God crappit, I joined this Hayao Miyazaki mailing list and I'm getting too much e-mail...I'm trying to switch it to digest mode, but the site (nausicaa.net) doesn't seem to be working, which is reallllly convenient...

...I did 5 physics problems. Only 22 more to go. Kill me now, please? It took me hours to figure out this one problem only after my mum read the chapter in my text and in my brother's physics textbook. I don't understand symbolism in "Death of a Salesman" and for English I have to figure out the synmbolic meaning of various stuff that refers to building things. Not EVERYTHING is a symbol. Do English teachers realize that? Last year we did tons of crap about symbolism.

I took a 4 hour nap. That was nice. Oh and I did get the security tag off my pants. Actually my mum did. She found a little saw type thing, and did what that webpage said to do. It worked, yeah? And now she has to shorten the legs a bit. Foo.

Why is my net connection so slow? I can't even send a stupid e-mail.

My mum and I made yummy beef curry for dinner. Mmmmm...fooood. I would like some food now. But it's pretty late to eat now. Sigh. I wanted to make a grilled cheese sandwich, but all that pizza I ate before makde my nose stuffed up. Not fun. So I'll lay off the cheese.

I'm listening to "107 Steps" (Bjork) right now. Preeetty song. But not a good part in the movie (Dancer in the Dark). Nuh uh. She was dancing around the prison and stuff, argh...:(

Ooee, Audio Dregs is insound's label of the week. When I clicked to that page, I thought I did something...um...no just a coincidence, woopeecreamcheese! There are tons of things I want to get at insound; Hydro Electric by Phonem, Monochrome Plural by Fizzarum, and something by Gimmik. I try to avoid getting anything vinyl if possible since I would kind of need to get a new record player...ugh...but I'll buy something if I think I'll really like it (which could explain those 7 Beck records, coming in all different sizes and colors, oo) . But it's about time, I think the one my family has now is 30 (or more?) years old. And no one really uses it. But whenever I used it I manage to break the needle, because...I'm stupid. :)

I'm not going through some strange techno phase if anyone is wondering (probably not), but somehow I found some stuff I like, which is pretty cool because who doesn't like finding stuff they...like? Uhhhh...anyway, I am now listening to Svefn-G-Englar. I've been listening to Sigur Ros for, what, 10 months, and I still can't remember how to spell/say/remember the song titles. Then again, I'm not trying. But still, you'd think by now this stuff would be ingrained in my head. THEN again, I still don't know most of the names of the roads around my house, and I've lived here for most of my life. That is more sad I think. At least I know the address of my house.

It's SUNDAY. That means...POOO...yeah, POO. I have a ton of homework to do. I've managed to finish my math, and that's all. Now I just have history, English, Physics, and Russian. Well, Russian is just studying, and for history I have to draw something. Physics, I don't even know what to do anyway, so maybe I should just screw that. And English...well...I dunno what to do for that either. So maybe I don't have as much work as I thought I did. In THAT case, maybe I'll just take a nap...wee!

Wow, I already got...5 votes for my poll. deliciousghost is winning once again, 3 to 2. Take the poll!

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What should my domain be called?

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A nice new poll. I took the four top choices from the other poll. 8 people voted...um...yay! I put this poll on my beck site too, so maybe more people will vote, eh?

Ooee, Mayor Giuliani is on SNL. Jooleeeaaaannnnneeeee. :)...okay, Paul Simon is now playing guitar and singing. I guess that was unexpected?

I bought some stuff. YAY! $33 buys me a CD, this 7", this other 7" (says it's out of print, but the order page says...its not), a magazine, and a t-shirt. Still, I will be $33 poorer. And the record player is still a little not working. Ummmm. Oh well. E*vax better be good!

BE BORN --> SMILE AND DROOL A LOT --> GO TO SCHOOL --> GET BEAT UP BY THAT KID DOWN THE STREET --> GO TO COLLEGE --> GET BEAT UP BY THE KID DOWN THE HALL --> TAKE A WHIZZ (you deserve it, big guy!)à GET A JOB --> DIE

I wrote that in my blog on Sept 7th 2000. Nehehehehee. Actually it was part of a little essay I wrote. But the rest of it is pretty dumb (you mean that was the good part?)...hm.

Man, the security tag was left on one of my pairs of pants! But I did a quick search on google and found this...jesus. So I can get it off I guess. But my mum doesn't wanna cut it. She's gonna cut a hole in my pants I think. She was going to shorten it anyway. But. Oh well...god crappit, I'm practically ripping my pants apart now...

Foogle. Today I spent...all day driving go Pennsylvania and back (well my MUM was driving). My mum wanted to go to a cross stitching festival thingy. She didn't buy anything...but it took about 3 hours to drive there, hehe. But not all is lost; we stopped in an outlet mall. There are lots of outlet...places in PA, it seems. But anyway, it was a very nice outlet mall....stuff for cheap! Well, cheapER. I heard some nice music too, in Banana Republic they played Weezer, in the Gap they played Gorillaz, and in J. Crew they played Belle and Sebastian. Oo, cool! Annnnddd I got two pairs o pants (J. Crew). So hard for me to find pants I like. Had to find pants that didn't flare, and pants that weren't tapered at the ends (if that's the right word)...just PANTsss. Nearly perfect pants, except it had a button-fly, which is definitely more annoying than a zipper. Will someone tell me what would make a button-fly better than a zipper one? :P

BUT ANYWAY! Lots of stores. Not like the clothes were defected, but they were considerably cheaper, sooo...yeah. :)

And now I'm HERE! You know, I quite like those rest areas on the highway. They all kind of look the same, which freaks me out, but anyway. Cos then you're like..."Wait, was I here...no....but it looks like the other one!" That might just be me. Actually, I do NOT like rest areas when I'm on a band trip to Toronto, but hopefully, that was just a one time thing...:)

I didn't really do any homework. That's preeeettty bad. Tomorrow is going to suck. Hoorah. My butt.

This is nice!

I hate physics! I got three problems done, and then got very confused. That's bad cos I have about 20 problems to do.

I watched the season premiere of That's Life, a show on CBS, and they killed Victor!...(who's Victor?)...hm, anyway. Yeah I don't know anyone who watches that show, but i can't believe they killed him, that's terrible. Uh. Yeah.

I think I will try Dance Dance Revolution tonite. I plugged the Playstation into the TV. I hope it works. HMMM. I'll tell you about it tomorrow.

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I made my mum listen to Libido in the car, and she didn't object. She said they were more energized than...Radiohead or anything else I like? Hm. I DO LOVE Libido! Kind of. Love, too strong a word. Hmmhmhmhfoogle. Oh well. Where THOM? Greenplastic is down for now somewhat, the other day they had a picture of THOMOIDS! It was a picture of Thom designed like an Altoids ad...I dont see it there anymore, but it was quite strange. Thomoids sounds too much like hemerroids to me. Ew.

deliciousghost is winning! That's pretty cool. Why don't you VOTE right now? (Unless you already voted, in which case, DON'T vote) Lea suggested that name, by the way. It is quite cool. I like ghosts, they're cute. I saw a nice array of cute items decorated with ghosts today at Target. :)

Fooooo. Today I went to...THE MALL! Ate food. Yay. And I saw Zoolander with my mum. Strange movie, yes. It's cute and funny, but also preeetty dumb and weird. Hmm. So you decide whether or not you want to see it. Ben Stiller is straaange! I mean, in the movie. He was so funny in "Meet the Parents", I mean, that movie was almost painful to watch. But anyway, Zoolander is okay, and it has a somewhat happy ending. I mean, it's HAPPY, but would you want to go to a school called "The Derek Zoolander Center for Kids Who Can't Read Good"? Hm...maybe I would! :)

There are about a million cameos in this movie, pretty strange. David Duchovny plays a hand model. He looks kind of fat and old in the movie...oooeee.

After the movie my mum and I went to Barnes & Noble and ate some cake and drank some coffee. STARBUUUUCKS! That's always a treat for us. Coffee...is evil! Oh well. I think it's sad that kids are becoming so dependent on coffee. I mean, not like everyone, but in my school I see kids in the morning carrying giant coffee cups, as though they wouldn't be able to function without it. That's greaaat.

I also bought two hair clips. I don't know HOW to use hair clips. It's one of those...butterfly clips I guess. They don't really look like butterflies. Is that what they're called? They have lots of teeth. It doesn't stay in my hair very well. I must be doing something wrong.

Hey, Rufus is on the Zoolander soundtrack! I didn't know that. Actually, I looked up info about it cos I heard a song during the movie that sounded like the Wallflowers, and I was right...um...yay. Go me. I don't remember hearing a Rufus song, although it doesn't mean it was actually in the movie I guess. Why is Rufus on so many movie soundtracks? Hm. (Okay, when I say so many, I mean like...5, maybe. Well I know of at least 4...hm)...

Can someone tape this for me? It's the John Lennon tribute thing. BECK WAS SUPPOSED TO BE THERE! But he backed out cos of the tragedy...hmmmm...I mean...well I don't think it was really necessary, but oh well. BUT RUFUS IS THERE NOW! So I still want to see it. I want to see Beck...but Rufus...good too! And it IS on the WB, a channel I actually get, but at the moment it's all static-ee and stuff. It might be like that for a while. I get NBC, CBS, and FOX okay, the other channels are fuzzy and crappy. :P The show is on TNT also...and of course I don't get that, so anyway, if anyone can help, that'd be nice.

Oh CRAP! I just remember, Bjork is on Rosie o donnell on october 2nd I think, and I have remembered for...ever! But ABC is crap! Sigh. SOMEONE HEEELP MEEE I don't wanna miss this stuff! :(

Sniff. I think I'm going to Pennsylvania tomorrow. My dad invited some relatives over, he does that every weekend so every weekend for me is ruined. My mum doesn't wanna stay home, so I guess i don't want to either. My dad is so annoying, I mean the weekend is generally the only time I have...out of school...kind of. I don't even want to stay in my own house anymore. And I don't know these relatives. Who cares. Is there anyone else in the world like this, who calls up people they're vaguely related to and invites them over? Whenever this happens there are lots of leftovers in the fridge and my dad keeps em for about a week, or more, and my mum and i certainly don't want to eat the food. Ugh.

later note: I just read that Bjork will probably NOT be on rosie...if that's so, forget what I said about recording it. :)

Also, just read that Post and Debut are officially platinum (1 million copies sold) and Homogenic is gold (half a million). I'm s urprised that Homogenic would have sold half as much as the other albums, because I...quite like it, yeah? It's very good! EXcellent! And also, Vespertine has sold abouta bagillion (or less) copies already. So are these new Bjork fans eating up Vespertine? That is pretty cool! It was the top selling album in the world in it's second week of release. Oooo...you should all get a copy, yes!

I WANNA GO TO NY! It'll never be cheaper than now to be a tourist in Manhattan! Right? I've never stayed in a hotel in NY. They're quite pricey. But it'll be cheaper now. Well it's too late to plan anything right now, and my dad would never allow my mum and I to go. But if you think about it...ooo! :D

I want this! :D Isn't it cool? I think I like it because it's...cheap...but...um, doesn't mean it doesn't sound cool. Actually, I don't know what it sounds like. But it's a tiny keyboard and it's a calculator, heehee. It's quite cheesy. I love cheese! Will someone buy me one? Actually, I guess I can afford it. There's another on on eBay for 25 bucks. Maybe I will buy one later. Oo...

Yes, I actually have some money! I have $50. I'm going to put it in my checking account...so I'm less likely to spend it. But I plan on buying a CD...so I will...spend it. Hm. Yes, there is a bright future for my $50.

Heehee, I'm listening to a sound clip of the keyboard, it sounds so funny. HAHAHHAHAhasdhHAshduiQ wow you can really annoy people with this.

...okay, that song is already annoying the crap out of me. It's too happy sounding, ack!

I went out to eat dinner. That was nice. Turkey sandwich. I forgot what turkey tastes like. It's yummy.

....mm, well then. Today has been very slow. I've been tired all day, pretty much. Actually, that's what I'm usually like, nevermind.

What the...ARRGRGGGGHHH! For god's sake, what the hellll is happening? Everything in my beck folder is gone! I had tons of stuff in there. I couldn't even guess how long it took me to upload all those mp3s and stuff...what happened? I didn't delete them! I'm so pissed...and I was already in a bad mood, cos I hate playing the stupid piano, I'm not going to play piano my whole life. And this stupid...thing...I don't want to upload all those things. Stupid internet is slow as poop. Hate...everything. Only one person voted. What the hell? Can't you spend one second to help me out in the slightest bit? I guess not, I'm not worth helping...well that explains a lot.

Today I have piano lessons. Yay. I hate the stupid theory crap. I can't play the songs right. I slouch over too much and my fingers aren't curved enough I think. So everything sounds like crap. I should stop taking piano lessons I think. But if I do, I won't really have anything else. I think I'm starting my Japanese lessons next week. Hm.

I registered for the PSAT. It would be sad if I did worse this year than I did last year. It's possible though, isn't it? I got a 1230 last year or something. I thought that was pretty good. By my standards at least. I think 1000 would have been good. Oh well. I haven't been preparing in any way. I just don't really care about the SATs. I haven't signed up for any SAT IIs. Those aren't absolutely necessary to get into every college, and since I don't care what college I go to, does it matter? Everyone is going to tell me "You should take an SAT II, blah blah blah"...and everyone knows kind of what they want to do in college, and kind of what college they want to go to, right? I've never known. I don't even know where I want to live, and to me thats the most important part. I don't know if that sounds stupid, but then who really cares. So why don't I have any idea what I want to do? Oh well.

My hands are freezing. That doesn't make playing the piano any more fun either.

