones, but neh.

You know...I really ought to stop thinking so much. It drives me nuts. I know this isnt true but sometimes it's like I'm the only person THINKING and my brain feels WEIIIRRDDD and i hate THINKING because I'm not thinking about what I'm supposed to be thinking of (because god forbid I forget the equation for thermal expansion) and then I feel stupid but in reality, maybe everyone else is stupid. How did standards come about anyway. The ugliest person on earth could in fact be the most beautiful person on earth, isn't that true? Well, if you ever disagree with what I have to say, don't tell me, I don't want to know really. I'm just sickened by what seems like everything, although it's not everything. I still had Seventeen magazine so I picked it up and the whole magazine seems so ridiculous, it's practically satiracle (did I spell that right?)! It's like...gerg. Nevermind. I'm not going to worry about that. I guess I'll just..recycle it.

...um. Yeah there's other stuff to talk about, but that's for me to think about and go crazy into the night thinking about crazy stuffffoooraaarrsmoop.

Why don't people sign the guestbook? Not really the one for this page that I'm thinking about, but my diskobox one. Oh well. People don't know that it's a nice thing I guess? Foo.

I have a stress percentage of 11%. Hm. Well that still doesn't explain the screaming...

:) To destress myself, I'm supposed to eliminate consciousness. Well, I knew THAT.

AHH I'm hearing my voice...

Diana sent me a VGWD CD (that's her "radio station"..fun, ah!) and she recorded a conversation we had at La Maison du Chocolat. AHH I sound dumb. WHY DID YOU PUT THIS ON, DIANA? The next track is hilarious though, it's her "interview" of Jonny Greenwood...it's just funny, trust me. Hey, it could almost be real...

This is funny. I'll make some realaudio files...*boopbeepboop*...all done! This is my conversation with Diana...I'm the one who says "La Masion du Chocolat"...er, we talk about Radiohead. This is the "Jonny" interview...:) I haven't totally listened to this CD yet, but there's a New Order song on it and it's pretty cool, oo!

School was poot today. I forget all the pooty details. But who cares, I'm home now...WEE! During the first half of the first period of physics, the teacher was just TALKING to us about...stuff. I kind of forget. And I'm really wondering what's wrong with me because when I'm bored I pick the skin off my fingers into a bloody mess (well, not really, I haven't gotten to the point where I need bandages) and now it's hurts. By the time it heals I'll probably mess em up again. Waaaah.

But enough of that. I mailed out some stuff today, GO MEEE. And. It rained. Er. Foooo....4 more days of school!

Oo now "Army" by Ben Folds Five is playing on the CD. I used to love this song...well, I kind of used to love BFF too. They're okeee, not really existing anymore though.

Rebecca, you're so funny! NAHAH I laugh. What a cute picture! And, uh, nice nail polish, Even!

My mum said I used to have a really evil laugh. Now she says I laugh like a hyena. Well, that's a plus. Ha. No.

Well, it's pretty weird for my while family to be in the SAME house again. This happens twice a year when my bro and dad decide to come back home from wherever the hell I am. To quote Anthony, "You have a father, right?" Well, he said something like that, haha. Oh and I have to say HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANTHONY! He must be really really really old, haha! I have no idea, but since I've been going to Ackermans he's aged 3 years, yeah? So have I. Eek.

Anyway. Today at around 12 my dad goes into everyone's room to wake em up, but of course none of us do. Then I hear a fire truck go by with a dude saying something like "SANTA CLAUSE AT THE FIRE HOUSE 2 PM" and...uh..okay! That's nice. Now let me sleep, GODDAMMIT! *plop*. I had 5 odd dreams after waking up and going to sleep so many times

"COS WHEN YOU GET SO CLOSE I RUN AND HIDE.." That's about the only thing I understand in this song. Well I guess there is other stuff too. But the whole thing to me is jsut like GAH SO HAPPY jesus christ!

My dad decided to take a holiday family picture..WOO how fun is that. Not very. It wasn't too much torture I suppose. My dad is just strange though...screw pictures...GAH!

I still have a bit o pre calc and physics homework. Ergh, I always leave everything to Sunday! :(

HAHA...man, trust me, I'm not going to leave that pic of Even (that rebbie took, I was just talkin about that) up there for too long, but I had this sudden urge to bombard his head with smilies. It just seems right...

Actually, it's very WRONG. Oops. Silly me. The picture should fade in when the page loads. I found a little script that does that...pretty useless actually. But let's just pretend it's a fun new thing. :)

ARRGH dumb computer...

I had written something about how my computer sucks. And then I was updating my blog but it screwed up. So...uh..yeah, computer going to poot, not turning off correctly, none of my Sonic Foundry programs working, the CD burner not BURNING...

But it's okay! SUURE! Rebecca sent me some pics she took of Even, that's a bundle of happy right there!

So today I woke up at 12-something. And then I took a nap from 3-something to 6-something. For some reason I feel like this day started AGES ago, when in reality I barely did anything today and I wasn't even awake for that long. So why the hell does it feel like that? I'm still in my jammies! JAMMMIIIES! What!! I mean today I woke up....ate a burrito...um. Did something on the internet, went back to sleep, woke up, recorded the WFMU stuff again, ate, did stuff, uploaded a bunch of stuff, sat on my bum a lot. Woo!

My middle finger hurts. Eeeee. I was ripping off the skin I guess. And then playing guitar. Actually, it's probably nothing compared to having your legs chopped off, and then being beaten with em. I haven't had that experience yet, though.

There's another Libido music video for Revolving! I wanna see!...EEE!

Poor Diana...:P

Oh my god...that's kind of pathetic. I mean....wait, no, VERY pathetic. And just plain bizarre. I guess there's a website for everything.

Gee. the Megway sounds like a pretty good idea. Looks familiar...but cannot...remember...walking...nope. Well, screw the segway, neh!

HAHHAHAHAHAHHEAHAH...god. I have a kazoo. I don't use it much though. Hm.

Holy crap, that is not a giant bee...GAH! I have to say it made me laugh though. I was thinking "What the HELL is this?" And the bee...or NON bee, is cute. But I'm still confused.

nuh?

Man, I just spent a million years trying to install phpbb and then I found out that bluedomino doesn't suppost MySQL...not that i know what that is, but I know that's what I needed. Oh well, time to delete all these stupid files. Then again I would have been very surprised if I had gotten anything to work. I don't think ikonboard works. Well. It should I think..or...not...this...thingy...foo. :( Why isn't anyone every online? Besides SmarterChild and GooglyMinotaur? It's a bit eerie when they're the only "people" online...

If you missed Sigur Ros on Craig Kilborn...well, sucks for you. The song they played was very nice. The only odd thing was that the song wasn't really ...totally done when they cut to commercials. I guess the song was DONE but they were still somewhat playing, yeh? Whatever, cool song, wooya.

"I think I lost an electron."
"Are you sure?"
"Yes, I'm positive."

MAN that's terrible! Absolutely....horrible! AHHH! Thanks YO SHANG for imparting such wisdom upon my feeble mind...

I wrote me christmas cards...neh! Writing is fun. Sometimes. If it's not for school.

I had yummy dumplings for dinner! And then after that I popped open another can of mystery dessert from the chinese supermarket, and it was the yummiest one so far. my mum really liked it too. It was peanuts and bean curd jello stuff in sugary ginger water stuff. I know that SOUNDS WEIRD but it's really chinese. I mean as soon as i ate it, it reminded me of something from Taiwan, which is pretty bizarre, but it did, I swear. There's this distinct taste that just does that. The ginger? Eh, I dunno. But it's YUM and I want MOOORE...goodness in a can! I should get some. "Can of happiness: 1 ounce"

I've been sitting here too long...where does the time gooo? It's weird, it just GOES LIKE THAT and i odn't know why, or how...and I end up sitting here too much..but...GAH I DUNNOOIAHIOIASDHEIRuhifdhsadshmoosh!

The latest entry here made me so happy! Even rules too much. And it's easy to like his music...too easy...I would also ask myself where I've been for the past couple of years. But when Libido came out with stuff, I was living in Taiwan. That's a pretty good reason not to know them, right? I mean I'm sure in Taiwan...no one would have heard of em. What the hell would I have heard of in Taiwan? BACKSTREET BOYS AND THE SPICE GIRLS! Wasn't that it? And Mariah Carey...and Celine Dion. I don't remember much from Taiwan...er! I liked music a lot, but I wasn't obsessed with anything. "Oh yeah, I really like this Celine Dion album..." HAHA oh yikes. And then near the end of 7th grade I started listening to Third Eye Blind and I liked them a bit, and then the whole WALLFLOWERS thing which scared the crap out of everyone, and then...Beck? ...hm. I dunno. Weird stuff!

I changed the site a bit...yeah. I was getting tired of it taking forever to load (for me at least). I also made a comment thingy on my OWN server (diskobox.net) because all the other ones seem to keep crashing, and then I only have to worry about how much space I've got for this blog. And since people don't comment much anyway, it probably won't be much of a problem, hehe! Well, try it out, OKAY?

And if Rebecca or Stephanie is reading this (Steph, do you have a blog at diskobox? I saw something, but maybe you're not done with it..) then you can use the comment thing too. There's a bit of code you have to stick on your page though. Actually, anyone can use the code, but I only want to use it at my site. :)

Oooaa I'm tired.

I started my day at 9:30. That's when I got out of bed....school starts at 7:35, eh? HAHA oh well, I haven't been late to school since the 6th grade, although that was because I missed my bus. I REALLY woke up late today, whoa. Then again I just missed 3 periods...the first two aren't academic classes and when I walked in during physics, the teacher was doing this one hard problem on the board and apparently he had been doing that the whole period. The periods were cut short actually, so I thought it was 3rd period when it was actually 4th. I guess I was lucky that physics is two periods, so it didn't matter.

So! That was great. Er. Then I had history. Woo. Then I had lunch...woo. Then. Oh yeah, I got my PSAT score...I did slightly better than last year. A 1280...and the other score was 194. I did best on the writing skills. That's stupid, I thought that was the hardest I think. Oh well. Anyway, at first I thought "Oo thats nice" and then i thought "No wait, I was supposed to get in the 1300s" and THEN I thought "Neh, I'm cool." Then again, Aliza got a 1500 and she (like me) didn't prepare for it in any way. Mm, well she's smart. So anyway, I'm quite content with my score, unlike my mum who wants me to take courses and really crappy stuff like that. Honestly, I feel like it was good enough, and I did my best on the test, and even though I didn't take classes or read books like many other people, I just don't feel like it...it's not like I think...okay, I dunno how to say this.

It's not like i think the SATs are a waste of time, but in the long run it's not like they'll make me a better person. And I know it's a standardized test and you compare yourself to the rest of the peopel taking the test but I don't want to. I want to look at my score and think "Oo I did pretty well" and that's what I think. My mum keeps asking me if I want to be a waitress when I grow up and go to a college in the middle of nowhere. Because if I get below 1300 apparently, I'm destined for a live of waitressing. Well, anyone could figure out that not everyone who does well on the SATs goes on to live a life of fortune. And it matters how someone measures success. My mum isn't this crazy parent who goes nuts about how well I do with school work, but either I'm missing the point or she is. I don't want to go to college and get a diploma (of course, I'll end up doing that though) and then go on to probably just work somewhere and not have much of a life. If so I may as well kill myself now, right? Same goes for everyone. If the SATs determines my whole future, then this world is certainly screwed up. I think about the future a lot, but in a sense I don't care too much. A lot of things are like that with me...do I care or not, I honestly don't know. Knowledge of useless facts and such things don't really get you anywhere. The people in my classes display this very well by acting like complete morons. They can get As, but as people, they're really pathetic. Doesn't anyone think that the quality of the person, their character and psychology, is more important than whether or not they can do algebra or make a sentence more grammatically correct?

So I've kind of grown less fond of this world. I already have...but...lessss...bwa. This is sad. The only nice thing is music, isnt it. Well, not really, but as for what resources I have now, it is. "Counting Backwards" by the Velvet Teen is a nice happy sounding song, I'm listening to it right now. I dunno what the dude is saying though. Gerg. I still dunno what that Libido song is, the one they played at the Barfly...gr.

Oh yeah, what else happened in school? Well after math the whole school got to watch a play of "A Christmas Carol". Everyone knows the story, yeah? It's a pretty boring story. The play wasn't terrible or anything, but it's just...boring. The language of it and all. And it didn't help that I was surrounded by people who couldn't seem to shut up. The concept of not talking is so simple to me, but for some people, they must never stop talking. It seemed pretty rude because I'm sure a lot of people put effort into the play and then all these dumb kids would be talking, it's embarassing.

I saw a dude with a Radiohead shirt...a guy in my Russian class. Nehe. That was funny, although that guy is kind of odd. I was like "AH RADIOHEAD SHIRT" while standing right behind me, but I don't think he heard me...this was in the auditorium, kind of noisy I guess. Or maybe he's not a real Radiohead fan, he's just posing as one. Neh.

Mm..candeeee. I got a package from Karen today! Extremely unexpected...but cool none the less. She got me this really cute although somewhat odd penguin stuffed animal sitting on a box o candy. Which I'm eating now. The candy, not the penguin. Anyway, the penguin's feet aren't connected directly to its body, they're on these long strings so the penguin has...there...feet connected to strings...okay. That made sense, eh? Oh yeah, and a pair of penguin socks was included in the package...COOL! Penguin socks, I can't imagine anythign cooler, and I need new socks, the ones I'm wearing now have holes in em. THANKS KAREN!

Oh yeah, that was probably...a christmas present. Well it ain't christmas, but I don't give a crap, naha!

School was incredibly...schoolish. Nothing very important happened. Oo, I got a C+ on my physics test! I thought that was quite alright. It's going up to a B- though because the teacher graded some questions wrong...I had a 79! I was thinking "god, THIS close to a B-" (before I found out I'd be getting more points) but then I realized how lucky i was, I mean some stuff i just guessed on or didn't have any idea how I got the right answer. I got one of the hardest questions right, you can count on crap like that to happen. I got the easiest question wrong I think. About vectors. Gah!

I was listening to Quiet & Still during lunch (I guess that's my new ritual) and for whatever reason all I could hear was Even breathing...does that ever happen to you? When all you hear are the intakes of breaths? A long time ago that used to happen when I listened to Rufus Wainwright...and it drove me NUTS. But anyway, that was just for a bit. Even, woo! It's strange though, for that split second of "silence" from when one song ended and another one would begin, the sound of people in the cafeteria chatting and whatever felt so empty and just plain weird. It was...weird. Very distant. Then again I sit in a corner of the cafeteria, using the giant table I get all for myself as a barracade of sorts. While I was attempting to do physics homework (I didn't get any of the answers right of course) a girl from my English and history class plopped down in the chair next to me and started talking to me. That was nice, i guess...she is a nice person. It's not like we talk a lot but sometimes she talks to me and I don't know why, so I'll just guess that she's nice. In English she and I wrote the script to our Greaet Gatsby play thing, which we did today and I thought it sucked, but the teacher seemed to find it alright. I don't know how my teacher puts up with my class really, some people are so...argh.

Well I could go on and on...but I think I'm going to the mall now for perhaps the first time in many many months. The Garden State Plaza at least. I need to buy some christmas gifts and cards I think, which is great cos i have no money, eh? My mum will give me some..woo.

I watched the Overthrown video! Man, how bizarre! It's so weird for some reason because...hm. I dunno. Because I'm thinking "I just saw Even! In a little bar place. Singing happy songs of sadness. Getting hit in the butt with a microphone." It's very music-video-ee, I really don't know what's going on. Pan to the band...pan to some wooshy stuff...pan back to band...look at the drummer rock out...look at Even rock out...look at other guy (I'll remember their names at some point, oKAY)...HAHA! Generally, I pretty much dislike music videos. It's funny though. I'd like to get some screenshots of it, but my connection sucks (ass) and it might not work, like with realplayer...yeah. Actually...what was the point of that video? It was all dark and dreary but the song is pretty energetic stuff, yeah?

MM well. Very cool. Libido is great! I wish their name wasn't Libido though, cos when you search for that, you get all kind of weird porn. I looked up "Killing Some Dead Time" which worked a lot better. ... ... ...

I was listening to some songs by The Velvet Teen and they sound quite good. I only checked em out cos they're touring with Even though. But yeah, who cares. The singer dude has a good voice. Goes way high and I can't understand the lyrics. Like Thom! But not Thom. Download "Naked Girl"...spiff! And then buy me the CD, it's only $8. Well, I may as well just get it myself I suppose. If all CDs only costed $8, I'd probably buy more of em and in the long run end up spending more money.

Go here and search for Libido and see if you can watch the music video. Music video? I didn't know there was a music video, but I want to watch whatever it is, and it won't work for me (of course).

I'm a bit confused as to why I'm still here. Well, not that exactly, but before I would take naps and watch TV and stay up late. And now I don't do either of those, but I still end up staying up late. I don't feel like I've been wasting my time doing absolutely nothing, I mean I don't chat with anyone and I did some English homework...uh..ya. And...that's about it. I don't know. I'm getting a bit tired though. And hungry. Ergh! It's human nature, isnt it?

Well then. That's it I guess. Woooo.