My mum wants to go to the mall. I don't like malls. What would i do there? She wants to eat and see a movie. Maybe I'll feel like it. Hmph. I wanted to go to NY. I'd never object to that. My mum doesn't want to do anything that would make my dad mad or annoyed and if we go to NY he'll be mad because it costs so much to park, and with the toll and crap it ends up being a lot by his standards. Then theres the other stuff like shopping and eating. He'd wanna kill us. I don't think we should care what my dad thinks, because he's stupid anyway. What is he going to do if we go to NY, really. I want to see a concert. That won't be for a while. Foof. Foof. There are few things I enjoy in life I think.

Hey I think I FINALLY finished my Plone page. Almost...but I'm too lazy to make a few more real audio clips. I converted nearly all the songs though, not too shabby. Listen to the songs! Love Plone!

I found out something today...there's a Yahoo club for PLONE! First I was very excited...WOW! A club for Plone! But wait, the plot thickens. Who found the club? B***. Okay I could write the name, but I don't feel like it. A handful of you know who *he* is (now you know?) and if you know don't what I'm talking about, don't ask me, just skip this paragraph...or something. It says it was founded on August 22, 2000...I was still friends with him then wasn't I? He never told me he made a club. This information might be irrelevant, but I first told him about Plone and made him buy the CD. So I guess he really liked them. Wait, I should know. I shouldn't be angry, I don't know if I am, but I definitely don't want to join this club since I knew he founded it, and well there are only 6 members anyway, but how the hell am I going to get anyone to go to my Plone site if I don't tell the fans? ...maybe I'll just post something at the Plone message board at warp. But anyway, maybe something is wrong with ME, I mean I didn't find out about the club until now, more than a year later after it was made...

Actually, scratch that posting to the messageboard thing. It seems to have disappeared. What the hell? That was the only thing I could have done and now I can't do it. I mean, I can't find the messageboard, where is it?...okay, I found A messageboard, but it's not specifically for Plone. WHY DID THEY GET RID OF IT? ...screw it, just do me a favor and at least take a listen to Plone and Even Johansen, I have a hard time finding their fans, and they must exist somewhere...

I'm lookin at B***'s yahoo profile majiggy, and he wrote that he was 20? He's not 20! I know that. Sigh. :P

Man, now I'm all annoyed. I wish I never found the Plone club. Let's all love Plone. Maybe I'll make a Even Johansen club. Members - 1. Haha. That's too depressing. Now I feel bad. This happened yesterday too. Sniff. There's no one online to talk to, what a surprise...not.

Oh yeah, unlike what I said in my other post, I decided against having a domain with the word thundepeel in it cos someone had thunderpeel.org and it didn't seem like such a special name anymore. I want to be...more special! I must.

I love how the results for the poll so far just shows a giant red circle. That will CHANGE after I get MORE VOTES right? Yeah. :)

Now you MUST help me! I made a poll:

Help me!

What name should I choose for my new domain? (ending with .com, .net, or...something else? I'm not sure yet)

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I think the poll will last for 5 days. You can also take the poll here. So vote! (please?) The idea isn't really to suggest another name, so if you can help it, don't suggest another one, unless you think I'll DEFINITELY choose it. :)

Lina didn't put up the Bjork pictures I scanned from Cut magazine. That's why I scanned em! So other people could see em and...make them happy! Maybe I can use them for something else. If not... :( I mean, she told me where I could upload them, but I didn't understand what to do (which happens a lot) so I uploaded them somewhere else and told her, and then I never heard back from her. I guess it's possible she didn't get my e-mail but I definitely don't want to e-mail her back and find out, because I feel bad enough already and I hate annoying people (when I say that I mean annoying as a verb, not an adjective, you see?), although...I think I am pretty annoying, no? Lina seems nice though, I'm sure nothing is her fault (stuff is almost always my fault if you must know). Oh well, I have nothing else to contribute to the bjork community. And today I realized why the main bjork.com page is called munity because then it's bjork.com/munity...COMMUNITY yeah? Actually, at the top of the page it says mutiny, is that a typo? Because that doesn't make any sense. The URL http://www.bjork.com/munity works...gee, that's a pretty stupid typo. Maybe they should fix that.

I wish I wasn't stupid, really! :( I mean, why would anyone wish otherwise? Sigh.

This is from the bjork mailing list...it's a description of her new music video, Pagan Poetry, and it sounds absolutely freaky! Or weird.

The video starts up with a black background crossed by blur drops of a white-ish fluid (any guesses?). Then the screen turns white, and there are thin black lines. It's like these lines are suggesting some kind of shape, and they move as the image they would be suggesting turns sharper and later blur again. At some point we can guess we're watching her mouth singing, some other times it's her head we can see... But nothing is clear. (At some point I would have sworn I was watching five seconds of a penetration shot of a porn film, but I can't be sure)

Then we get a clear close-up, which somehow gave me the feeling of an amateur video, of her mouth covered with her mane while she sings. There is wind and her hair blows, and then back to the blur white images... Until we get another clear shot of her head. This time she's lying (on some white-ish cushons, I think) and she's singing, but it was very clear to me that there was some action going on further down on her body. I've only seen the video twice, but I think that in this part it looks like something (or someone?) is repeatedly pushing her (still, as I said, I can't be 100% sure).

Now back to the blurring white images, but now they get clearer and we see pearls threaded in string going through parts of her body. The most shocking part is when we see these pearls going through her nipple (or a least a nipple). The video is quite daring up to this point, but it is towards the end of the song, after she has said "pagan poetry" for the second time, when the best part starts.

Black background. There she is: a shot quite similar to the one at the beginning of Hidden Place, but this time she has many of these pearl strings around her shoulders. Her hair is blowing as she sings and screams, and you can see she's really feeling it (like she does in the Play Dead video). Sometimes she flails her arms and we see her breast. When the "I love him" part starts, on-screen Björk does not sing at all, but she looks down in a very shy posse and looks like she's going to cry. She does say the last "I love him", and now the look on her face is somewhere between joy, courage, and madness, and she sings the "this time..." part. During this sequence I just described we get two full-body shots, and she's wearing a very long plastic-like transparent-silverish skirt with all these pearl strings around.

Towards the very end, we see how two surgical needles go through someone's flesh as it is being held by some sort of surgical instrument. And the last shot of the video is another white blur image which gets sharper, and it turns to be her naked back pierced with six rings which hold another pearl string.

I have described it as accurately as I can. Yet I don't know if the video has been discussed here lately, as I've been to New York and haven't really paid much attention to the list. I would love to know it there are already versions of the video in the Internet, or if a dvd-single has been scheduled. This clip is amazing. And she looks very beautiful. Stunning.

Hmmmm...interesting? I want to see it. The description sounds too strange.

Did anyone watch Undeclared last night? I thought it was a pretty funny show. In some ways it reminded me of Freaks and Geeks (same creator, if I remember correctly) but Freaks and Geeks was probably better. But anyway, this show is okay too. And of course one of the coolest things is that the main character has a poster of MUTATIONS on the wall. That's BECK for those of you who don't know. COOL! I would like a poster for Mutations. That main character (who's name completely escapes me right now) is so terribly dorky, it's sad, but hey, Beck is cool. Or...is he? What does the poster signify? AHH! And Rufus's dad (Loudon Wainwright...oo) plays one messed up father on the show. Like...yeah. He's funny though.

Man today I walked around in wet shoes and socks all day. I have gym first...and it didn't rain, so we were out on the field which is incredibly wet ANYWAY, so my pants got wet and my shoes got soaked, and my feet were freezing for the rest of the day. But I guess I should know to bring in a separate pair of shoes and socks. I'll do that next week. :)

Today we had a memorial assembly for September 11th. I guess it was nice, although kind of depressing cos I just GOT OVER ALL THAT STUFF and then there was a slide show of all these pictures that were pretty tragic. My mum and I were planning to go to NY tomorrow, but she changed her mind. She wanted to see the memorial in Union Square, but she said it was taken down...hm. I mean, it hasn't been THAT long really. Oh well. I guess it'll be nice to just stay home and sleep and eat yummy stuff.

Today'd Libido song I had stuck in my head all day was "Crash Out"...eekeer!

Oh yeah, I finally decided on the domain name thunderpeel. Dot something. Someone registered thunderpeel.com...WHY?! dot net is slill unclaimed I think. What other thingies can you have after the dot? maybe I'll just pick a really weird one. I decided on thunderpeel because it means absolutely nothing, at least in my mind it doesn't. I mean, it's the name of a beck song, but other than that, it's just like two dissimilar words mushed together, right? What the heck is a thunderpeel? I dunno. Well gimme some suggestions...what goes after the dot? :)

This site is weird.

I thought this was funny, although maybe it's not.

E*vax make terribly cutesy electronic music. Reminds me of fluffy clouds. No wait...fluffly cute bunnies riding on fluffy cute clouds. My god, shoot me.

Taken from an interview with E*vax:

I never had an SK-1, but my brother did. I was definitely jealous. I remember getting a birthday gift from my parents one year that came in a sk-1 sized box, I was pretty excited but it turned out to be an electric toothbrush.

That sounds very sad, although I thought it was funny. It is funny. HAHAHAHA I laugh. I think an SK-1 is this little casio sampler thing that isn't made anymore, but it's little and simple and does some cool stuff. Screw the electric toothbrush.

Someone just messaged me on AIM and asked if I lived in Texas. Ah...no, I don't, for anyone that's wondering.

Bored?

god crappit, I hate this stupid computer. the internet sucks too. i'm gonna complain if you're wondering. yeah i do that a lot, but heres a warning, I'M GOING TO COMPLAIN, now you can decide whether or not you wanna read the rest of this crap. The internet is slow and heck, i hope my mum doesnt pay for this, but i think she does...juno sucks. dial up connection sucks. and then the stupid stuff at the bottom went all freezee on me, and i was listening to even, and then it went FREEZY for christ's sake...

argh life is stupid. look what i'm doing with my life. i'm sitting here and typing crap. never a good day. i used to think that every day got worse, which meant that ever day was the worst day of my life, and that's not really true (I got that from the movie Office Space pretty much) but still, I wouldn't mind you know, NOT living. I say that lot, I don't know if I really mean it.

The internet is weird. I like it because i can think about what i want to say and then type out stuff, but then i realized sometimes I might be in a bad mood but i can still appear happy on the internet, like if I'm typing in here or chatting with someone or writing an e-mail. so how do you know what anyone is like? you dont really. i dont mean people going around with fake identities, but when i chat with people i usually seem pretty perfky and chipper and some other really stupid adjectives, but i'm not always. sometimes i AM but most of the time i just dont feel like being mean to someone i dont know very well just cos i'm in a bad mood. i'm thinking mainly of random beck fans that have messaged me over the years (not that many actually) and...well...I dunno. i'm not really good friends with any beck fans, why is that? i must be one of those strange beck fans. i think about that a lot. i like beck. or maybe i'm just telling myself that.

i really hate being in a bad mood on the internet when i'm chatting with someone, because i dont want to bring the other person down, you know? i think at most i've probably been all p-oed 2 or 3 times. maybe less. its safe to say there are about a bagillion things no one knows about me. or maybe...not...my brain..it hurts. feel the pain! *zap*. that was mean of me, sorry. don't feel the pain. i'll absorb it like a sponge. (sponges are scaaary)...

i want to eat dinner now. i think i'll go do that. i feel really cold like my ORGANS just froze over. that happens sometimes, you know the feeling? its a terrible feeling. actually, this isn't really. last year was worse. i think last year i started going crazy around this time, and october too. nothing has really happened yet THIS year that would make me want to kill all the kids in my school and walk in the middle of traffic, isn't that nice? yeah, always a good thing. why are you reading this?

did anyone else think this was the worst crowd ever? horrible... people walking around during the set... a few people talking... the worst was a security guard who decided he was going to yell for a while during one of the most quiet songs. i went and talked to the head of security after the show just to let him know that one of the guards totally ruined one of the songs.

That was a comment in regard to the Sigur Ros concert last night in NY at the Beacon Theater. Of course, I wasn't there, but what, are New Yorkers just rude poop heads? I mean it only takes a few, but at th eother concert I thought some people were pretty rude, but this sounds worse. That's too bad really, I mean...jeez! I don't understand why these people would go to the concert if they weren't going to be attentive and just listen to the music, that disappoints me...

Anyway. When am I going to buy a Sigur Ros tshirt? foof. When am I going to buy a domain? Hmmm. When am I gonna eat dinner? In an hour, probably.

I didn't get as much junk mail today as I usually do! Oo that's good. What does it mean? That financial people and the business people and the porn people finally figured out that I'm only 16 and can't do anything? Hmm.

What the heck is this? Hmmm.

Hey I think I got an A on my physics quiz...WOO. I mean there were only two questions. They were pretty easy. I'm sure more of the class got em right.

I want more rain! I don't want to play soccer tomorrow...today we didn't play, and I got to sit in the weight room and do nothing. WOO!

mMmhmhmdfgnuiwrfn!IUsefuisd god i dunno. I've had Overthrown stuck in my head ALL FRIGGIN DAY!

Argh I hate the stupid crushlink thing. Whoever put my e-mail address in, not very nice you see, because I'll never find out who the person is, and I probably don't want to know, but I don't really get any hints. I got an e-mail saying I'd get a hint if I registered with an online job website, but I kind of can't register cos I'm under 18, and heey I'm not desperate enough to lie about my age.

:) Me, definitely not 18.

I found out today that some people only need about 3 hours of sleep at night because all you really need is 3 hours of REM sleep, and those special people can go directly to the REM stage when they go to sleep. Those special people are mostly those with a genius-level IQ (or at least, that's what I was told)...I wish I was one of those special people, so I could thrive 3 hours of sleep each night.