WOO it's..WEDNESDAY! Only two more days of schoooool! And the rest of the week wont even be half bad. Tomorrow I've got a Russian quiz but that's about it, and on Friday we'll be watching a play for two horus or so at the end of the day. :)

This morning during homeroom, this sophomore touched the case of the fire alarm and this high pitched sound started coming out...man, that sucks, eh? I mean, I wouldn't touch it because I'm not dumb enough (we think) but it's still pretty bad luck to just touch the case outside it and it starts making a sound...it stopped after a while though, thank god. Fire alarms are so annoying. FWEEEEEE...EEEEAAUEIUAUIIUDAS

But ya. Ah. I lasted throughout the day pretty well thinking of Even and thinking about listening to his music..just THINKING for christ's sake! Well at lunch time I decided to listen to Quiet & Still, but I can just play a tune in my head and then get happy! Weird I think...very strange! I never even thought his music was happy, but I guess that's not the point...it's...not, it just makes me happy. NEEHEEHEE! LUHV EHVN!

I'm not really hyper now or anything, but typing in caps makes it seem so, eh? Like I'm a screaming shouting lunatic. Eh. It's okay. Physics was terrible...we took that MID QUARTERLY TEST (whyyy) and I think I failed it...or got a D. The highest score was a 37 out of 48. I think three people got in the 30s. I know I got at least 15 right...at the very least! That's sad. One question I got wrong was really dumb, but I guess on a lot of stuff since it was multiple choice. Oh well...think happy thoughts...

Bur really, that test was...argh! Terrible! I couldn't think at all. I was more thinking "Well I've got a 20% chance of getting this right if I guessss..."

Doing another project in English...GROUP project. That spells disaster. My group could be worse I guess. We have to do skits of a specific scene from the Great Gatsby, and my group has 6 people...definitely not easy to have 6 people do stuff. So of course, it's pretty much me and this other girl doing all the work...writing the script that is. Well..ya. It's okay I guess. I'm not bitter.

Oh rebecca, I envy you so much! Now I kind of wish I had done something last last Friday...but I wouldn't have. I mean I know I wouldn't have, but...neh. !! :)

I had just written stuff. A bit o stuff I'd say. it may have even had the meaning of life. then I was disconnected and the juno browser went kaput and my stuff was gone.

thought ye'd like to know. that i am now depressd (again) but not too badly, except that its 10:40 PM and i haven't studied for my physics test thats worth 20% of my grade, or so i hear. but then i dont see the point, cos i'll do stinky anyway. always lookin on the bright side, thats mee!

everything is loud in a bathroom. i could demonstrate. but not now. sniff. ehvn!

This is the worst review of Killing Some Dead Time I've ever read. Kind of funny...especially about the tiramisu, because I love tiramisu. Who doesn't? It's so yummy. I want some. NOW!

...foodfood, ahh! I'm tired. Sleepsleep! That's what I want.

The following is probably just for Rebecca's sake, but some stuff from here:

"Does anyone mind if I snog the bass player?"

Silence.

"I'm just asking... Does anyone mind?"

Still no response. A little tension sensed maybe. Even, the lead singer of top Norweigan trio Libido, shrugs and strides over to the male bass player and gives him a snog. With tongues. For a serious length of time. More silence. A couple of old fellas mutter into their bitter. Even looks up and beams. "He's just so shaggable though...don't you think?"

And they launch into another song. Cute; A shame it was only witnessed by the other 10 or so people who turned up to this, Libidos xth performance at a Firkin pub on their Firkin tour which they much be getting firkin sick of by now (ho firkin ho)...

...! O..kay. Hehe. :) Well I'm happy I've found something...a decent account of a Libido concert. Did anyone see Libido when they were touring around? Gah.

Not that I can read Norwegian, but if I'm able to understand some of this article, I can assume that Even is either 30 or 31. The other band members are a bit younger, eh?

This doesn't work for me. There's a live Libido performance 2nd from the bottom...actually, none of them work for me. If it was just that one, then you'd know someone was out to get me, but this whole site doesn't like me. Libido! I wanna see!

Oh well. I just use Google to search. There must be tons of stuff out there I haven't found yet. I keep forgetting that if I'm at a European site, then they'll probably list Even as Magnet, which is not really confusing but just annoying, yeah? Gr! There isn't much about Chocolate Overdose anywhere. I think that's the band Even was in maybe in the early 90s. There's a blurb about them here, although if Even is in that picture then...uh...um...I'm scared.

violence breeds violence

we need a world court

not a republican with his hands covered in oil and military hardware lecturing us on world security

we need love and understanding and tolerance and good laws that apply to everyone, upheld by those who are in a position to judge

praying for world peace is not such an embarrassing thing to do anymore i think

especially not this christmas.

thank you everybody on w.a.s.t.e. for still listening and sticking with us and understanding the records we make,

i hope your christmas is peaceful and loving and spiritual. does that sound silly? don't care.

thom

Thom scares me. But it's okay. Thom doesn't like the shift button I see. Christmas is a weird holiday i think...well, not really. World peace is still kind of...impossible. Unless all the umans die. In which case i'm sure we'd leave a nice peaceful world for all the other animals. :)

New Radiohead stuff I will not buy...

iBLIP 2.1.9: RADIOHEAD LIVE, PART DEUX
Much like the folks that frequent the "All You Can Eat" Pizza Hut lunch buffet, you people are always hungry for more...

That is an interesting comparison...I certainly haven't heard it before. I haven't been in Pizza Hut in ages! How much pizza can someone eat?

Someone remind me that Sigur Ros will be on Craig Kilborn this Friday. Yeah? I don't wanna forget that. I dunno if I need to record it though. I'll just watch. Enjoy the moment. Wee!

I'm not very interested in seeing Vanilla Sky, although there's Radiohead and Sigur Ros music in that. Mm..well.

I stayed up til 3:30 AM chatting with rebbie. Oops. Well, I woke up okay, and I didn't get to take a nap today, so...yeah. I'm chugging along. Chug. Poot. I got a B on that physics quiz I thought I failed. And a B on my math quiz. So that was a nice surprise. Tomorrow I have my physics multiple choice test. Ergh. I hate that. At least I can guess if I have to.

I lent my pen to the idiot who sits next to me in physics and...he took my pen apart (I didn't KNOW he was, at the end of class I saw him putting it back together before he gave it back to me). And didn't put it back together correctly. So there goes another pen. It's missing the spring that makes the pen thing stay in the right position, so I can take it out and still use it although it doesn't work as well. Why bother being nice if my stuff is going to be crapped up anyway? I don't even have a ballpoint pen.

Pens are overrated. Ha! I got food. At the Chinese food supermarket. Bought some cookies and many various cans of desserts. I made sure not to get anything with oats or rice in it this time...uh..yeah. So I got...hm..red bean + sago stuff, some jelly stuff called guilinggao or..SOMETHING...some peanut and jello stuff...god, I dunno. I'm determined to try anything that doesn't seem too strange.

I got my guitar back. Oee. New strings sound different. My fingers hurt though. Sniff.

I feel bad for my english teacher. Some people in my class ive her such a hard time, and she's a nice person. I hate that. What's wrong with people. Teenagers are weird. They don't think. Well, some of em. Think more. I was talking about this with my mum I think...people don't seem to think. They think about things that mean absolutely nothing really. Well, I do that too, but there are so many other things...

AHH I ATE TOO MUCH! Blorp. That guilingao stuff was weird. It was good, except there was too much of it. If I had just eaten half of it, that would have been better.

I think "Killing Some Dead Time" was rereleased today. But that's not the cause for excitement (unless you don't have it, in which case...get it)...lookat this. ANOTHER LIBIDO ALBUM? SOOON!? Wow I hope cdnow isn't screwing around. That rules.

Oo...

Ahh...

I tried some practice physics test my teacher gave us...and I didn't know pretty much everything on one of em. it was about electrical stuff that i don't remember learning. cos i probably didn.t but eh, what can ye do! :) I'll just keep smiling when I fail, it'll be fun.

I didn't take a nap today, or watch any TV, yet I still ended up doing my homework at 9 PM. It took me a really long time to figure out how to play Private Jinx. If you're bored, try and play it. It's sucha nice song, yeah:

Private Jinx

Intro:

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Verse: lots of twinkling bar chords. not hard once you get the hang of it! :)

(bottom of C# chord.......Ab)

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you've been caught off your guard

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so now you breathe a little fa ster...

all the beauty in decay, at long last is on display


Chorus: this may not be correct, but it's nearly the same as the intro except with a little thingy smushed in there...

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your head in the clouds, your heart on your sleeve, a black soul that sings like your private jinx


verse:

the bitter taste you'll leave behind, will always be your only crime

& now you're close enough to be within reach,

so you'll hang on to this like a leach


chorus:

with your head in the clouds, your heart on your sleeve

& a black soul that sings like your private jinx

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Bridge:

(Fm bar chord)
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(probably isn't totally correct, but sounds good enough to me. by now your fingers should be digging into the strings of your guitar and turning bloody)

so you're convinced yourself, & the devil as well

you don't need any time to dwell cause


(same stuff as verse)

every day's another scar on you...


chorus:

with your head in the clouds, your heart on your sleeve

& a black soul that sings like your private jinx

(listen to the song a million times and you'll see how everything fits...or doesn't fit)

I found this amazing article about Libido...Even has a daughter! And he's incredibly normal. I mean...that's good. Actually, even though part of me wanted to know basic stuff about him, I kind of don't because in a way I just want to listen to his music and that's it. Just that. I'd like to be blind to everything else unlike most of the other musicians I like (i don't know much about electronic artists I like...I'm not as curious I guess). But now it's too late. I'm being sucked into something. Help. I need it. *burp*

This made me laugh. Does that make me insane?

Bill Amend rules!

Wow, check out Rebbie's page! Cool stuff....you can listen to her recording from yesterday. YAHOO!

Ah, well today Rebecca and Even have been on my mind. Well, during first period really. I can't believe she met him! But then I can also. WOWza. This is like...if she had met Thom Yorke! But not really. Thom is a bit odd...neh, Thom is cool, but "everyone" knows stuff about him, while on the other hand we dunno anything about Even. She says he's normal though. Well, that's a good thing.

I started forgetting all the happiness after first period. The advisor of the holiday festival somewhat chewed me out during class...honestly I don't remember what I said, but somethign dumb most likely. The teacher isn't mean, she just speaks her mind and it's not like I had any good reason to why I decided not to do the photography stuff I was supposed to do. I just didn't really feel like it, and I didn't feel like I was needed. If I just didn't go to school on Friday none of this would be an issue I guess. I should have stayed home...shoudl have...oh well. She succeeded in making me feel like crap though! Good thing to do to someone with possibly the lowest self esteem in the world, right? Not that SHE knew, so in the end, it's all my fault. Ah...this was my problem last year, thinking everything in the world was my fault and that being part of the world was a burden to life as we know it. But I figured stuff out, that I'm just about as useless as society makes me feel, and society is dumb, so I really don't feel like listening to them, eh?

Well that's my speech 'o the day. I could have made it angrier (GODDAAMMMIT I FEEL LIKE SHIIIT) but I didn't see? I've had time to cool down...I wrapped the Harry Potter books for Diana's christmas present and I ate some stuff. Last night I just ate persimmons and cookies. Not a really good mix but today I got home and was like...FOOD! RIGHT NOW!

god..crap...this...realplayer sucks crap! sucks ASS! I've come to like that phrase...sucks ass...it means nothing, but a lot of things dont. it seems to flow well. maybe. but really this realplayer thign isnt workin well, i guess i'll wait until rebecca sends me the tape and then I can do stufffff with it. woo!

physics still makes absolutely no sense to me. i'm really quite screwed for my test on wednesday. but i dont care that much. i'm good at not caring about stuff i probably should care about. but what SHOULD people care about is what i'm wondering. people keep telling me "ooohh ya gotta worry about yer school work and make sure you lookgood for colleges so they want you" like i'm a pig on a farm that wants to go into that shiny truck so i can be made inso pork sausages fit for mcdonalds. alright...not really, but think about it. i think about this stuff perhaps more than i should, but seeing as there is no universal limit to how much one can wonder about life in general, everything that i think has been shaped by this place i live in and i dont like this place i live in so most of the crap that has filled my head for the past 16 years and been loads of useless crap (could I have said that any more eloquently?). and for some reason just altely i've been thinking differently, but it's not that great because i'm helpelss to do anything about...anything. unles i want to live in a ditch. hey, that could be fun! i'll get myself some ditch buddies and we'll have a grand ol time!

...man this is sad. well then! i was listening to Even last night...actually, I always do, so it's not much of an even in the life of Robyn. I'm making it a nightly thing as my lullaby to bring me to sleep. Zzzzz...

oh yeah, one more note, this program is cool. It combines AIm, ICQ, msn messenger and yahoo messenger (which I dont use, but ANYWAY) into one nice program! truly spiffy.

I should never go here.

I've written in this blog way too many times. I'm practically talking to myself. How are you Robyn? Fine, Robyn. Me too, Robyn.

Still thinking about Even and how I cannot ever meet him...just isn't possible. Makes me a bit sad, but perhaps it's for the better.

I still dunno the physics crap. I'm gonna write something, and I think I'll definitely get something higher than an F. Once I got a quiz back that i thought I failed on, but I got D and was pleasantly surprised! When you're happy to get a D, something is wrong isnt it? physics has made me lower my standards and lose faith in my intelligence I think...I had SOME last year, cos of those math contests, but math is not so good this year, yeah.

...i cant believe it! wow. rebecca..is..cool! i cant beve not many opeople saw even! this is sad. its terrible! like..what..IS this...bad..stuff...oh..ga! i feel...funny! that..ah! ahh! AHH! this is silly! why am i so nuts about even? what did he do? i need to ..eat...a..cookie! yes. and now. uh. um. i cant think!

This is weird, I hardly ever save AIM conversation, but I found this old one with rebecca from august 21st i think, here's a part:

roboppy: i got my even johansen CD today! rejoice!
cans and spoons: hehe
cans and spoons: "you cannot spell crap without rap"
roboppy: i used a blender to make mousse once
roboppy: true true
cans and spoons: oh... you should make some mp3s of that, I'm kind of curiosu
roboppy: ah...um.download stuff!
cans and spoons: otay?
cans and spoons: well ther eisn't any!
cans and spoons: MAKE IT!
roboppy: DOWNLOAD!..oh.
cans and spoons: ':P
roboppy: hehe..i used audiogalaxy, there were two songs last time I checked
roboppy: just get those
cans and spoons: fine
cans and spoons: fiiiiine
roboppy: HAHA! yeah
cans and spoons: I don't like audiogalaxy because like... sometimes the song you want isn't there rightaway
roboppy: oh..yeah. true. someone is downloading an even johansen song from me right now though

I'm roboppy, if you dont know....whoa. That was more than three months ago! uh. hm. well now I know what day I got the CD. Here's a small part of today's chat:

cans and spoons: Hi!
roboppy: HIIIIOASOHdhiosfd
cans and spoons: I WENT
cans and spoons: I just got back
roboppy: WHAT?!
roboppy: HOLY CRAP!
roboppy: NO YOUD DINT AHESBDBJASD
cans and spoons: Wow. YOu know how many people were there that were actually sitting and listening? probably 9.
roboppy: *listening to private jinx by the way*
roboppy: WGAT?!
roboppy: OHNOO!
roboppy: AOIASFIHASFD!
roboppy: AHH REBECCA!
roboppy: this is coo!L WOW what hapepne/ddE!
cans and spoons: other people walked around while a guy tried to give them fliers advertising him
roboppy: *you jsut made orbyn happy!*
roboppy: AHH
roboppy: GIMME
roboppy: i mean
cans and spoons: I.. I..
roboppy: HII
roboppy: WHAT?
cans and spoons: I taped it!
roboppy: !
roboppy: HHADSFOIWAR!

As you can see, I'm a blabbering idiot. Hm.

AH! COOL! Even writes...stuff! I'm listening too!

REBECCA SAW EVEN! HOLY FREAKIN LORD! SHE TOUCHED EVEN *ahem* SHE MET HIIIM AND I WAS PROBABLY LSITENING TO HIM ON MY COMPOUTER THE ENTIRE TIME and i have to stop typign caps AH HOLY CRAP more on this later

God, I wrote the biggest piece of b/s for my history assignment. I dunno what the point of the assignment is, but it's worth a fourth of the test I'm taking tomorrow. There were a few parts to the assignment and the part I just really didn't know what to write about was "Write a paragraph which explains if you think the Bill of Rights was necessary. Why/Why not?" This is what I wrote:

I think the Bill of Rights was necessary because we live in a world where people want and need their rights spelled out for them on paper in fear of being overthrown by the government or people superior to themselves. The people can use the amendments to defend themselves whenever they feel their rights are being infringed upon. In reality, the Bill of Rights should not be necessary because people should not need all their rights written down in order to live freely. People in advanced societies have created this certain mentality in which they cannot all agree on issues like gun control and abortion rights and amidst the confusion of daily life they forget what freedoms they actually have. It is almost ironic that the American people only feel free when the Bill of Rights spells out their liberties, when in reality true freedom would be universal and understood by all. Living in a society that has a desire to constantly advance and grow requires a Bill of Rights because people’s lives will become more complicated and their freedoms need to be organized or they may not realize what their own freedoms are.

See, it proabably doesn't even make sense...I don't even understand it. I wrote it though. Well, it makes more sense in my head. The part about gun control and abortion refers to the other part of the assignment where we had to pick two articles about the amendment we were given (mine was the ninth) and that is what my articles were about. Maybe my teacher will be confused and decide to give me an A. This is just history class, I'm probably writing in a non-history sense, if THAT makes any sense. I don't like history at all, but I can say the same for every other subject I take as well.