Man, I tooo wish i was one of those people. That, by the way, was taken from stephooo's site. Yup, I'm sure she appreciates me calling her STEPHOOO! Also taken from her site, are these linkies...one, two. Who would spend so much time making a list of the ideal guy/girl? ...okay, a lot of people I guess, but if you ask me it could never be good to be with...the "perfect" person, not that I know, but if you think too much about that stuff, you'll probably just set yourself up for disappointment.

i want a boy...
1. who likes radiohead.

That's definitely great though, THOM IS MY ROCK STAR BOYFRIEND HAHEHAHha the THOM...um. That dude's list of traits for a girl is way too long. I haven't read it all, but as I said before, reading words make me tired (did I say that?)

I'm listening to Libido again. Maybe I should listen to something else....NOOOO!

As for the bjork referencefor a domain name, lea, I decided just to stick with Beck, because...I know mostly about Beck? :) I love Bjork of course, but...I dunno. There are more cool Beck related things to think of, heehee. Maybe TOOO many...

This morning I wok up at like 5:30 with a bloody nose. It wasn't totally pouring out or anything, but not fun, yeah? Cos it's pitch black at that time in the morning, but at least I had a box of tissues next to me. I was up before then hearing the RAIN and god it was raining...hard! And it might still be raining now, but not as hard. I love hearing rain! I like seeing it too though. RAIN WHEN I CAN SEEEE IT, GOD CRAAAPPIIT. I wanted to get one of those little machines that would make noise, and my mum almost let me have one but then I decided I didn't realllly need it. I used to have major trouble going to sleep, but it hasn't been so bad now. ...woo, I guess.

Man, what the hell am I doing? It's like 10:15 and I'm sitting here. Crap, I didn't write my Russian yet. Well I can do that tomorrow I guess. Eh. Foo.

Garg the TV doesn't work. I can't see any of the stations that have 10 o clock news. I'm kind of curious as to what's...HAPPENING in the world, yeah? I guess I could just go to a website and read the news, but I'd much rather just watch TV. Reading words makes me bored after a while. Are you bored yet?

OO I think it's going to rain! Yay! No soccer! I hope.

Listening to another new Aphex Twin song, "Cock 10 (Delco Freedom Mix)"...hmhmmhmh foofer, it's okay. I think I like "54 Cymru Beats" better though. At warp records they're selling a two track CD of those...two tracks...before the album comes out. Should I buy? I guess not.

God I should go to bed. I haven't even taken a shower yet. Is anyone reading this? Man, what the hell do people do all day? I ask that question and no one ever seems to answer. Obviously, I should be doing something better with my time than writing in this, but oh well. Thus, the pathetic stream of life continues, yay!

Jesus, THIS is disturbing! I found that there's a link to my site, and then I'm like AHH! I mean, it's just kind of creepy. Beck! What is with these people?! :P

..anyway. Who thinks I need a hair cut? I mean, not necessarily chop off a few inches, but maybe get it cut in some way? It's so freakin LONG now, I've never had hair all past my shoulders. Professional hair salons have been uncharted territory for me for the past 3 years, hehe. They've got scissors...SCAARYY! DON'T HURT MEEE! I don't think I'd look good with bangs. Yeah, hair is annoying. It's not like I'm into hair styles or have any...female role models to look to? Well I have my Bjork book. Hmmm...nope, nuttin there (the book is cool though, buy it! Actually, I was a little disappointed at first, but hey it was about 25 bucks on amazon, so I guess it's a good deal). Bjork has had some cool hair dos though. Now her hair is kind of messy and all over the place, my mum hates it. :)

At Columbia House I can get two "free" cds for every one that I buy. Hm. I don't think there's anything that I want from them for now though. Unless I want another copy of Kid A. Heeheeehee...um...no. Too bad they don't have more cool techo stuff, cos then I'd probably buy that. I COULD get more Aphex Twin...*ponders*...

I'M PONDERING!

Today in physics I felt like I was going to sleep...I mean, this was more boring than it usual is. I dunno WHAT the teacher was talking about, but it was some complicated crap...maybe. If you saw my notes, you probably would have no idea what it means. And neither would I. That kind of defeats the purpose of taking notes. I remember...letters. About ten million variables. So we could compute how long it takes a basketball to getinto a hoop when thrown at blah blah meter per second and the dude is blah blah meters away from the basket...ARGH WHO CARES!

...anyway, I'm fine, yeah. I can't tell if I'm one of the stupid people in my class or...maybe they're real smart, but in the beginning of class the teacher always asks if we have any questions and usually someone says something, but today no one said ANYTHING, and I certainly didn't get all the questions on the homework right, so I had him do two problems that I couldn't get (I made a retarded mistake in the first one) but maybe the other people just didn't do their homework yet. I'll just say that. I'm not retarded...wee!

And that quiz we took last week, tons of people got As on it. NOO MY GRAPH WAS DRAWN THE NICEST they don't deserrrrve As!....man, don't I sound crazy? I don't care about grades that much, but I was really proud of that stupid graph for about a day...

For whatever reason, the first half of Killing Some Dead Time (hey you can buy it used for 2 bucks! Cool, buy it NOW!) seems to be a LOT better than the second, and then I feel bad for only listening to the first 6 songs. I feel guilt! It's mushy. Guilt feels mushy! Who would have known. Oh well, it's nice to hear Even singing, woopeedoo!

I still don't know what to call my domain. Come on guuyyyyys!...(that sounded eerily perky, uhoh)...I'm terribly indecisive! :(

Hey, I should write a review for Killing Some Dead Time...there's only one here. Hmmhmh. This person gave it 5 stars...I'd say 4 stars, 5 is nearly PERFECT and I leave that for Beck, Radiohead, and Bjork. :)

Man, I should have recorded this show. Conan's fightin with a rubber crocodile! Actually, I saw that episode already. HAHAHAHA GOD Max is crazy, neehehehe! He shot Andy!...Richter. Man...

CONAN IN IRELAND! I never saw THIS episode. Hehe. OHMYGOD! This is so funny, he's being chased by little Irish school kids. Aw. How...sad. I can't wait til the summer, then I can see a taping of Conan. Actually, I could go ANYTIME, technically speaking, because I could go to NY right after school, but I thought it'd be best to wait until the summer. Oh yeah, my brother will be back, so he'll wanna go to...so that's another reason.

Jesus christ, right now there's a clip of Johnny Rotton on the Late Show with Tom Snyder and he looked eerily like Thom. Actually, it's probably more the other way around, but anyway, I got scared. The red haaair! Spoooky.

I'm watching the 50 years of Late Night thing on NBC...David Letterman is funnnyy, heehee. I would have liked to watch the old shows. He seem to do more stufff on the old shows, you know what I mean? Also, Paul...with hair! It's just nuts, I'm tellin ya...Dave with hair! ...okay, he still has hair, but not as much, you see? He kind of has a comma shaped doodah on his head now.

...I wish I could stay up allll night and watch late shows. Quality television, it's all right there! RIGHTthere! Ohmygod, how cute, a doggy walkin around...um...actually, it looks kinda scary. Right now they're showing stupid pet tricks. Remember when that dog bit Dave?...*dead silence*...okay!

GAH CONAN'S HEAD! So large! He's hosting the show. He's being pretty boring though, I don't think he can *shine* just HOSTING a show. He can't act stupid! CONAAAAN! YOU RULE EVERYYYTHING!

*that was a slight exaggeration*...

I've been eating this soy ice cream stuff, and it tastes just like ice cream. Really yummy! But I should try not eating soy ice cream...or any dessert type thing.

What the ::beep::...I got this e-mail from CrushLink, but I have no crushes, so this is kind of pointless. *delete*...I know about three guys, yeah? Unless...it's a FEEEmaaale! Uhoh. I'M NOT A LESBIAN!

...anyway! You know what's good? Brownies with nuts in em. You know what else is good? Nuts covered in BROWNIE!

HAHAHA!

Yeah I was hoping to get Thom, but that would be pretty wrong, wouldn't it. I dunno what the other possibilities were, but they must have been...very...different?

You and Thom Yorke are a match made in heaven!. You're both quite shy, but highly intelligent and creative people. You might be described as being a wallflower at parties, but it is probably because you're so deep in thought! Music is a huge part of your life and you prefer to experiment with different genres of music, rather than sticking to the same thing, which makes you a perfect couple!

Really, I wouldn't even GO to parties. And Thom is more angry at stuff than I am. The description doesn't mention the CONSTANT PAIN AND ANGER! Haha, just kidding. If I was at a party, I wouldn't be a wallflower because I'm so deep in though, unless that thought is "I wanna go home!..." but I'd be a wallflower because people scare me.

:)

My dad cut down a (little) tree. Isn't that stupid? I mean, I didn't notice any of the trees in the backyard being a problem, but he said it was blocking out the sunlight, and there were too many trees, blah blah. We live in a forest practically! If he didn't want trees blocking the sunlight, then he should have picked a house that WASN'T surround by trees, yeah? I don't like this cutting-of-trees thing, it's stupid, now that tree is going to rot, what a waste of life.

That makes me sad. :( Feel for the tree!

I ate a lot of pastriiies. Eh. Last night some cousins were over and they brought a box of little pastries and they were kind of small, so I ate...three of em? Um. Well now they're all mushed up in my digestive juices, isn't that nice?

It's SUNDAY! GARG crappit I hope it rains tomorrow. I think it's supposed to. In gym we're starting soccer. Everyone knows what soccer is, right? The gym teacher was telling us about one of his students that didn't know what a soccer ball was, that's kind of scary. I'm no good at soccer though, but I can say the same about any sport. The only things I don't totally suck at are tennis and badmitton, and I'm pretty bad at those. It's just not too hard to whack a flying thingy with a raquet, yeah?

But then it shouldn't be hard to hit a ball with your FOOT. So maybe I shouldn't say anything, yeah?

I'm listening to Libido, wee fuun stuff! What else should I listen to...okee, now I'm listening to Autechre. I only downloaded one song (Basscadet) but I somewhat like it, maybe I'll buy an album. I also downloaded "Come On My Selector" by Squarepusher, I don't like this one as much. Squarepusher is supposed to be good though, right? Generally I'll trust anything from Warp Records, although I'm judging them solely on PLONE and Aphex Twin, hehe. BUT PLOONE YAAY HOW I LOVE THEE...oh yeah, and Boards of Canada is supposed to be good. I downloaded "Aquarius" and it's okay, but actually, it's not *bloopy bleepy* enough for me. I must be missing something.

Oh yeah, and are the Strokes really that good? For the past few months it's like that's the only band I hear about and now I'm hearing more about them now that they're releasing their album in the US. I don't think they play the kind of music I like, I downloaded a song and it was...uh, I dunno. What I want to get is another Godspeed You Black Emperor! album

Ahh I have to do my laundry! Poop.

What's the point of this site? Hm well it entertained me for a bit, hehe...

Well I went to the fair with Cristen and it was prettttty sad, but yeah well, that's what fairs are like! We went on this ride, it was realllly funny, it was like a ride simulating going into space, and it costed $4, and it was very sad. But funny. I don't know what was happening, I was just making noises. There were space ships on this screen, it was like from the 70s or something.

So after walking around a bit we crossed the street and went to the Hallmark store and Market Basket. My god, there were tons of teeeenagers just hanging out around there. I don't mind teenagers if there aren't a whole PACK of them. But there was a PACK. Gerg.

So anyway. Cristen and I watched Momento and Princess Mononoke. Momento was a good movie, kind of weird since it went backwards (well, kind of) and it ended pretty abruptly, but it was interesting, yeah. The main dude has no short term memory so he can't remember...stuff. I mean, after a certain accident, he couldn't remember anything, he could remember everything before that pretty much. Princess Mononoke is cool too. I wish all of Hayao Miyazaki's movies could be translated to English...well they all kind of are I think, but fooooof. I want to see Nausicaa, and there was a version released in English a long time ago but apparently it sucked real bad. So maybe they'll redo that. Or I could just buy the one in Japanese and get something out of that, I know they sell it at Kinokuniya. I mean I've done that before and while I'm sure I missed a lot of stuff by not understanding the movie, but..foo! I think the alternative of learning Japanese would take too long. I remember there is this really good movie called Graveyard of the Fireflies, and it was really sad. I haven't watched it ages, maybe I should watch that...

Uh...hello! I'd like to say that I don't eat weird food. Some people seem to cringe at the thought of eating eel or whatever, but this is completely stupid, eel isn't even strange. Okay, not all of you, but not just eel, other stuff too. I don't get my food at weird places, I just might eat different food than you, but what's the big deal? So I like organic stuff and don't like dairy stuff too much (exclude that one pizza for now, hehe) so does that make me really repulsive just because I've done a little research on the kind of food that produced in America? So just a note for the future, don't question the food I eat and certainly don't criticize it. I don't think I make fun of people or criticize them, and if I do you can bring that to my attention.

Yeah, why do lots of people have to criticize others and point out their faults? I think about that sometimes, because I don't really "get" it. I...nevermind.

I had a really good cookie today. It was from Whole Foods. It would seem that it'd be a lot easier to make food out of few ingredients that aren't artificial and crap, but of course most stuff isn't made that way. It's too expensive, let's make tons of articifial crap and make America the center of really bad food! Of course not everyone just cares about money, but if you're like my dad then you'll never have anything of quality and you'll never do anything worthwhile when all you can obsess about is money. That's a reason why I dislike my dad so much, everything revolves around money, and it's his whole family. Okay, I'm part of the family, but I'm talking about his dad and mum and his brothers.