Cristen gave me some yummy cookies yesterday. The box seemed endless, but I think there are only 3 or 4 left. Sigh. I ate a bunch of cookies today. Made me happy.

I've got these two terrible physics problems that I can't do. Not that anyone out there would do them, but here are the problems.

1) One side of the U-shaped tube in figure 15.36 is filled with a liquid of density p1 while the other side contains a liquid of density p2. If the liquids do not mix, show that p2 = (h1/h2)p1.

2) A tank that has a flat bottom of area A and vertical sides is filled to a depth h in the water. There is 1 atm of pressure at the top surface. (a) What is the absolute pressure at the bottom of the tank? (b) Suppose that an object of total mass M (and average density less than the density of water) is placed into the tank and floats there. What is the resulting increase in the absolute pressure at the bottom of the tank? (c) Evaluate your results for a backyard swimming pool (h = 1.50 m; a circular tank with a 6-m diameter). If two perssons with a combines total mass of 150 kg get into the pool and float quietly there, what is the pressure increase at the bottom of the pool?

...huh? What? This is going to count as a quiz grade. I don't know the point...I think my quiz average is a C or a D. I don't remember all my grades but I remember getting an F and a D, maybe something else was a C...OH who cares, I'd hate to let this get to my head.

...someone get me "Happy Happy Happy" by the Poor Rich Ones. I dunno if I'd really like it a whole lot, but the song "Happy Happy Happy" is kind of cute...haapppyyyy...haapppyyyyyy...wait, this song isn't really happy sounding or anything. Actually. I just want something. I should have bought it last Friday.

I've had some pretty strange stuff looked up in google and refered to me, but "carbon monoxide and sex" is definitely a new one. Who in gods name would look for that? Some other ones:

"temptation island 2" and pictures
carbon monoxide pictures
"judge people's looks"
paul frank clothing
Radiohead "Dollars and Cents" Lyrics Democracy
NAKED REBA MCINTIRE
quizzes u get out of ym magazines
most depressing radiohead song

I've seems stranger things though. Who the hell writes you as "u" in a search engine? the "Dollars and Cents" thing is weird too. Hm. I dunno about that Reba McIntire thing...I don't want to.

This page must take ages to load. It takes a really long time for ME at least...all these pictures and stuff. Eh well.

I woke up at 2 today. 2:20. Whatever. I didn't want to wake up before 1, and I didn't want to wake up after 3. I don't know why, it doesn't really make sense. I went to bed at 4, but I'm not sure why. Well, I was doing a bit of homework. I still have to do my physics take home quiz (which I'll probably end up failing anyway) and physics crap...Russian crap...pre calc crap. Life sucks, doesn't it?

But there are some joyous moments. SLEEPING. EATING COOKIES. Yeah those are good. Well, it's also good to go to the bathroom. But that's not fun, you just have to do it. Unlessss....uh...yeah. I was listening to Even last night, and I was thinking about how comfy it felt to be sleeping and listening to Even singing. It's kind of like a nice hug. But hugs make me feel uncomfortable most of the time. So it's like a hug, without the uncomfortable-ness. You see? Even's voice = hug! Maybe. I'm having the hardest time remembering to pronounce his name Evan. Oh well. But anyway, everything felt nice and comfortable. Floof. When I listen to Quiet & Still, I think "This album...is perfect!" But nothing is really perfect, so I'll have to rethink that. Nothing is out of place though, everything is just...good...stuff...sounding...good...floof.

For the longest time I've had issues with looking at people straight in the eye. I mean, not friends and family, which is why I guess I'm the only one...who notices...crap...I have a hard time explaining stuff. It all sounded very good in my head though. I just don't like looking at people in the eye, it makes me feel uncomfortable, which is why I like not interacting with other people. Well of course there are other reasons, but that's one. Teachers, other classmates, strangers, all make me feel uncomfortable. This doesn't make for a very happy time at school. There are lots of other factors that go into that though. I have no idea why I'm like this though. Does anyone else have this problem? I know other people do, but it must be very few people cos it just doesn't seem like anyone else is like that. i hate asking my teachers questions...confrontation, yuck. I only ask questions in physics because sometimes I'm the only one who has done the homework and I really don't understand that crap. My teacher scares me though. Maybe this is why I'm so shy....or vice versa.

Stupid snow went away. I guess I don't really want to have below freezing temperatures in school. Freezing my butt off. I'm quite cozy right now. "Magic Mushroom Night" is a nice song. It's simple. It's twinkly. I like twinkles. Woofa. For now I think "Crash Out" is my favorite libido song, just because the lyrics talk about sleeping. Stupid isnt it. I like my sleep, you know that. "Crash out on your pillow and follow your free will and I will sing a lullaby and soon you will be fast asleep"...hey thats true! oh god. i'm nuts. I listen to Even before I go to sleep so I can...go to sleep...jesus christ. I'm scared. sniff.

Go to the bottom of this page...is that picture supposed to be innocent? Holy crap.

Cristen had some post its and started writing captions to my pictures..ahh! :) Here are some:







...mmkay? :) She also did captions for all the pictures i took of Even. This one is DEFINITELY my favorite:



Yes, it's silly, but it's PANORAMIC!

Here's a picture of some bracelets she made:



I made the one in the middle..NAHAHA...it's like a rainbow! Uh. Not really.

I'm listening to what I think is the weirdest Libido song..."Good Intentions" is the name I guess, it's tacked onto the end of "Remarkably Abnormal". I turn the light off as I turn her on..HAHA god I'm sorry but that just sounds...yeah. Then she said if you love me truly you will let me tie you up and whip you till you bleed...so show me your unconditional love... Whoa, alrightee. Maybe NOT!

IT SNOWED!...snowing...kind of. THen it turned to rain. Then it kind of turned back to snow. And then..BUT ANYWAY I went outside and thought "Gee, it's cold...there's white stuff coming out of the sky!" YAAAAA! I went out wearing my open toed...shoes...yeah that makes sense in below freezing weather.

I went out with my mum and Cristen to Cocoro, a Japanese restaurant. I DIDN'T HAVE EEL! Wow. It was good. I'm full o stuff. Stuffed with stuff. Mm!

How nice, I got an e-mail with the subject "Do Me Now!!"...sounds intruiging, doesn't it.

Wasn't I in a state of seemingly endless bliss a week ago? God, a week is too long...I felt like I saw Even ages ago. Definitely not 7 days. My mind works strangely. And I don't remember much except his fingers moving around..and hsi foot on a pedal..and him bending over and doing stuff with something...I dunno why but that part is pretty clear and I wasn't that close to him. Oh well. Memories. :(

Sigh. So! I woke up at around 1 today. Technically I woke up a few times before that but decided that anytime before noon is too early. IT IS! GAARG! So yeah. Woo.

Today in the mail I got...Seventeen magazing. MY FAVORITE!...uh, yeaaah. My mum got some free subscriptions. Shall I flip through it? I'm thinking of what I could do with all the paper in that magazine. I could make a hundred paper cranes. Eehh...neeh. I could get ever ad in that magazine and just make ONE GIANT AD, save a lot of trouble...one page with all that junk squished together to rot my minds, hooraay I like the idea. I could use some mind rotting.

I'm sitting on my chair funny..my ankles feel funnnyyy...I should sit properly. *plop*...alrightee, now I'm sitting on my bum.

If I get my period 5 days earlier than I should, is something screwed up with me? Yeaah? TELL MEEE something is wrong.

I'm trying a new blog comment generator thing. Leave a note! Grey Matter looks like a nice blog-type thing, but neh...I probably wouldn't be able to install it. I don't even understand how to install ikonboard! Foo.

If I were a work of art, I would be Leonardo da Vinci's Mona Lisa. I am extremely popular and widely known. Although unassuming and unpretentious, my enigmatic smile has charmed millions. I am a mystery, able to be appreciated from afar, but ultimately unknowable and thus intriguing. Which work of art would you be? The Art Test

That's not true! I can prove it! I'm not popular or widely known, and I don't have an enigmatic smile, what a load o CRAP! HAHAHAHA god aren't I terrible. I must have taken the test wrong. How dumb.


Strawberry: 30/100 Pear: 60/100 Banana: 10/100 Tomato: 30/100 Lemon: 0/100

Take the What Fruit Are You? test by webkin and aaronr!

How is it ironic that I'm a bit of a loner...I didn't need to take a fruit test to tell me that. Other people suck a lot! Neehee!

...I'm okay. I'm a pear! Cool! Pears are good. MMM! I'm not lemony at all..



Take the What Cat Are You? test by webkin!