They must have had a terrible childhood, my grandpa is about the most unpleasant person you'll ever meet. ... ... ..almost. Because if you met him you wouldn't really know what he's like, same with my dad. And then I don't even know Chinese. When I think about it there must be so much I don't know from conversations I don't understand and stuff. I'd never want to learn Chinese or Taiwanese, besides they're really hard languages and I'd never want to know what the other people in my family talk about. It's all stupid. Sometimes my mum tells me what they're talking about, and it's the most ridiculous stuff.

Well everything I just wrote about now means nothing, what a waste of time...I'm just sitting here anyway.

2 comments? PITIFUL! PITIFUL HYOOOMANS!

....um, anyway. cyanidemint and novacane(boy) and very possible, reboperino. thunderpeel stuck in my mind first, but anything goes, really.

Today I'm going to the Town Fair with Cristen! wooee? What is at the fair, I don't know, but I have a few bucks, oo!

Today I bought something in the Whole Foods market called Penne and Chreese. I mean, i know what PENNE is, but chreese? Trees? :) Fake cheese! I wonder what that'll taste like.

I just remembered, a few days ago I got Dance Dance Revolution in the mail...my brother bought it, although I guess I'm supposed to use it. It's pretty cool, about 70 bucks with shipping and stuff, which isn't too bad...you get the game and the dance mat. Could I possibly get some kind of physical activity out of this? Hehe. I'll have to get back to you on that later...

Anyway, I watched the two hour special on the telly. I thought it was nice. There was a dude who wore a Radiohead shirt. That made it a bit cooler. I don't know who he was, but he was sitting next to Fred Durst. Hmm. Immediately I was like "RADIOHEAD SHIRT!" and pointing and stuff.

But...ANYWAY, that's not what it's about. I wonder how much money they'll end up raising. I liked the part when they showed footage of people in differnet European countries having a moment of slience, it was kind of eerie, but shows how much people have been effected that don't live in the US, I guess.

Blue Domino still seems like the best place for web hosting. I'm still not sure of a name though. I'm trying ot make a list of Beck related words that wouldn't necessarily be automatically associated with beck, but if you like Beck then you'll get it...yeah? Like here's stuff:

thunderpeel
tasergun
cyanidebreathmint (well that might be too long)
hollowlog (that looks weird)
blackhole
sissyneck (what does that mean?)
ramshackle
cancelledcheck
static (that sounds too general)
bogusflow
diskobox (that song is so cool...if you're wondering. :))
forcefield
gowhereuwant
paynomind
high5
lemonade
minus
novacane
lampshade
schmoozer
whiskeycancan

Okay, that list is definitely too long. Those are just song names, mind you, I didn't get into lyrics or anything. Crap. Well it'd probably be easy to narrow that list down a bit, but tell me what you think anyway.

CONAN'S ON THE TELLLY!

He's talking about how hard it was to do the first show on Tuesday since the attack...I recorded that, it was pretty weird. It was sad and you could just see how much Conan was...struggling with stuff, trying to find the right words to say and that kind of thing. :P

But anyway, it's FRIDAY! I'd say today was ok in school. I think I did well on all the tests I took. The physics quiz was kind of weird...the first question was about a ball being tossed up and another being thrown down off a building and you have to say where and when they meet, blah blah, I think I got that right. And apprently I was like the only person who got the second question right, which is so stupid because it was easy, I swear. There was a graph of velocity and time and you had to graph the displacement/time and velocity/time graph. It was really a manner of memorizing...stuff. That's what I did during study hall at least. And anyway, everyone had trouble with the displacement/tiem graph but the teacher kind of just went over that yesterday, and in class I don't understand anything but I looked at my notes and...yeah, no problem! I hate it when I get all the EASY crap wrong, and what apparently is "hard" I sometimes get right, once in a blue moon. :P

I got a C on my lab though. Hehe. Well, it could have been worse!

During English we just discussed...stuff. We kind of got off topic and talked about the attack and the twin towers being rebuilt in the future. It was funny though, this was how the discussion went at one point:

"They should build a hexagon shaped building...and call it the Hexagon!"
"That's a cool idea."
"What about square shaped?" Wouldn't that just be...a normal building?
"How about the Rectangle?" My teacher said that...in a kidding way of course.
"They should build it out of rubber! And then the planes would bounce right off..."

It was funny at the time, trust me.

Mm I had CHEESE today...I had more of that yummy pizza. Man! I mean it'd taste good without the cheese too, but..yeah...I shouldn't eat cheese, ya, I know, but foof! PESTO PIZZA is yummmmyyy.

God crappit, my dad is so annoying. As a last ditch effort, I asked him if I could go to the Sigur Ros concert next Wednesday and he kind of said yes and no, so screw that, it's not worth all the arguing. He lectured me for a really long time about stuff that's not even related to the concert, so generally I've learned my lesson to never ask him for anything. I mean, I knew that already, but I really like Sigur Ros, yeah? I'd like to see em.

Anyway. I don't wanna get any more into that, it wouldn't matter really.

Well today it rained a lot and it was cloudy all day...yay! I love that. The sun can poo it! POO ITTT!

The getting-my-own domain idea is lookin better. At least my mum thinks it's a nice idea. Wooee. I dunno what to call it though. Yeah, that's like my biggest roadblock...what do I call it? :P

God I'm TIRED. I have to study for stuff...lets see, tomorrow I have a test in Russian and history, and a quiz in physics. I guess that's not so bad. I had my precalc quiz today, I didn't finish it. I'm SLOW! :(

Ah...not much else to say I think. Yeaaah. I wanna go sleep sleep.

Jesus christ, I was looking at referrers for my beck site and one linked to someone's inbox! And I can read the person's e-mails. Apparently the security isn't very good on this site. I mean I shouldn't read this person's e-mails, but I'm curious to see who it is. Then again I probably don't know em. Nevermind.

Jeez, this morning I woke up at like 4 AM to pee. I had to pee so badly that initially I COULDN'T pee...you know what I mean? I think my bladder must be not liking me too much. I don't want my bladder to explode! Or...my kidneys...or..any of that other important stuff. Remember that episode of the Simpsons when Grandpa Simpson had to pee and then his kidneys exploded? Hehe. Um.

Okay, now my Beck site works? I mean...the free websites will be discontinued on October 7th, but it wasn't working so I figured mine was dead already. Oh well, still got a few weeks. I thought what would be a nice thing to do would be to set up my own domain somewhere, like beck.nu or something Beck related, and host other Beck sites. Or if you're my friend, I'll host your site (cos you know, there are SOO many of you out there...ha) and have a great big happy community of people who love me.

...or something. Wait. You can't buy love...NEVERRRR...but I think it'd be cool if a bunch of my friends and I could set up something. Then again we've semi-discussed this before and never really did anything. Money...so precious! The idea of blowing $200+ on a website for a YEAR seems astronomical to me, but then through allowance I get...a lot more than $200 a year. Still. $200 could buy me a lot of Pocky! (Pocky is a yummy Japanese snack if you're wondering...and it comes in so many flavors! Buy some Pocky today!)

I got an e-mail from Nevin Martell (who wrote that book about Beck) and I thought that was cool...I must have put something on my Beck site about it, and there were like 2 covers for the book but he decided to change it at the last minute...and I bought that book in part because my site is mentioned and FOOPer, I'm still a bit angry, you understand. It wasn't even like a great big site but there are only so many things in my life I can be proud of...when I think about it, there ISN'T much to be proud of. I can think of many things not to beb proud of...

Today in gym we played frisbee baseball. I wouldn't call it fun, but definitely better than REAL baseball, I mean, frisbee's have more air time. Unless you chuck it into the ground for some reason. I guess it's a joky in my class that I hardly speak, cos today the teacher said...something to me...oh yeah he handed me a frisbee, and he said to the class something in the line of "By the end of the year, I'll have a real conversation with Robyn"...HHAHAHA guffaw I laugh. At least I wasn't in a bad mood or I could have taken that the wrong way. Maybe we WILL have a real conversation, but I kind of doubt it. :)

We have this new football field, and it's made of fake grass and crap, and there's all this rubber crap on the field. It's kind of like dirt. It makes the field kind of springy, but it's gross cos it's wet in the morning and sticks all over your shoes and on the frisbees that land on the "grass"...hmmmmmmmmhmhmh well supposedly the rubber crap is supposed to settle out at some point.

Physics...still poop.

History is...weird. People in my class are annoying. There is a really big difference between CD classes and H/AP classes in this sense. These people just don't know when to stop talking and give the teacher some form of respect. And it's not like my teacher is annoying. She doesn't have enough authority over the people in my class though. She's not scary or anything. Hmmm. And there's a guy in my class who doesn't really say anything, kind of like me I guess (how sad) and there's this guy who keeps annoying him during class and it annoys me too, cos I don't really understand why anyone would do that, yeah? That's me, I've got a HEART of GOLD!...

Well, at least 18 karat. Maybe.

I ate eel today! In school! (I put it in a thermos)...and then I came home, and ate some MORE!...eel. And then I ate an orange. And then I ate a banana. And then I ate this little pasty thing I got from the Minamoto Kitchoan. And then I ate...something else from there, it's like a bean thing..thing...no, something, I dunno, it's yummy. Do I have homework to do? Why am I here? I feel like all my friends are busier than I am, so what am I doing? Hm.

I need mittens...NOW! MITTEEEENS! I was bitten by a kitten wearing mittens. No I wasn't.

I picked a Russian name today...Polina. It wasn't the prettiest or the ugliest name, so hey good enough for me! Written in Russian it's Полина (if it looks like Ïîëèíà then that's not correct. It might look different on your computer, I dunno...:P). At least I hope so. I'm supposed to know all the letters now...it's pretty easy to write. The Russian alphabet isn't that hard either, it's very phoenetic. Still, reading words goes very sloooowly. :P

Last night at around 9:15 PM, I'm lying on my bed thinking "Ooo maybe I'll go to bed early, yeah!" and then...I hear something. Strange. My radio was on, so I turn is off and HOLY JESUS CHRIST I hear the DRUM LINE of the marching band! What is this? I mean...COME ON I can't escape the terrors of marching band even in my own home? Like quitting wasn't enough. Really, at that moment, I was really angry! And I don't really get angry a lot. Because hearing the drums reminds me of marching band and I hated it for my own reason...some of you know, yeah? I don't live right nex to the school...I live pretty close, I can grant you that, but I'm going to assume the drum line was practicing on the field and that itself is faaarther away, and...JESUS! I hope that doesn't happen again.

GOD my computer is crapping like...CRAP! CRAP! STOP DOING THAT FOR CHRIST'S SAKE GAARRRG!...

Anyway, let's wish Cristen a happy 16th birthday. WOOEEE *throws confetti*...actually, to be completely honest, I don't have any confetti, but ANYWAY! GOD CRAPPIT this is crapping..HUH...okay there it goes.

I'm surprised my computer hasn't exploded yet.

I'm still mad at freespeech. There was no warning that they would just cancel everything! Sheesh. If I had known I wouldn't have spent that time making a new page...oh well. At least I didn't spend hours scanning Beck pictures that no one would get to see anyway...

the title track of ágætis byrjun will be in the cameron crowe film, vanilla sky. the thriller will be premiered in america on dec 14, starring tom cruise, penélope cruz, kurt russel and cameron diaz. sigur rós have rejected such offers in the past but when asked why they accepted this one, orri said "crowe is a good director. also, the music in the movie is very cool. songs by the beatles and radiohead will also be in the movie."

That's cool...I guess. I mean I don't plan on seeing the movie, but the music sounds cool...oo.

M...hey today in gym class I caught the frisbee!...once...but hey I didn't drop it, that's always good. A girl that I don't really like too much volunteered to be my partner during the practice we did before the actually games. I don't know why she did that, but it was a nice thing to do. . . I guess?

Hm. I'm kind of hungry. Or maybe I'm not. I want to eat SOMETHING.

Isn't it weird that it's already been a week since the plane crashes? It didn't seem that long. Eh. :(

Crap, I'm so tired. Sigh.

freespeech stopped it's free service...then shouldn't they change the name to notfreespeech? Cos unless I feel like paying 100 bucks a year, my Beck site is dead, and that makes me sad. This is really annoying.

MM...anyway. I'm so tired. I wanna diiiieee ARRRghhhh oh well.

I hate physics. No change from the norm...I just don't get it. I mean, I wonder what the point of a LOT of things are, but the point of physics is beyond me.

School wasn't so terrible today, but still, another 4 days? God...crappit.

Mm. There isn't much else to say. School sucked. Like is poop. I eat too much cos I hate school and it's supposed to make me feel better but it kind of doesn't, yeah? :(

There's normal TV on...not just news all the time. OO wow. Oh well.

I had another weiiirrrd dream last night. Yikes! There were like...terrorists at my school. Hmmm. Actually, what I remember is the principal saying that our school was hijacked, which doesn't make sense so I'm going to say terrorists.

The school was supposed to be TAS I think...it was gigantic. First of all, we had gym class and we played basketball. After that I remember changing out my my gym clothes and not hearing the bell ring...I was trying to get to my physics class and all these people were taking elevators somewhere. I decided it woudl be faster to take an elevator (for some reason there were a whole bunch of them) and so I took it to the second floor and it didn't look like school at all. It had turned dark and rainy, and my watch stopped working. Then I heard the principal on the loudspeaker telling us that we were in danger or something. Still, I was thinking that I had to get to my class, so I walked around, although I had no idea where I was. I somehow got to this area that was like a gigantic mall...except it was really nice, there were chandeliers hanging from the ceiling and I was just walking around. I asked some clerks how to get to the junior locker area and they didn't know, and one lady said to look in my book that would say where it was or something? I don't think I ever found out.

At some point I saw my mum...and then it was sunny and not raining, and I wasn't even in school anymore. We were like in some place..that was surrounded by trees and dirt and stuff, like...I dunno. I had a choice to leave by going to the right or left, and I went left first, but that was wrong, so I had something that was supposed to go back in time and then I could go right, and it was really weird.

...anyway! I'm tired. 5 days of hellll to live through. And then NEXT week I think I get a 4 day weekend...I can't wait.

Sundays suck.

But not as much as mondays. FOO.

So I've got lots of homework I COULD do but I really don't want to. Duh.

I had a really weird dream last night. For the first time I can ever remember, I shouted in my sleep. I mean, I was shouting in my dream, and then I actually shouted and it woke me up. It was like 7:30 AM...yeesh. In this dream...I think I went into the future...yeah, probably the future...or I was in some other place. For ever day I spent in that place, 8 years passed by...hm, that doesn't even make sense. First I remember walking around with some friends (Simone and Carol...where did they come from?) in a grassy field and there were lots of trees too. I also went swimming in this man made lake and waterfall, it was really pretty...um...and there was this other weird thing, this person was after me. I don't think they wanted to kill me but I was really afraid of this person, and he (or she?) could morph into any other person, so I didn't know who the person was. I found out the person was posing as this lady that I thought was my friend, and when she showed her real face I ran like hell...and Cristen was there too (that was weird) and we were in a train station maybe? There were lots of stairs and we ran like nuts, but the person was right behind us. And Cristen managed to hide herself in the ceiling or something and I was standing there and we tried to distract the person that was after us, and I shouted HELP and then I woke up. Weird, no?

The other dream I had was really messed up as well...not AS messed up. Hmmmhmhmh.

Go here! More people need to get clicky..click click!

*Yawn*...maybe I should go back to sleep.

Can you tell me whether or not my Beck site works? I uploaded something to it and it won't load...

Anyway. The weekend is too short. I haven't done any homework, and I highly doubt I will. I think I have to redo my physics homework because even though I finished it, I didn't do it the way the teacher told us to because he only told us on Friday. I mean, it took me all week to do! And then he tells us this easy way to do it. Sigh. Well not really easy, but...this is annoying.

Why won't my stupid Beck site work? I redid the index page so it would look nicer and not too crappy...now it won't work...

Why isn't anyone ever online? Then again, who is "anyone"...there are only a few people I guess I would care are online but it's like I am completely alone. It's like nearly everyone fell off the face of the earth. Then again it doesn't matter that much because there isn't anyone that I really, really, REALLY enjoy chatting with online. I know some of my friends read this and don't take that the wrong way, but I'm sure you'd say the same about me, and if you wouldn't, then I dunno, I'm not that amusing...

It's a good thing I like hanging out with my mum, because then I would be bored out of my mind...not just bored, I mean crazy. Who else would I talk to? The wall? Maybe that would be good.

I really shouldn't complain about stuff. Oh well.

Isn't this sad?

I ate so much today.

Anyway. The beginning..I had two VERY strange dreams last night. One was terrorist related, and the other was just reaaaaalllly weird, but ANYWAY! The first dream was weird, I think I was in a mall with some friends, and these guys cam ein with guns and told us to give them money...yeah, that sounds more liek buglars but they weren't really, but they DIDN'T take our money and they had these giant SUVs. And...some other machinery...and they were like running over people. It was weird, man! Not like scary, more like "Huh?" And then we escaped by jumping out of a window and swimming to the shore (we were by water? I dunno)...and that was it. HUH? Weird...

The second dream I couldn't even begin to describe, but there was a dude who died and came back to life...and wanted to kill me or something? Cos I kind of killed him? Um.

Yeaaah, so for LUNCH, my mum and I went to a yummy Indian restaurant...it was a BUFFET! YAY! And then we went to Edgewater. There's a gigantic American flag hanging over the George Washington Bridge. Well...kind of over it. Kind of not. If you saw it you'd know what I mean. You can see white smoke rising from where the Twin Towers were. :(

But I was generally in a good mood. My mum and I went to Mitsuwa and Kinokuniya, where I got Rockin On with Bjork..and there's Radiohead and Beck in there, yay! We got lots of yummy stuff at Mitsuwa, lots of nice desserts from the Minamoto Kitchoan (I may have spelled that wrong, but anyway they make nice desserts with red bean and jelly and fruits and stuff) so we sat somewhere by the edge of the Hudson river and just sat there eating. Oo. Oh yeah, we also got some postcards. Most of them with any pictures of the Twin Towers are gone, but we found a handful so we got...those.

I'm going to eat a cookie...yummmm...

Foof, I just spent more than an hour scanning and editing Bjork pictures. I hope bjork.com could use em, or I'd be kind of annoyed!...well I shouldn't be, I could have made the whole process a million times easier if I cut the pictures out of the magazine but I kind of wanted to keep it intact. :P

WHY THE HELL ISN'T HOTMAIL WORKING! ARGH it crashed IE then Juno then IE again...this is so annoying. Poo it.

Anyway, I'm in a great mood, ding dong! Um. I dunno what that was for. School was okay, it rained most of the day so we didn't have to go outside and play frisbee in gym class. I went into the weight room and did leg extensions the whole time, and then it felt funny to walk around. We had a choice of playing kickball or going into the weight room and the teacher said "If you don't think you're going to participate much in the game, I suggest you go to the weightroom," and no one was getting up so I got up, and this kid laughed...not really at me, but just that someone was getting up I guess. He's a bit strange. Well I hate kickball, so FOO! Yeah.

I got two Bjork books from amazon.com yesterday, Army of She and Bjork. They're both nice books. Army of She is very interesting I think, it's like a long essay. Or a short book. Hm. It's not really a biography, it's like...um...something else? And the other book is a little disappointing in some ways, I heard that a lot of it was just blank pages and it is. It's supposed to be "minimalistic" I suppose, but it seems stupid to have a nearly blank page with the name of a photographer on it and the next page with the picture. Oh well, it's still cool! I think it could have been...better. I feel compelled to stick my own pictures in the blank spaces...

I got a B on my math quiz. WOO yeah I got 1 point above the average, go meeee...

My dad lit some candles today for the tragedy...and there was a candlelight vigil in the neighboring town I think, although I didn't go. Mmwell. Candles are cool. I lit a virtual candle...I forget the URL for the page, but it was cute, little candles floating around and you click on the unlit one. Yuuup.

What else did I do today? Oh I had a really good pizza. "Pizza...pizza has cheese! How could you!" Well...foo, there wasn't too much cheese on it, it was one of those Amy's Organic things, and it was really good. I mean, frozen pizza, pop it in the oven. It had brocolli, tomato slices, and pesto sauce instead of tomato sauce. I would try the soy pizza, but they always put casein in it, which is not good for you, although I don't remember why. It's like glue. Kind of. Not really. I forget. I guess the soy cheese pizza hasn't been perfected yet.

Mmmwell, I think Ben Folds was supposed to be on Conan tonite..but of course no shows are on, so I'll watch the NEWS! :)

Lina wrote this on her website:

How could I possibly go to sleep?

Getting dressed again.
Finding comfort by the keyboard.

Just read this:
Björk dedicated one Song for the people in NYC called "Manhattan". She cried. What is a Björk-gig when so many People died today. Michael, Stuttgart 23.55"

I feel guilty for feeling relieved that she wasn't there. That she is safe. That she is alive. But the world is scary enough right now without the comfort and hope her music gives me. I need her to keep being constant.

The idea of 10 000 people gone is too big to grip.
It makes me nauseous.

Somehow, the only song I can hear over and over in my head is Radiohead's "How To Disappear Completely"...

I'm not here
This isn't happening

:( At least Bjork wasn't in NY at the time...I mean, she lives there now, but...yeah...and How To Disappear Completely would be really sad now, so I wouldn't even try listening to it.

I think Broadway shows are resuming today, and I'd think it's hard to put on a show, especially if it's a comedy or something. How do you put on a show, you know? It's a job but eh...I dunno..

This is just crazy...some people never learn. Humans just get more terrible...

Z100 has a webcam up which shows the NYC skyline and it's pretty cool. Z100 is so different now, I mean now they don't play as much "annoying" music, and it's interesting to hear them talk about all this stuff because they're not a news radio station, it's not like...well I dunno, I was listening to NPR and the tone is just different with the two radio stations. Maybe more...normal? Conversational...down to earth...yeah. And then every now and then they play a song that I've never heard before on Z100, or ever in general...

I never knew there was a radiohead.org...now I feel stupid. Where have I been? Yeesh.



If that doesn't make you smile (or feel...um, something) I don't know what will...interesting shirt. I wonder how he feels about the state of NYC today...

School is hell.

But anyway. Other stuff to talk about first. Diana made a nice pictorial tribute so check that out. Pretty sad really, but then..of course it is, what am I talking about?

Right now I'm donating some money at the American Red Cross site. $100...that'll buy...ten blankets? Well I'm giving $50 and my mum is too. :) Since I'm not donating blood, this isn't too shabby either. My mum said I have O negative..hm.

Bjork is on the cover of CMJ...I think if I type it it's less likely I'll forget...

I got an interesting e-mail from Karen:

>
>TRIBUTE TO AMERICA
>
>The following, from a Canadian newspaper, is worth sharing.
>
>Its subject is "America: The Good Neighbor"
>
>Widespread but only partial news coverage was given recently to a
>remarkable editorial broadcast from Toronto by Gordon Sinclair, a
>Canadian television commentator. What follows is the full text of his
>trenchant remarks as printed in the Congressional Record:
>
>"This Canadian thinks it is time to speak up for the Americans as the
>most generous and possibly the least appreciated people on all the
>earth. Germany, Japan and, to a lesser extent, Britain and Italy were
>lifted out of the debris of war by the Americans who poured in
>billions of dollars and forgave other billions in debts. None of these
>countries is today paying even the interest on its remaining debts to
>the United States.
>
>When France was in danger of collapsing in 1956, it was the Americans
>who
>propped it up, and their reward was to be insulted and swindled on the
>streets of Paris. I was there. I saw it.
>
>When earthquakes hit distant cities, it is the United States that
>hurries in to help. This spring, 59 American communities were
>flattened by tornadoes. Nobody helped.
>
>The Marshall Plan and the Truman Policy pumped billions of dollars into
>discouraged countries. Now newspapers in those countries are writing
>about
>the decadent, warmongering Americans.
>
>I'd like to see just one of those countries that is gloating over the
>erosion of the United States dollar build its own airplane. Does any
>other country in the world have a plane to equal the Boeing Jumbo Jet,
>the
>Lockheed Tri-Star, or the Douglas DC10? If so, why don't they fly them?
>Why
>do all the International lines except Russia fly American Planes?
>
>Why does no other land on earth even consider putting a man or woman on
>the
>moon? You talk about Japanese technocracy, and you get radios. You talk
>about German technocracy, and you get automobiles. You talk about
>American
>technocracy, and you find men on the moon-not once, but several
>times-and
>safely home again. You talk about scandals, and the Americans put theirs
>right in the store window for everybody to look at. Even their
>draft-dodgers
>are not pursued and hounded. They are here on our streets, and most of
>them,
>unless they are breaking Canadian laws, are getting American dollars
>from
>ma
>and pa at home to spend here.
>
>When the railways of France, Germany and India were breaking down
>through
>age, it was the Americans who rebuilt them. When the
>Pennsylvania Railroad and the New York Central went broke, nobody loaned
>them
>an old caboose. Both are still broke.
>
>I can name you 5000 times when the Americans raced to the help of
>other people in trouble. Can you name me even one time when someone else
>raced to the Americans in trouble? I don't think there was outside help
>even
>during the San Francisco earthquake.
>
>Our neighbors have faced it alone, and I'm one Canadian who is damned
>tired
>of hearing them get kicked around. They will come out of this thing with
>their flag high. And when they do, they are entitled to thumb their nose
>at
>the lands that are gloating over their present troubles. I hope Canada
>is
>not
>one of those."
>
>Stand proud, America!
>
>This is one of the best editorials that I have ever read or heard
>regarding the United States. It is nice that one man realizes it. I
>only wish that the rest of the world would realize it. We are always
>blamed for everything, and never even get a thank you for the things
>we do.
>
>I would hope that each of you would send this to as many people as you
>can
>and emphasize that they should send it to as many of their friends until
>this
>letter is sent to every person on the web. I am just a single American
>who
>has read this, but I SURE HOPE THAT A LOT MORE READ IT SOON.

It's pretty interesting, isn't it?

Anyway, school sucks, but there's not much point in me talking about that cos...it really doesn't matter. I mean, I'm just real strange I think. I kind of hate it. I hated walking home too. Some people shouted at me! I don't know why, I'm pretty sure I didn't know them. This has happened before...what is wrong with these people? I mean, it's not a nice gesture. I'm just walking home, what's the big deal? The first day I walked home with Aliza a lot more people were making noises at us from their cars...? Sigh.

I hate gym. The teacher must think I'm an idiot. Before class started he asked me if I understood what he was talking about, like getting involved in the game and doing stuff, and I said...yeah...I DID understand. Just because I don't do something doesn't mean I don't understand. But I'm the only person like that I think. So. That's great. I wanted to die after class finally ended. We were playing ultimate frisbee..I used to LIKE that game. I really did. In Taiwan I remember playing it, the way we did it the girls were against girls and boys against boys, which I think made it more fun, but now it's just like some really bad torture. I'm not going for the stupid frisbee, what's so hard to comprehend? I caught it once and I had no idea who to throw it to. My mind doesn't work that fast, that's why I don't like sports, I mean you have to think fast and I never have any idea what to do. It's kind of late to work on that NOW, so I think "screw it"...can anyone understand what I'm talking about? I'm the only person in my gym class with some kind of mental retardation as far as sports playing ability goes. Why doesn't..SCHOOL understand that gym class is like band and art, as in you take it if you enjoy it, it's a skill that you don't have different levels for. Everyone is treated equally when it is obvious that everyone is NOT equal. I know I sound like I'm making a big deal out of such a trifle thing, but I'm only getting older, and it gets worse every year generally, except maybe in Taiwan when gym may have been fun.