HAHAH what the hell, Cutie Kitty?! That's not a new species is it? "What kind of cat is this? Well a CUTIE of course!" Uh...that is a cute cat though. Actually it kind of looks like its in pain..."My arms...waah!" or it looks dead. I mean...yeah? D-E-A-D! It's cute.

I am an Ewok Mug. I congeal fine hydrostatic miracles with my random acrobatic stadiums. My manifold direction improves transparent reverse hydrofoils. Ambergris flotation sneakers supply my derelict parsley. Which fungus plays dry tranquility? The Utterly Surreal Test

...I don't understand that one.

It somehow became 1:30 AM quite quickly. HMM. Well you can see my other pictures from last Friday, WOOha. I ought to go to sleep now. I think I have a lot of work to do this weekend. God, kill me.

I feel funky..SCHOOOL GAARG DIIIE YOUUU! Oh yeah, today kind of sucked. Did I say I signed up to be a photographer during the holiday festival? Well...I did...I wasn't really sure what the hell I was supposed to do. I met with the advisor of the whole thing once, and she said there was going to be another meeting but as far as I know, there never was another one. I got a pass that said to go to the auditorium at 5th period (which was actually 3rd period because 2nd and 3rd were taken out) and I did...and I didn't understand what to do. Cos there were people in there practicing for a play that was going to be put on for the kids that were coming. I sat there for what felt like a million hours, and then proceeded to walk around the hallways for what also felt like a million hours. Another million hours I spent sitting on the edge of the fireplace in the commons, which has been boarded up for a long time I think, and I read some of my book. I moved my butt to one of the confmy couches and slept for a while. And then I got up when I realized that the kids were going to be walking around the school with their escorts. I was pretty miserable by now because I had wasted my whole day when I could have been in class getting some homework down or preparing for my history test on Monday...I mean, what was the point of having me get out of all my classes? I didn't do anything. I asked one of the teahers where I was supposed to go, and she said room 2 and 3. The first time I went there, no one was in there...this was around the time I walked around the hallways for a million hours. I went back there later and saw someone in there, but I didn't want to go in, because I knew that I really didn't want to stay in that room all day and take pictures with the digital cameras, and later there were more people in there who seemed to know what they were doing. Me, I wouldn't have known, so blah.

I guess this seems kind of irresponsible...I had this pass to get out of my classes and during the three hours or so (it felt longer, really), I didn't do anything. But you know what...I was kind of angry too, because I'm always doing what peopel are telling me to do, or I'm too stupid to figure out what I'm supposed to do. Is that really my fault? Well, in a way it is and in a way it isnt. I met up with Jen at some point and asked her if she had any idea what I was supposed to do. I know it wasn't her responsibility to know, but she made me get involved in the whole Holiday Festival thing in the first place...honestly, I don't feel like listening to her anymore. If everything was really organized right I think I should have known where to go and what my assignment was. Obviously I wasn't needed because no one cared that I walking around aimlessly or sleeping on a couch half-dead. So instead of being completely miserable all day, I decided to be partly miserable and just take pictures of various stuff and use up the rest of my film from last Friday. I took a bunch of pictures...they didn't come out very good, but oh well, maybe someone will want em. I must have walked around the school three times, argh.

Near the end of the day I saw Sheryl and Aliza and just stayed with them. I was awfully hungry by now...I was pretty much surrounded by really bad food, and I decided to eat a cookie. There were tons of plain cookies the kids were supposed to decorate, and I ate 6 of em. There were a lot left over afterwards, I wonder what's going to happen to them. It seems like such a waste to throw out, cos they were quite good. I like plain cookies...make me some. So yeah...cookies...um. The day was very unexciting and it made me dislike Christmas. What is the deal with Santa Claus anyway? I remember sitting on his lap once, and I asked for socks. I was a dumb kid, believe me. But weren't we all?

I'm really not good with kids, so it's a good thing I wasn't as escort I guess. Foo. Here are some pictures:


That's where the 300 and 200 wing meet...all those decorations on the wall scare me a bit.


This is the commons...I like the decorations on the windows. Kids were lining up to meet Santa Claus..well..thast nice I guess..and pictures were taken of them.


The upper gym and the giant space walk thingy, although it's painted to look like a pirate ship. Uh.


The outside of my school. How nice. Those people are waiting for the dooda on the far right..it was a little ride that took the kiddies aroung the big circle in the front of the school. Uh...YAY!


This is the main hallway you're in when you enter the school. I like the little snowmen hanging from the ceiling, but there are snowmen all over this hallway as you can see and that kind of seemed like overkill...too many freakin snowmen. For christs sake, its like 50 degrees outside...I want snow.


This is my locker, or at least part of it. Well, the main stuff in there. :)

I also got my other few Even pictures developed, and they suck. My camera doesn't take panoramic photos but I seem to get them back anyway...I don't udnerstand why. Those photo developing places must be pooped up or something. I went to Walgreens this time, it was a lot cheaper than Motophoto and nicer than CVS...I don't understand the getting-panoramic-photos-when-I-didn't-take-them thing though.

IE just crashed...well isn't that nice! Gr.

I'm kind of happy because I've somewhat figured out how to play "Where Happiness Lives"...all those subtle little twangy parts are nice. TWANGY! But it still sounds different probably because my guitar is a classical one with the nylon strings...and those already make my fingers hurt. My fingers are pretty disgusting to look at. Ewww. ANYWAY, that's nice isn't it. I can't hear the guitar clearly throughout the whole song...foop...

School was pretty annoying today, but only ONE MORE DAY...this week. I just realized that I sit in the worst seat in physics, sandwiched right between the three most annoying people in the class. What are the chances of that? The two guys on my right and left, Rich and Mike, they're friends but...I just don't understand the customs of male friendship. Throughout every class they'll say stuff to each other like "You're gay, you're a fag" or sometimes "Mike/Rich takes it up the ass" and of course, I SIT BETWEEN THEM so think about that. I can't comprehend their mentality, it's not just immature, it's just weird. There's another guy who sits in front of rich named Ted and he's annoying too, although not as much. It's just other stuff, the way he IS is annoying. Mike was flicking pieces of eraser at him all period (some which got caught in my hair, how nice). The teacher doesn't hear well so he doesn't always hear all the crap that I have to put up with but today he had to stop the class a few times to tell them to shut up. Another annoying thing involved the sticking post its on people's backs...can you see where this is going? Post its were being passed around because the teacher wanted us to mark a page in our book but of course people like Mike and Rich see them as the perfect opportunity to put notes like "I'm gay" on people's backs. They put on on this guy, Jon, but I think Mike took it off cos he felt bad or something...well anyway, that's not the point, first of all it's stupid to call someone gay, isn't it? I mean...well I know I'm thinking in realyl literal terms and they're not, but it's just dumb. It's sad that some 16 and 17 year olds acts so retarded.

English...well, I just don't know what's wrong with the people in my class. They cannot...stop...talking. It's not a hard concept! Clooose youuur mooouth...think to yourseeeellf.

I ate a bunch o stuff when I got home. Eh well. A meat bun (well, it has a chinese name, I can't spell it though) and turnip cakes (which also have a chinese name, although I have no idea what it is)...turnip cakes are good. I'm not even sure what turnip tastes like, I mean does anyone out there eat turnip? I only remember them because in the Mario Bros games, they were used as weapons, which now that I think about it, is weird. They're just growing in the ground right there? OKAY it's just a videogame, I know. :) But the turnip cakes are white flatish thingies and they're yummy, I can't really describe them in any other way.

My guitar needs some reparing. New strings...they're gettin rusty. I used to just wait until they'd break off, but I hope Anthony is in today so he can replace em for me, nehehehe...

I spent one and a half hours on my dumb physics homework and I only got half the questions right. Well, I did half of it in school and then I tried the other half at home and...got them all wrooong...so I decided to stop wasting my time. It is a waste, isn't it? And then I checked my e-mail and my physics teacher sent an e-mail to everyone to check if we were working...I mean it's not like he's trying to control us, it's more of a joke, but I was thinking "I WAS WORKING BUT GOT NOWHERE!" I'm pretty sure it was something like one and half hours cos I listened to the WFMU tape more than two times...wah.