My mum bought tons of newspapers today. She couldn't get any yesterday, they were all gone I would suppose, but now we have some...yay...lasting memories. :P

Yikes...there have been so many stories of close calls and stuff. My mum told me about someone who slept late, so he was like trying ot get to work in the twin towers and then he finds out what happened, that's freaky.

Cristen...SHIN splints..okay, i've like never had that before, but yeah it feels like something that would be called shin splints. Cos it feels splinty. Hehe. Good description, yeah? How would I walk any other way without using the back of my foot first? hehe.

Rebbie...I told my mum about donating blood, and she told me you have to weigh a certain weight...she weights less than 100 pounds! Yeesh. I definitely way more...I gained back the weight i lost while I had stitches in my mouth, OH well.

I will say that eating made me very happy today after school. There's been lots of stuff bothering me (besides all this attack on america stuff)...my grandparents are here and they're very annoying, of course they don't know that, it's just the way they act. Well then. I'm full of yummy food. Falafel!

This is definitely surreal. And sad. Another before and after.

I was at Windows on the World (I think that's the name) when I was little, I didn't even know that! I kind of remember. But now I can't say I wasn't in the Twin Towers...well one of them. The Windows on the World by the way is, I think, a restaurant at the top of one of the towers where you can see...lots of stuff. I remember looking out the window once and being totally freaked out. Hey, I was like...in elementary school.

Mm okaaay I guess that's all I have to say for now. Woopee doo.

God it's so hard to concentrate on ANYTHING! This morning I was tired as hell and it's just hard to think of anything besides buildings exploding and people jumping out of buildings and body parts being blown all over the place....okay, maybe it's not that hard to think of something else, but well that's what I'm thinking of. I'm not afraid of more terrorists coming and doing crazy stuff, I guess I'm still thinking "What the hell happened?"

...but anyway, I hate school a lot. Gym class was hell. The teacher figured out my name though. I must really stand out, I'm the only person in the class that looks like they wanna die or kill something. I think. I hate frisbee. It's so useless. The teacher said if I just moved then I could play well...that's like saying in physics, if I knew what I was doing, then I'd do well. And we know I don't...

For the first period of physics the teacher told us why the building may have collapsed...foofoo..and then the second period, I dunno what the teacher was talking about. I still don't understand anything.

In history we just talked about yesterday. We did that in English too. You know what I find moronic? The way all these guys think they know everything, like who did all this, why they did it, what the US government is going to do, and they go "The US should do this....the US should do that..." Do they honestly think they know...everything? Like they think they know what's best for hundreds of millions of people? I don't get it. I mean I'm saying "guys" because no girls in my classes really said stuff like that...

And I just realized the other day how little I say in a day of school. I have opinions, but I don't care to voice them. I mean, that's what I do here, and you see how enjoyable that is, right? I'm not the kind of person who just calls out and stuff, my whole life whenever i do that, it's like I don't exist, and sometimes I find it very strange.

But anyway...I have type O blood. I don't think I can donate since I'm only 16 and I don't have a blood donor card obviously, but I wouldn't mind if they really needed it. I don't think I'm O negative...but I'm O something, right? I would donate money, that's easier.

So anyway...what else to talk about...well, today I really hated walking home. Not sure why. I'm so out of shape, the front of my lower legs always hurt. What is that part called? And then after a while the rest of my leg gets sore. That's pathetic, 15 minutes of walking and by the end of it I'm like...limping. It would be so easy for me to get run over my a car. I remember last year I wanted to have a car plow into me (don't ask) and I just realized, I could run into the road and get hit too. Um...I'm not going to do that, I'm just saying...foo.

I hate English. I mean I have for the past year, and tomorrow I have an in class essay. The teacher gave us the questions, thank god, there are three and we just choose one. I don't know what to do. I mean I have hardly any idea. Stupid book...nothing jumps out...oh well. Essays are stupid anyway. I'm not gonna be a writer when I grow up, and if I suddenly decided to, I definitely wouldn't write about novels and crap.

I wonder if there's microscopic crap floating around the air in NJ. Diana said that there are fumes in her house...and it smells. Yum. Toxic air...never good.

Look at these pictures (courtesy of Rebecca's dad's friend's brother). God that's freaky. I mean it's not even really really close, but it's a lot closer than I'd wanna be! So much smoke. POOF!

Diana told me that when she stepped out of her house (in Brooklyn) she could see and smell the smoke and see ashes...yikes...that's freaky. I wouldn't want to wake up to that.

Well I think I'm done talking about this for now. I'll go to bed and read a bit...oo...

Holy crap.

Well you know what I'm going to talk about...my god, it happened HOURS ago, but...ahh!

Anyway. I guess I'm glad I don't live in NY now. Still, stuff was kinda hectic in school today.

I was in 3rd period when I heard about the World Trade Center being totally destroyed, although it happened when I was in 2nd period...and then for 3rd and 4th period I had physics like usual. The principal gave an announcement on the intercom, and the auditorium was open for people who just wanted to talk to a counselor or something. I was thinking, "Is this really necessary? We're in NJ..." but lots of people in my school have parents who work in Manhattan and a handful must work in the WTC.

So in 5th period (history) we just watched CNN the whole time and jeez it's freaky! Especially the footage of the second plane just crashing into the tower and this big cloud going FOOM! It's funny though, on the different channels they've given this whole tragedy a different name..."Terrorism in America", "Attack in America"...blah blah blah...yikes. This is going to affect everyone! But obviously if you live in like...I dunno, Kansas, then it's not the same as living on the east coast or something. In my class this guy left cos...well I'm not completely sure, but he's like an air ground controller or something and he can fly and airplane? It seems really weird to me because I wouldn't trust him with anything, but there ya go...

Anyway, people started going home and stuff. Tons of people whipped out their cell phones and called their parents. A lot of people were crying. Not TONS but some. I noticed one girl from my physics class, she said he dad worked near the WTC...thats freaky, I mean if he was really close then something probably happened. Another one of my friends was crying just because it's so sad. I've heard some other stories too...one student's dad died, and maybe this other girl's mum died. One person's dad worked in the building and decided to get a coffee 5 minutes before the plane crashed, my god! After that Starbucks would be my savior. And this guy in my English class, his dad was on the ferry going to NJ from Manhattan and he saw the building just...POOF. God.

So needless to say, I didn't do anything for most of the day. Half of the people were gone! And...I just walked home like any other normal day. It's freaky. I mean, what's going to happen now? This is the most terrible thing to happen since...um...well think of some other terrible thing. I don't mean death wise, sure, earthquakes and floods are very costly, but this is something else. Thousands of people are dead and injured. I hope I don't know any of em.

All the explosions and people running in the streets, that was pretty disturbing to watch, but also all the people in Palestine cheering and rejoicing, making the peace sign (how ironic is that?) and looking...happy. How could they? I mean, this is really sick, these kids have these terrible thoughts to think that this is some great thing. It's not just kids, but mainly that's what I saw, and that's really sad. Why would anyone be happy to see all this death and destruction, jesus christ...

And then there's the small detail...today is 9/11/01...nine-one-one? Some strange coincidence? :P

MY STUPID CONTACTS!

...I must have been braindead this morning cos I totally screwed up putting in my contacts and put them in the wrong eyes. And it took me a long time to do it, so my eyes were all stinging and red afterwards. And then...I had to take them out and put them in the RIGHT eyes, more stinging-ness and crap. Ugh.

Um..yeah. I forgot to mention that yesterday a clarinetist from the wind ensemble told me that Mrs. Sloezen (band teacher) was out for my blood. Jesus christ, now she's scaring me! I never bothered her in band or did anything wrong...except QUIT band I guess. I mean, you should be allowed to quit, no? But she's got like really good clarinet players, okeeee, yeah she's fine, the band isn't gonna die without me. I'm not a band nerd. I HATE ITTTTT SOOO MUUUCH!

...um. Yeah. My tummy feels weird.

Last night I called my bro for help with physics. I don't get multiplying vectors. What is the point? Sigh. But anyway, my bro's phone wasn't on when I called him and he called back when I was nice and cozy in bed...argh, so I ended up doing some physics crap. He took HONORS! And he's smarter than me! So why did I choose AP? I'm so stupid. Maybe I can switch to honors, but then I'd have an extra period ever other day. Sigh.

I DON'T WANNA GO TO ANY PORN SITES! Can you tell that to all these people that seem to think I was some HOT TEEN ACTION and keep sending the stupid e-mails to me? KILL EM ALLLLL!

I can't think of anything else to say for now. I'm cold. And my tummy feels weiiird. Probably cos I'm cold. And I have eye gunk. And I'm tiirrreeed. I wanna diiieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

I'm so full of FOOD! Japanese FOOD from Mitsuwa...and desserts and candies. Foof! But I guess it's a nice kind of full...yum!

I got another afrodog..heehee..and some candies. Lookie!


Cute, no? Heehee! Looks like the other dog...except pink, hm. They had a new shipment of them, so the store had all the 5 kinds...but I think I'll just stick with the two I have. :)


Mm...chocolate! They're cute..yummy!


I opened the box, so it looks weird...but it's like chocolate covered caramel balls and there was a cute toy that looks like this...


The one on the left was the one I got. I wanted the fish though..hehe. I think I'll go back and buy ALL OF THEM! HAHA they're so weird and cute.

So yeah! Um..how was school today...it sucked. Gym sucked. I walked around as though my arms were like NOODLES and yeah, I don't have a stupid partner to pass the frisbee with, so maybe I'll just end up being partners with the gym teacher. Wait, I don't want that. ARGH I hate gym. It rained a lot today so maybe the field will be gross and muddy, and then we can stay inside! WEE!

Physics sucks. I HATE it! I don't get it at all! I don't know how to multiply stupid vector things...and why are the variables so confusing? Whose idea was it to maybe "i" stand for x and "j" stand for y...is that even correct? I have a quiz on vectors tomorrow, I think I'll get like a C maybe if i'm lucky, oh well! I don't mind getting a C in physics, but it's still annoying. I can hardly pay attention in that class.

I have an in class essay tomorrow in English. The teacher said we can use our books and notes and crap, but she didn't tell us anything about what the essay is about, so how in god's name am I supposed to know what to highlight or whatever? Well I can't do worse than a C hpoefully.

I walked home...it was raining during last period and I thought I wouldn't have to walk home, but then it suddenly got SUNNY and crap, so I did, and I thought I was going to pass out. Then a few hours later it rains like crazy...like when my mum drove us to Mitsuwa it was raining...and when we drove back home it was raining. Poo. Well I got Cut magazine with Bjork on the cover, and there's also an article about Hayao Miyazaki. Not that I can READ it, but oh well. There were some books about Studio Ghibli movies in Kinokuniya (Studio Ghibli makes the Miyazaki movies and other stuff I think) and the only book they didn't have I think was the one with Laputa which I WOULD have liked, but oh well, not like I'd have enough moolah. I spent 20 bucks on candy and the magazine. :P

And now I have to do a history assignment...make a little poster to encourage people to move to the USA. Hmmm. I'll use Photoshop, won't be too hard, right? Eh.

I slept a lot today. I didn't go out anywhere...I think. Yeah. Cos i woke up at like 1:30 or something, did math homework, ate some Chinese food my mum got (yum!) and then read a bit of this book, "Mad Cowboy" (which I think everyone should read...you'd probably never want to eat meat again if you read it though) and took a nap. I woke up some time..later, took a shower, did more homework, wasted a lot of time staring at my physics book and not knowing what the heck to do, and now I'm HERE. I've been watching The Amazing Race, it's definitely a strange show, I don't think I like it much.

TV is poo.

Why can't I watch the Viðrar Vel til Loftárása video? GARG! Stupid internet being poop...poop poop.

There was a Burger King commercial just on...man that food makes me feel like puking now. Maybe that's good, now I won't eat it. I mean, they've got triple cheeseburgers now? America sucks, I HATE IT I hate it sooo much! :(

And I'm sad cos I have to go to school tomorrow. 5 more days of HELLLLL my god. I need to get some gym clothes. Rargfooffofofooferierfsfdiuqw!!1...:(

I slept a lot today. I didn't go out anywhere...I think. Yeah. Cos i woke up at like 1:30 or something, did math homework, ate some Chinese food my mum got (yum!) and then read a bit of this book, "Mad Cowboy" (which I think everyone should read...you'd probably never want to eat meat again if you read it though) and took a nap. I woke up some time..later, took a shower, did more homework, wasted a lot of time staring at my physics book and not knowing what the heck to do, and now I'm HERE. I've been watching The Amazing Race, it's definitely a strange show, I don't think I like it much.

TV is poo.

Why can't I watch the Viðrar Vel til Loftárása video? GARG! Stupid internet being poop...poop poop.

There was a Burger King commercial just on...man that food makes me feel like puking now. Maybe that's good, now I won't eat it. I mean, they've got triple cheeseburgers now? America sucks, I HATE IT I hate it sooo much! :(

And I'm sad cos I have to go to school tomorrow. 5 more days of HELLLLL my god. I need to get some gym clothes. Rargfooffofofooferierfsfdiuqw!!1...:(

I'm at jsnacks.com, which has..Japanese snacks, yeah? They sell this soda that has a marble stopper in it's neck and I just remembered there was something like that in Taiwan too. I guess I never had to pop the marble in, the seller would do that, but I remember wanting to keep the marble, but the only way to get it out would be to smash the bottle open and I never managed to do that. Does ANYONE know what I'm talking about? Hm. Anyway. Smashee smashee!