WELL THEEEEN I haven't practiced my piano all week. I dunno the point of taking piano lessons, I'm bad when it comes to PRACTICING the thing, how will I ever learn anything...*i won't*...oh yeah. And it's not much use unless you're quite good at it, right?

i ate too much. I ate some of that congee...I need to get a smaller can next time. I ate half of it and then started to feel funky, I guess it mixed with the dumplings and the persimmon that I ate. Isn't that a pretty picture? Wouldn't we all like to see our stomach contents? ...no....but if you really wanted to you coudl just throw up or something. When thinking of people puking I always recall the same story. Would you like to hear it? *deafening silence*...okay, here I go. I think it was in 7th grade that a bunch of friends and myself in Taiwan were at our friend Krystin's apartment. We stayed at her place a lot for various reasons, like if there was a dance or a concert at school, and her parents didn't seem to mind much. Besides living with her dad and mum, her nephew also lives there. So anyway we were playing hide and seek for her nephews sake, who I think was 3 or 4 but was kind of...um, bug for his age...and I hid with him behind the TV. Then I smelled something. Like poo. Cos it was poo. DIAPERRRR CHAAANGE IMMEDIATELY! So Krystin took him out to change his diaper and we followed her to his room...and it's probably best I don't describe what I saw, cos let's just say it was lots of doodie. One of my friends got a bit sick feeling from the smell (ah yesm, the smell, what memories) and threw up in the hallway. Oh well, at least we all had a good time, she was laughing. Once she puked in school and cried...I dunno if I would, but I did puke on the soccer field in 9th grade after running a lap. Pathetic, I know. I was never quite as fond of track and field after that.

Well that was a nice story, wasn't it. Tell it to your friends.

Now I'm all tired again. Poot. Oh well, there wasn't anything very interesting I had to say anyway. I have eaten a bit o food today. FOOD...does my life revolve around foood? I hope not. I went to the Chinese supermarket with my mum and got a can of mixded congee. There are so many different kinds it seems...well they're all pretty much the same. I haven't had it since I lived in Taiwan so I bought one...79 cents. Yikes. I hope it's yummmyyyy.

Last night I went to bed pretty easily. First of all, I finished "Days of Love, Nights of War" by Crimethinc and it was pretty good. At first I thought it was kind of weird but by the end I...still thought it was weird but only because i tmade me think about things that I never really thought about before. That's not much of a description, but...read it. It's not very pleasant when you realize that most everything in the world is crap, but I'd rather know than be some...ignorant robot person-thing. I don't remember everything from the book so I'll probably have to read it over, but one thing I remember was a part about shoplifting. Shoplifting...bad! Right? I mean, I wouldn't ever shoplift, but only because I don't have to. If someone needs food and had no other means of getting it then is shoplifting justifiable (is that a word)? I kind of think it is in a sense...but anyway. This is Crimethinc's newspaper type thing, it's kind of interesting. I don't really have the means of ditributing hundreds of copies but maybe someone else does...

Anyway, I was listening to Even and I never listen to much *while* I'm sleeping, but I decided to anyway cos it was making me really sleepy and it...made me realyl sleepy. I love the sixth song he played on WFMU a lot and it was so weird because...I went to sleep. I guess I have to factor in that I was tired too, but I wasn't DEAD tired. I knew my brain was thinking on its own, like I had a really short dream or something, but then I woke up when I realized I was still listening to the song. Does that make sense? It's sooooothing...I haven't figured out all the lyrics to the song yet, but the main part is just "It's you and me versus the world" which is...nice...maybe...actually, I didn't think about it too much.

Go here and I think you can put your e-mail address there to be notified about the release of "Castle in the Sky". Actually, it's not for the consumers as much as it is for Disney (of course), because they want to see how many people actually want it first. That's stupid though because...they're going to release it sooner or later. It's finished! It's been finished for years, what is wrong with them...Disney....*gr*...but anyway if they see that more people want it maybe they'll hurry up a bit.

I miscalculated how much money I owed my mum and left about 20 bucks off...I think my mum is letting it go though. I forget after a while...oh well. It's not the end of the world.

There is something I don't understand (hopefully I didn't mention this already) but today in English everyone has finished their presentations on the 1920s and MOST of the people in my class are really chatty normally, so I would think that they would be able to speak loudly and comprehensible in front of the class, but hardly anyone did. These people could talk to their friends about the most useless crap in the world, but then giving a presentation with facts and such stuff right in front of them, they're terrible. Honestly, if I do say so myself, Christina and I were the best and that's kind of sad, and while oral presentations aren't that hard, it's not something I excel in either. The people in my class just make me kind of sad sometimes, not all of them of course, but you know how there's always this one kid in your class that is annoying as hell? There are like, 5 of those people in my English class. Not a good combination really. The guy who sits next to me definitely has problems, I can't tell if he's dumb or something, but I can't imagine him doing anything productive with his life when during class he just talks to his friend and when he's not he's...ARGH. I don't know how my teacher can tolerate them. Maybe after each day of school she goes home and then her brain explodes...

..but I guess not. She doesn't seem like she's very stressed out most of the time, which is good. I was thinking that I'd like to go without TV for as long as I possibly could...because I've been realizing just how dumb TV is and how glad I am that I don't have cable. I mean, I can understand what the news is for, but even that is not all that great, especially when some news reports are so obviously sensationalized. TV shows and stuff really have nothing to do with my life, it's just 30 minutes or an hour of entertainment...and then again the next week. So today I just won't watch TV...I think. Er...yeah. I still spend too much time on the Internet, but...sigh, that's me.

Schhhooool..pooo...I could say more, but I'm so tired. Which is sad because it's only 6 PM. Sigh. I really am tired though, it's just that I went to the bookstore after school (and I stayed after school to take a math contest...I got 4 out of 6. neh) and then I ate dinner when I got home cos I was HUUUNNNGRY and now it's really too late to sleep especially when I have homework. It's always the same thing, pre calc and physics. I don't really do my physics homework yet, I don't even know when to turn it in...the teacher doesn't tell us. I just turn it in after we taking a quiz on the chapter, but sometimes I turn it in too early and the teacher goes over some questions.

My stomach is full o stufff! What the heck did I eat? I ate...pasta, some shrimp, and sprouts? That's not much. How big are stomachs anyway? I'm still kind of hungry though. :P

This morning while walking on the track at gym with the people who didn't want to play football, I was thinking about why I like Even (because, yes, I still do...wooow) and well...actually, it's nothing very interesting, but wouldn't it be nice if everyone could just be naturally happy and not need things liek music to make them happy? Of course we live in a pretty screwed up worled whether you realize it or not. And there is no perfect society, but are people happy just for life itself or the most basic parts of it? Eh? Neh? Geeeh? ! guess it's not really possible. But I'll wonder about it anyway.

I really love the songs Even played on WFMU...too bad I can't understand everything he's saying. Oh well. I think the happiness has worn off already from last Friday, isn't that sad? Eh well, I'll just have to rely on my memory...what happened that night? Man, I dunno! Ugh. I'm listening to the show on wfmu's site and the sound quality is so much better than my tape, gerg. Mine is full of spoots and crackles and fuzz. :( I don't think I would mind making it into separate mp3s and stuff, but I already DID and that seemed to take ages. Well, maybe I will later...eeaaakakefuwrefusdf!!!spoot!

..my internet connection is too unreliable. It just stopped for the third time and is buffering..crap...whatever...yeah? :P

I like what steph wrote in her blog:

I am so very happy that it is now December because at least to me, it signifies that I don't have to wait too long until summer. I don't really enjoy summer, with its humid days and wasted days & apathy, but I don't know - I am always waiting for time to pass in hopes future days will be better. I never get the feeling that I am really living. I always hate when I get that sense of awe that I am really me - I am really somebody inhabiting a body, I am really a person and an individual - mostly, because I don't like that creeping shame and that sense of worthlessness. I am probably the same as many as my peers (selfish brats!), but I want to be more than that, but I am too strange of a person to ever get there.

Summer is still a while away...but anyway. Life is weird. I still think humans are pretty pointless as far as all living things go. I think I'm too irresponsible to have control of a human body sometimes. Hm. And I hate that realization that I'm probably like everyone else, but it's probably...true...and I like to think that everyone else is stupid, ha!

dookeedook.

If anyone is actually interested in what I recorded last Friday, you can listen to this crap thing I made in which I sliced and diced and screwed up what was already screwy...heehee! Well, it's kind of fun, but if you have a subwoofer like I do (my brother lets me use it when he's not home, nice eh) then it'll really make things...weird. Oh yeah and I put some bad sound clips here...maybe it's better than nothing.

Wellll lets see, I haven't done any homework yet. Maybe I should get started on that pre calc crap. GARH.

Dave Barry on CBS! Heehee! Hey, I think he lost some weight...hm. Dave Barry = funny stufff! I haven't gotten his new book though. Hmmhmmhmh. Heehee!

DOO DA DOO so I probably fell asleep at 3 AM. Oh well. Gotta get Even out of my head...GET OUTTA THEEERE! Jesus christ! Then again I woke up around 6 without trouble. I plopped out of bed and that was that. I had to keep myself from grinning stupidly in school...because I was thinking smiles. :) THINK SMILES!

Actually, by the end of the day I was gettin tired. I got 100 on my English presentation though. That was nice. Math was so boring...Russian was so boring...I dunno, I didn't pay very close attention. Foo. Actually, math was VERY confusing..uhoh. I have 20 problems to do tonite.