They've got Calpis Water, mm. I like that stuff. I don't buy it much really cos I'm only supposed to drink water or juice, but..yeah, it tastes cool. YUM!

Why am I so fascinated by Japanese food?

Choco Flake! I think I've had that ONCE..maybe...it was good. Yay. This is good too. Mm!

How long do you think this took? :P It's cool though, eh?

I think I found out what kind of music Aphex Twin and Phonem and all that kind of stuff is...intelligent dance music? IDM? What the heck does that mean? I was looking at this page at audiogalaxy and found that out. Well now I know. Whatever you do though, don't download the song "Dodgy" by Kid606 because it's kind of painful to listen to. Or maybe you SHOULD download it.

And..that is all I have to say. I've been eating lots of fooood today. ARRRGh no I probably shouldn't. Hmmm...I can eat a peach! Yeah I will.

I love the Odwalla Strawberry C Monster juice drink...YUUUMMMYY I WANNNIIT ALLLL! GAAARRRG strawberry goodness....ehegerefootaloo.

Strawberry "C" Monster™:
A fresh fruit medley of strawberries, grapes (UFW approved), oranges, apples and peaches that provides 2000% of the recommended daily intake of vitamin C in every 450 milliliter bottle.

Doesn't that sound good? Hm.

Hey I took a stupid survey, how exciting.

Name: Robyn
Future Cars: one that doesn't fall apart hopefully. or my mum's white jeep cherokee
Birthday: august 27
Height: 5...something. a half inch?
Eye Color: dark brown
Hair Color: dark brown/black
Nicknames: robbie, neatoperson, pacey, rob
Screenname: roboppy
School: ramapo high school
Pets: nope
Phrase over used: i make up a bunch of words that don't make sense, how about that?
Piercing: nope
Tattoos: nope
Get along with parents: yup
Bed time: school nights around 10-12, on the weekends...um...LATER

THE FUTURE
place to live: not the US hopefully
kids: NOOONE
girl names: noooo!
Boy names: noooo!

HAVE YOU EVER
Ran away: nope
Broken a Bone: nope
lied: well duuhhhh
cheated on a test: hm..proabably, or people were cheating off me
had a medical emergency: not really
gone skinny dipping: no
smoked: no
weed: weed? "have you ever weed" who made up this stupid survey?
other drugs: um.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN
love at first sight: no
aliens: ..kind of
god: no
horoscopes: no
ghosts: no
heaven: no
hell: no
yourself: ..usually no

WHICH IS BETTER
coke, pepsi: they're all bad
deaf, blind: which is better? they're both bad
pools, hot tubs: they both suck
blodes or brunettes: blode? um...who cares?
tall, short: hmmmmeeridunno
one pillow, two: i use one
nikes, adidas, reebok: they all suck

OPPOSITE SEX
what do you notice first: i guess what they look like, sheesh
must have personality trait: ...ummm...what do you mean, if they don't then they're NOT the opposite sex or something? there aren't really requirements to these things...
short or long hair: ..uh?
hate most about them: they're usually...re..tar...ded
love most about them: ...nothing!

LAST TIME
showered: i dunno...not yesterday. HAHAHheaa!
cried: no idea
honestly had a great time with people of the oppostie sex: years ago probably, maybe that summer that jesse and peter came over
Had a great time with a friend: like really good time? seeing CONCERTS is always good

WHAT?
the thing you worship most: worship? um. food! wait no...
The worst song ever heard: thats hard. i dunno
color: what color what? um. blue! i dunno.
movie: I dont really love movies much
Book: boook? oo harry potter. or arry pottah..pottah? poootah? poot! and books about Ender. yay.
Subject in school: i hate all of them
online buds: um...foo
type of music: what is beck radiohead and bjork anyway? mmmhmhmhmh. i like stuff. some normal stuff and some not normal stuff. pretty much anything that people in my school don't like is what i like.
car or cars: ....?
ice cream: red bean. YUM!
soda drink: they all suck
sports: they all suck
holiday: christmas. nice vacation, yeah?
season: winter..summer
possession: i dunnnoOoOOOOOOOOoo gaarafoofoiaersdidpotato

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT
clinton: he was our president
reliegion: i dunno, what do you think about reliegion?
rap: most of it annoys me
oldies: uh.
country: can be really annoying
classical: dont like most of it
hogan running for president: oh god no
all star wrestling: that sounds not good

WHO
makes you laugh the most: i dunno. thom makes me laugh. I COMMAND YOUUU
do you have a crush on: no one. YAY
do you hate the most: everyone. YAY
do you love the most: fluffy the pillow
has it easier guys or girls: they both have sucky lives
do you go to for advice: i didn't know i ever asked for advice
the coolest person: hm
the craziest person: hmm

HAVE YOU EVER
sat by the phone waiting for a phone call all night: no
saved aol converstaions: i think once. or a few times. and i deleted them.
saved emails: some. i haven't read them in ages. ahahah. i should see what they say...
cried over the opposite sex: probably not. yay
got jealous of a girl or guy when s/he is with your guy or girl: huh?
song lyrics: ..what?
plotted how to get them aeway from your guy or girl: ...what?
online site you've been to: huh?
drink: ...my god this survey is retarded

I got lots of sleep today. Maybe too much. I woke up at...1-something...ate lunch, and read a bit, and took a nap? Ummm.

Oh well, anything is better than going to school, right? Well that might not be true, but I mean out of things that I would normally do, it's true.

Today I ate lots of...stuff? And I think my mum and I are going out to an Indian restaurant, yay yum!

I downloaded all these nice electronic songs from here. Yay, I like noise! I like everything! So download....something. I like "1:1" by Wass. I need more Plone-ish stuff. Nothing really sounds like Plone, but a lot of stuff is kind of in the same...vibe. Not as cute-sy though. Another artist that's cool is Phonem, except some (or most) of the songs are really long. Like "1040 STE", although I can't imagine you haven't a crappier net connection than I do so it wouldn't hurt for you to download it, eh? Well you can listen to some stuff on the site...yay!

Okay, now to listen to something completely different...Rufus! He was on NPR some days ago...you can listen to the interview with him and his sister here.

Oo I get to eat now...not that I'm very hungry, but oh well. Maybe I'll get to eat CURRY, one of the best foods ever...

You can download the Space Ghost episode here!...I think. :) Knifin around...cutcutcutcutcut..

I'm gonna get my brother to download a bunch of these...heheheheahaeaeh....:) Conan was a guest! You can get the one with Beck there too...yay!

This woudl be really cool if it was a real music video. You should listen to Unison while looking at the pictures (which are really good, yeesh!) and reading the lyrics...and the dude who drew those drawings has other cool stuff he did on his site. I can draw...STICK FIGURES! So talented, I know...

Space Ghost is SOOO FUNNY! HAHAHEHHEHAEi@!!!!

...Aliza just got Cartoon Network, so she recorded the episode of Space Ghost with Thom and Bjork for me. Or at elast most of it, I think the timing was off...she couldn't find it in the TV guide and it didn't say on their website when the show was on, but it was around 11:30 PM, and anyway I just watched it and it was SO funny! I dunno how it compares to the episode with Beck...but this was really random stuff, weird stuff. Bjork was Space Ghost's wife and he didn't like her or something...um..Thom was just on the show talking and laughing. It was so funny to see and hear him laugh, cos you don't see that often, right? He smiled a lot. At one point he picked a loose string out of his clothes..um...he was funny. Bjork was funny too HAHA like "I have to go use the toilet" or something...Space Ghost said she peed on the sofa. And thought cream cheese packets were her children. Or SOMETHING okaaay my mind is fuzzy, it was just really weird. COOOOL. I wish I had Cartoon Network, those Adult Swim cartoons are strraaaange. There was another episode of Space Ghost after that and then a violent lookin anime called Cowboy Bepop...the BLOOD and GUNS, they're everywhere...

I thought this was funny:

*most wired musician*
the boys have been nominated in the 'most wired musician' category in 'wired'm magazine's 2001 rave awards. voting is online and runs until monday at http://www.raveawards.com. nominees are kid 606, radiohead, richie hawtin, sr and paul oakenfold. everyone get your votes in for sigur rós please! even if you like radiohead! it would be cool if they walked away with it. winners will be announced october 17 @ the 3rd annual rave awards gala.

I like Sigur Ros, but I LIKE RADIOHEAD heeheeeeee..yeaaaah. I think they're more "wired" than Sigur Ros, yeah? :)

Okay...today...school, how was it. It was okay I guess. There was an assembly so I got to miss a period of physics, thank god. And now I'm home, yay! I walked home from school and was so pooped, I just plopped on my bed. I might start walking to school too, how freaky. I live like half a mile away, I bet it'll take me 20 minutes to walk to school, I mean...I'm like a slug! In the morning. It usually takes me 15 minutes to walk home from school.

I ate EEL YAY! Or una don, in Japanese...remember that! Yumyum. And I had my stitches taken out, that took about two seconds. My mouth feels almost normal, yay!

This isn't important, I just want to remember this bit of info:

Woah, just about had a heart attack on monday! I was shitting around getting info for the concert on wednesday and I clicked on a link that took me to ticketmaster. So I went to bjork's concert page and it said tickets for Radio City were on sale so I clicked on it. I am logged in so I put in two tickets and it came up unavailable. I did it again, unavailable, and then again........two tickets for bjork!!!!!!!!!!!!!! For some reason I have two center orchestra seats for friday night! Each monday they release a few tickets for the show ( I am only theorizing). The original sale was monday at 10, so try the time of the week when the tickets you were looking went on sale. Also the day before each show at 10, they release a very small block of tickets for the show! I got madonna twice using this method, and now bjork! AHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!! I am beyond excited! -Vince

All I can say is, poop. I'm in school for god's sake...ugh.

And again, GOD CRAPPIT Bjork was on Charlie Rose on Tuesday, and it's not like I watch that regularly, but I've seen it and it looks...boring (it's a talk show, yeah?)...BUT BJORK WAS ON and its on PBS and that means I CAN (could've) ACTUALLY WATCH(ed) IT and I didn't hear about it until it was too late. :(

Oh anyway...school sucked. It just gets worse, right? I can't believe that it was only the second day. Physics is impossible, Russian is really hard, and my English class is full of the most annoying people...ever...

a sidenote...there's a website where you can buy videos of the Charlie Rose show, hmmm...but it's like $35, poot!

Anyway. English class...ugh, today we made a collage about..something. My group had to make one about work ethic, and I'm not even sure what that is. No one in my group wanted to do anything, it was stupid. I glued some stuff down though. Yay. I hope the teacher snaps one day and realizes how annoying some people really are. SNAAAP! And god Russian is like nothing I've ever heard before. I mean I've barely heard any Russian in my life! I wanted to take German! FOO! But oh well. When the teacher teaches us words, she just says them and we repeat them cos you really can't spell them in letters you know....we learned like 5 letters, woo, I have to memorize those. And my memory sucks.

Mmwell...oo yeah and I got to walk home after school, how fun. I mean it's not that hard to walk home, but foo. I stepped in a hole accidentally and got dirt in my shoe and in my sock cos my sock has a hole in it..yay. Aliza walked with me, she needed a ride home...and I'm like "I'm walking home!" Well I'd much rather walk to my house than hers, if I had to walk to her house I'd DIE.

I got 8 e-mails...and 7 of them were junk. There WAS a point when I never got junk mail, but I don't really remember that far back...sigh. What a crap.

Um...I'm tired. But I'm up. I tried to go to bed early, really! Sometime past 10 PM my friend called for help with the math homework, which is okay, I don't mind helping, but I wish she called earlier. And today I have a piano lesson and I didn't practice at all. Why even go, I don't know...I guess just to have some sort of activity, although it sucks anyway.

I watched the Bjork performance, it was so good! ...I think. Well I don't have it to compare with any other Bjork performance but it's really beautiful, I can understand why people would be crying...and I was just watching it on TV, what if I saw Bjork live? Yikes. She looks so young, it's weird, but her face just looks very...youthful? And her dress was cool. And the music box is cool..umm..yee...yay....zzzzz....FOO god I wanna sleep.

The secret Bjork show took place last night in the same place as the first one, in the Riverside Church in Harlem and was taped for the show Reverb..ooee...coool I can watch that at some point then. :)

GOD...DAMMIIIT!

...oops...anyway. HELLO! I had my first taste of being a junior...ha, it's very unbelievable. But hey it could be worse, I could be a freshman. More on that later.

Anyway, I woke up early as you can see, which I would like to do everyday but I kind of doubt I will. Hm. Well then. First period was gym class. My prediction is that it will be the most horrible gym class ever in my whole life. No friends in that class. It's not full of idiots, but is mainly comprised of...people...that I would never be friends with. So that's not good. START THE DEPRESSION AND AGONY, YEE! (if you want to know, I think gym is my most hated class in my whole life, ever since grade school).

Second period...STUDY hall. Phew. That's nice. Except it's really far away from the gym. But oh well, I can just relaaax...