WELL then. After school I met up with Jen. She said she liked my shirt. I never wear this shirt to school for whatever reason, but I've had it for a long time...eh well. She said something like "You look pretty today!" which at first seems like a compliment but then you realize, "Well I must look like a bum most of the time.." I don't care too much, but it's like I went STRAIGHT to that thought, eh? I looked in the mirror, I think I look more awake today than usual. By the end of the week I'll probably be all tired again though.

Ladeedaa, I'm gonna listen to my Libido single for "Overthrown" right now. Even singing! Er...yeah! "So if I should seem a little blue, I have just held my breath too long..." That'll happen! Uh. Then suffocation ensues...anyway. How peachy.

note to rebecca: He looks more like this picture than on the album cover. He's got shorter hair...or...something? Yeeaah, whatever. Go to the page I made.

I finally finished my Even site! And it only took me, what, 10-12 hours? Yeah, don't say anything...these things take time. You can still go to the old address but there's just a splash page there, not very special.

I like this song. Too bad I don't know what it's called...foo. Well tell me what you think of the site!

MMmmhmhmh well it's sunday night now. Tomorrow is school. What a crappy thing to think about.

I woke up at 3:15 PM. JESUS CHRIST. Well, I went to bed at 6 AM uploading WFMU stuff, takes SO long...ugh. But the songs are really nice so its good stuff. And also last night/this morning I was listening to my MD from Friday, it's really crappy and distorted, but I can make out the songs so I can make a tracklisting of it I guess. Only one part came out semi clear, when Even was talkin about something and then went "WOO"...it was funny at the time. :)

I was thinking about it and it was probablyu best that I didn't go up to him after the show because I would have been really nervous and the possibility of crying wouldnt have been far out of reach...and well, I've never cried out of happiness, but you never know...it would have been nad anyway. HEY at least I got in, that's all that matters. Doodaadoo!

So today I went to get my stocking for holiday festival and I could hardly find any little toys to put in it...I have to make one that is for a boy or girl, so it's hard yeah? I dunno what these kids want! I wish I wasnt doing it. Oh well. I guess if I didn't that would make me a worse person than I already am, I don't need that I guess.

Okay, gonna do some more uploading...today is SUNDAY, whyyy? This is terrible. Well one nice thing happened today, I found a Russian dictionary in the bookcase. I needed one for school and my dad must have bought one a while ago. I doubt he used it though, I mean really, we have tons of LEARN GERMAN stuff, cos I guess he went there, and he went to Russia but that was a long time ago...oh well, now I don't have to buy one.

Worked on the English project a bit. I just realized that I do have some homework to do this weekend, and it's almost over...or so it feels. I mean, tomorrow I have to do homework, do my laundry, get a stocking for the holiday festival...argh. The way life is just sucks sometimes. People are slaves to their...lives. To life. Do you know what I mean? You set up this schedule for yourself to follow every day and you can't just let it be.

But enough about that. Took me ages but I've converted the WFMU performance in mp3s and I'm getting to making realaudio stuff...and it's only 2 AM, hm. Oh yes, I scanned the photos also.


Me, Mr. Alien, and Jen at Mars 2112. When that dude came to our table, he patted my head...um...yeah, he's fascinated with hair I think. :)


Me and Jen in front of Brownies. When I look at this picture, Jen really does look pretty old. I mean considering she's my age, I guess I could mistaken her for a 20-something year old like the guy at the door seemed to think she was. "Will you be drinking?" "Uh...noooo..." Anyway, right after this picture was taken Even started playing and that's when I went nuts I think. Nuts ish. There's a poster for The Album Leaf behind us and it has Even name on it since they were playing the same night...but they spelled his name wrong. Evan Johanson? I guess if you hear his name then it's easy to spell wrong, but...yeaaah? Oh yeah, this might be a dumb question, but is his name pronounced JOhansen or YOhansen?


I told you the pictures weren't that good...ee what is wrong with me? Well, he moved his head. :)


The STAGE...l'etage! I dunno why that just popped in my head. He's alll alooooooone...


Still there...


GAH someone's in front of me! Yeah well. I remembered something, at one point Even was looking at someone, I dunno who, but looking at them and smiling I think. Maybe it was a "special" person, heehee. That's nice.

Or maybe he was just staring into space and smiling for the heck of it, but I doubt it. So anyway...maybe my next batch of pictures came out better. AH who cares, I'm still in my daze...semi daze. I love the new songs he played...I wish my recording of the performance didn't come out so crappy, oowell.

...well, I woke up at 3. That's certainly new...I didn't really go to bed that late, like after 4 AM (okay, I know that's late, but for me, it's not that unusual) but I guess I was making up for the night before also. Heehee.

So I woke up kind of dazed and I had to pick up the phone cos it was ringing..a lot..Christina was calling me cos we have to do our English project. Weee.

Oh yes, still dazed about last night...I'm still kind of thinking "Was I there? WHOAA" But anyway. I got some pictures developed...some are still on my new roll, but anyway, they came out pretty crappy, hehe. That's okay, could have been worse!

Dooda, listening to the WFMU stuff right now. I recorded it to an MD from my tape and then I'll record that into my 'puter...sounds good ya? Maybe tonite I'll have everything in order. I wish I knew the songs of those other songs he did...that I don't know the names of. :)

HOLY...BAHLLADLF....HOLY FFFUUUUUUCCCCKKK

*thats the only time I'll swear, really..and its out of HAPPINESS*

HOLY GHAUIDCRAP CRAP I SAW EVEN I SAW HIM HE WAS RIGHT THERE sitting there playing his steel pedal guitar all alone on the stage AND I WATCHED LIKE "GAAAH ITS EVEN"

I know i sound like a babbling retard, but it's only in times of extreme happiness. This is extreme! OKAY first of all, Jen and I went to NY..yeah..we ate at mars 2112, saw the rockefellar christmas tree, walked around blah blah blah took the subway to brownies, found it, and I went nuts just seeing his friggin NAME on the door. Jen was about to take a picture of me when the guy at the door offered to take a picture of both of us. After he did, Jen told him that I was a big Even Johansen fan and I really wanted to go in...but I added I wasn't 18, and the flyer said "18 w/ID" or something. But then...HE LET US IN! I guess they don't really care! Which is good!...maybe...yeah! I guess he saw we really wanted to go, or else we wouldn't have been there at all. When we were standing out there I could hear Even start playing and I was like "Ahhh! That's him!" AND WE ENTERED WOOOHOO!

Thus became the extreme happiness. I don't know what I was doing, but I KNOW, I am CERTAIN that I seemed crazy. I know it. I was too happy. No one cared that I obviously wasn't 18, but anyway...I got my MD player out and recorded it (it sounds SO crappy on my MD though, distorted and such, you can't imagine) and took some pictures. Even is easy on the eyes, yes? He must be in his 30s or something, not really sure. He was really into the performance it seemed though...it was rvery low key, but yeah he was sitting there alooone...with stuff...it sounded like the performance last night on WFMU, down to the "Zip A Dee Do Dah" at the end! But anyway, Even, why must you smoke!? I knew he smoked but...man, he really can't go without a cigarette. He'd sneak that right in..*huff huff puff puff smoke coming out of nostrils*. He loses points for that...heehee. But he has a lot, so it doesn't matter. I'll have pictures to show you later!

I WANT TO HEAR PRIVATE JINX! He didn't play that. But he sings so beautifully! And he played so well! And everything was WEE WEE except for the tall people that decided to stand smack right in front of me! I was soo shy to go up to him after the concert...no one else was...well...no, I couldn't. I would ..puke! So Jen and I were leaving when I saw a poster saying that his CD was onsale for $10! So I bought one for Rebecca...and also got some promo stuff; 8 posters, and two postcard sticker things. I think I scared the representative from Five One Inc. I put my name down on an Even mailing list. Eehee!

BUT I WAS SO HAPPY i dont even remember what was going, I just kept thanking Jen for being there and apologizing for acting like a real idiot, but I'm still 16, and it might be acceptable. I may as well live up the teenage life while I can.

Oh, I don't know what else to say. It was so marvelous. Even is a remarkable musician. Why he isn't more well known, I don't know. I want him to be, but kind of not also...I'd say ther ewere less than 50 people in the audience. It was a small place, I'll have to say that, but if it was packed I'd say it could fit...more than 100 people? I dunno. I wanted to buy flowers at a store somewhere and give them to him, but I didn't have enough time. I regret that. But it was pretty much perfect! We got there RIGHT on time, and this morning I decided to leave an hour earlier than I planned to last night. The weather was PERFECT despite the rain on the bus ride over, by the time we got to NY it was not too cold or hot, and there was a slight breeze, perfect walking weather really. Oh it was wonderful! I don't want to forget this.


Some stuff. Heehee. More pictures later.