Then comes double period AP Physics. MAN I'm screwed. The class is full of smart people...duh...I don't really have any friends there either. Well. Kind of. Maybe. The teacher is freaky. In a nice way I guess, but he's been teaching for 40 years so you know, he's seen everything and knows everything...eh...gah. Sure it's nice to have a teacher with a lot of experience, but then it kind of isn't also..well I'm screwed, I had a teeny bit of homework and I don't know how to do it already. :(

After that...um...history. Yeah...I don't really know the people in my class. I mean...okay, generally I take honors classes...I'm not really smart or anything, but that's just how stuff was, but I hate history, so I thought I'd take the normal class, why not? The people in my class are annoooying, jesus christ. I have to work with these people? I'm screwed. The teacher is nice though...she's a new teacher. Woooeee.

After that is LUNCH THANK GOD! I eat alooone. BUT one good thing has happened..I get my table that I've been using for the past two years. It's funny though, I just sat there and people acted like I wasn't sitting there. They took all the chairs I wasn't using, which is okay, but I thought it was funny. I had a yummy Odwalla strawberry smoothie that I got from the Whole Foods Market. My band teacher for the past two years, Mrs. Sloezen, she came up to me during lunch and it really freaked me out. "I'M NOT IN BAND AM I?" is what I thought...and I'm not, phew. But she was like...well, she really wanted me to take band, but no, I know if I take it it'll be like 9th and 10th grade all over again, wanting to die and kill everyone (well I might be exaggerating, but only a little) and..yeah. I just smiled and laughed nervously. She was like "I know you have a study hall! And you can change your English period! Come one Robyn we need you lalalgllbalhaeijhjoisdfdf..asdaniwdopasd" Yeah something like that. My god. Okay, I'll tell you why I don't wanna take band; 1) I dont liek playing in concerts; 2) I don't like skipping class to practice to play in concerts; 3) I dont practice and then I feel like crap during class; 4) I hate sitting in class like a bag of CRAP while everyone else chats away; 5) I hate being the only person who hates band...that is (was) in band; 6) I'm not like the other people in band (except that we play instrumentrs, duh). SO that is definitely enough reason, OKAY? Ugh. She called my parents! I mean, Mrs. Sloezen is a nice person really, shes cool all the students love her, I have nothing against her, I just don't like band, period!

Um...okay, then precalculus came. There are 27 people in my class...it's totally packed. A lot of these people are in my physics class too. Smartoos. Well the teacher is nice, and I have some friends in that class. The teacher said it wouldn't be as hard as we might be thinking, so that's good. I know that CALCULUS is hard though. Foof. It took me forever to do the math homework we got today, although just cos I did it really slowly. It wasn't really that much. I don't remember how to do anything.

Next was Russian. The teacher is kind of weird. I dunno. She could be nice but was like..I dunno, just what you would expect a teacher to be like. Not much personality showing like all the other teachers I had. So far we're just writing letters though, so that's nice. I don't think I'm going to take russian next year though.

Then...English. ANNOYING PEOPLE ALERT! Satan must have been following me, I ended up choosing one of hte worst seats in the class. In EVERY class (well, not gym and study, but those are hardly classes) we've been sitting alphabetically but this time no, so in front of me and beihnd me are there really really annoying guys. This is CP English, if you're wondering...I can't handle AP English, I hate English. English and history, great, no? So the people in my class...freaky. The teacher seems cool though.

And then FREEDOM THANK GOD! I got to go home. Or...yeah. I went to Chef Central to get a thermos, eat some food later on. Yay. Did some homework, ate dinner, did more homework (I had nearly NONE, it's so sad) and...yeah.

I wanna go to bed. I'm so tired. It's already..nearly 9 PM. Crap. I wanna watch the bjork thing. okay, I wanna finish homework, take a shower, watch bjork, go to sleep. Ugh, kill me. Really, DO IT NOW!

If Thom Yorke chose to use his affected diffidence to sweet-talk college girls into bed instead of scaring away reporters, he'd drawl with the consoling sob of Fran Healy.

Scaring reporters? Hehe...um. Hm...Franniiie! He'd never scare people! Right? There's an article about brit bands here...

It's SO EARLY...6:30 AM. Okay, not REALLY early...but wow, I woke up at 6? Hm. I thought I'd feel better this morning if I went on the Internet before school started. And what do I have to worry about anyway? I've already gotten 2 years of torture under my belt, if I was a freshman I'd be totally messed up right now.

I didn't get to watch Bjork on David Letterman yet. Foo! I decided to tape it and attempt to go to bed earlier than usual, so I went to sleep around 11:30 PM. Woow. Super early...hm.

Poo, there was a Bjork contest at yahoo.com and I missed it. Why would I get an e-mail about it NOW if it's already over? Sigh.

I've also decided to wear my Radiohead shirt today...to make myself feeeeel better. YAY. Although today isn't picture day, that's tomorrow. In which I will wear another Radiohead shirt. The one I made. And then. FOO! If I don't get my picture taken tomorrow, then maybe I'll just wear the same thing on Friday...two days for pictures. But really, pictures take like one second.

My teeeth. hhuuurt. I wore my retainer last night. Ow.

Just cos I think this is an interesting picture:



I was looking at her shoes mainly. They're very...they look strange...in a good way? Hm. I really like the music box though.

I was reading the new issue of Interview magazine because Bjork is on the cover (why else?) and it's a nice long interview...interesting pictures. The magazine is annoying though because nearly ever other page is an advertisement for clothing, but they managed to keep the Bjork spread ad-less. In the back of the magazine they showed the prices of the clothing, and one of her sweaters (well not just a regular sweater obviously) was more than $20,000. It was made by the same guy who made the swan dress, which probably cost a lot too. I forget the dude's name though, Marjan P-something-something-owski...um. OKAY nevermind, but GOD everything she wore was so incredibly expensive.

And apparently there were tickets for a secret NY show on sale at some point today. Well this just goes to show what I miss out on when I don't go on the internet as soon as I wake up. Oh well, not like I could have gone, but I'm really sick of thinking about the Bjork concert anyway. Maybe I should just stop thinking of going, cos...that would be easy. Wait, no it wouldn't.

added note

The tickets were onsale at noon...I wasn't even up yet. And they sold out in one minute, 100 tickets on Ticketmaster.com, and the venue is a gallery in NY somewhere? Hehe...eh..hm. The performance is apparently going to be filmed for a TV special, so maybe it will be on video or something...

Ergh. Tomorrow there's school. So what did I do today? I spent nearly 6 hours at my friend Jen's house, cos my mum was fixing her computer...took a long time. Hm. Well. Fun...maybe. Jen was in Japan this whole summer with some relatives and she showed me pictures, looked like fun. She said I could go with her when she goes back in two years, and I don't know. First I though, YEAH OF COURSE but then I thought, well I don't even know these people really. More than 2 months in Japan...is a long time. I bet I'd like the food though.

I feel like I've wasted this whole day away. Now what do I do? Think of those last two stupid questions for my reading project I guess. And get my stuff ready for school. I'm going early tomorrow with my friend Aliza so we can find our classes and stuff. I think we're in one class together. Fuun.

Mouth still hurts. Foo. Jen's family runs a Japanese take out, so her mum brought some food home and I had eel rice..yum! It hurts to eat though. And she had this really good tofu she brought back from Japan...it's not like that tasteless mushy stuff from the supermarket, it's like many thin layers of tofu wrapped in this little roll. It's good! She also had these really yummy pears that she brought from Japan...her relatives or something own a pear farm? Well those were yummy too, except it hurt to eat. I guess tomorrow in school I'll just drink a smoothie, and when I get home I'll eat something. :(

Hehe...this is funny:




Hehehehehehe. Thom is funny lookin, HA! Bjork looks like..um..herself...hehe, well. That must have been fun. I love the episode with Beck, that was great. Hehehehhahahaaaa.

....now back to loathing. forormsmrtewurtqg2838&@&squiggle...

MY MOUUTH ARRRGH THE PAAAAAAIN...

...its okee. I'm still annoyed that I can't eat notmal food...normally. I was very happy to see that the Whole Foods Market had FALAFEL WRAPS so I got one, and to eat it I cut it into teeny tiny bits. And that...kind of worked. WOO! It's soooyummmmyy...and I got lemon pudding. Also yummy. YUM!

Still haven't done those stupid 5 questions.

I saw Ghostworld, it was a cool movie! It was funny...different from what I'm accustomed to...not really a happy movie, but not depressing or anything. Just that now I think this whole world is full of idiots, which is true, but it's sad, isn't it? Not even just weird people, just...stupid...people...being...HUMAN! Not fun to be human, is it.

One more day before school...CRAP! Do I have all my stuff? I have a backpack...some binders that are probably not big enough...well then, I guess I'm set. Wait, I need to bash my head into the wall a few million times, and THEN I'll be at the high school level, yes!

5 people hate my blog? WHY WOULD YOU HATE MEEE! Then again if they hate this blog, I guess they wouldn't be reading this. WOODEEDOOOoee HAHA burn in hell!

...noo..burning hurts! Burning flesh = ouch. Not that I have a lot of experience with that. I just have a little scar from when I stuck my hand in the toaster oven...heh..um.

What's more intruiging is the 9 people that love my blog. Do I even know 9 people? Hm...I guess so. YAY no burning in hell for you! Or anyone else! Let's join hands in harmony and prance around like fairies in a meadow of daisies! I SAID PRANCE!

"tropical temptation...days of our lives"

Jesus christ, that dude who says that in the commercial sounds so creepy. SHUT UPPP!

Anyway! What's goin on...um...more trouble sleeping last night. I did finish Speaker for the Dead last night, really good book! READ IT! Yay...books. Um...yeah, well. No mail today. That sucks. Labor Day my butt. Shouldn't it be called Non-labor Day? Well tonite I'm going to see Ghostworld, that's supposed to be a good movie, right? Woo.

Owwwie my teeth hurt again...sigh. :( I ate some eel today. I hope tomorrow I can chew a bit better...

I got 5 quotes. Not very good. But oh well. Now I need...5 questions. I'm still not totally sure what I'm supposed to ask. I don't have any questions, I dont CAAARE you see?

At the bottom of my summer reading sheet, it says "Be sure to have these notes with you on the first day of school. after review, discussion and oral presentations, you will be using your notes to write an in-class, timed essay."

Crap. I hate oral presentations. I hate them more than in class essays I think. Well...yee...yeah. Kind of. Last year I didn't have to do many presentations. I never do badly in em, but I hate them anyway. I mean I dislike things that I might be good at, being good at something doesn't make me happy enough I guess.

The right side of my mouth hurts more than the left.

Paranoid Android played on the piano sounds really pretty. Download it! It's played by Brad Mehldau. :)

One of my assignments for my summer reading project is to write a one paragraph plot summary. If you've read The Joy Luck Club, you know there isn't really a central plot...so, how do I do this? In one paragraph? Well I wrote something that might be semi-substantial, although it doesn't really tell much about the story.

The Joy Luck Club by Amy Tan is a collection of sixteen stories about the lives of four Chinese women from China and their American raised daughters. These stories illustrate their memories of joy and sorrow throughout their lives while giving a background in Chinese culture. The title of the book comes from the name of the mahjong party started in China by Suyuan Woo as a weekly gathering of four women which she continued in San Francisco with her friends Lindo Jong, Ying-ying St. Claire, and An-mei Hsu. The novel includes their stories of the lives they endured in China along with the stories of their daughters Jing-mei Woo, Waverly Jong, Lena St. Claire, and Rose Hsu. The mothers and daughters learn more about themselves and their feelings towards each other as they tell their tales of death, marriage, divorce, and childhood. The mothers initial desire is for their daughters to become Americanized yet realize that they also want to instill their Chinese heritage in their lives. In the end, the daughters gain an appreciation of their Chinese heritage after listening to the stories of their mothers and themselves.

I hope all that information is true. Then again it didn't take me that long to write...but still. I feel kind of sick, and I know I'm not. But when I got up out of my chair to get some note cards I felt wooozy. Maybe I've been sitting here too long. Or maybe I need to eat more food. I lost 13 pounds this summer, including 2 pounds I lost over the past two days...I guess that's a good thing, not like I'm skinny, but EEEE I want some food! In my tummy! Now!

Another part of my assignment was to make separate index cards for main characters in the novel. I made 11. There are a lot more characters than that, but I'm going to assume that all the husbands and siblings aren't incredibly important. Thank god for Spark Notes, or this would take me forever. Hey, at least I read the book.

And now, if that paragraph is good enough, all I have to do is..."select five quotations (each on separate index cards) which you feel are the most meaningful and representative of what the book is about; be sure at least one or two of the quotations reflect a theme or themes of the book that might be considered 'American' themes"...WAH! What the heck! I'm not even sure what the book IS about. Yay. And I also need to "prepare five questions about the story, characters, theme, writing style or any other element". What does that mean, questions that I have, or I just make up anything? I don't know. :(

Jesus christ, the new Aphex Twin album has 30 tracks. Which means each one must not be very long, eh? Ehhh. Too many songs, I don't want to listen to 30 songs on one CD!

...anyway. My teeth feel a little better today. I had PEA SOUP for lunch, a little better than baby food. I guess. I want eel. Eel is pretty soft, I can chew it. Maybe. Or I'll have to eat....more pea soup...

My dad woke me up at 7-something this morning. I couldn't go back to sleep after that. Why would he do that? He doesn't know how hard it is for me to go to sleep. So I told him and hopefully he understands now that he shouldn't barge into my room at 7 AM and make me wake up. He didn't even want to wake me up, he just wanted to say hello or something? Sigh. It took me a few hours to get to sleep last night/this morning. Partly because of school looming ahead, I'm sure. I had this totally messed up dream about school. I had to take an elevator up 15 floors to get to one of my classes...which really doesn't make sense, and when I was eating lunch it was so crowded and I was sitting next to this kid who doesn't even go to my school, someone from TAS. Hm.

Still staring at this book assignment of mine. Foo.

I'm watching Everybody Loves Raymond right now...I didn't know it was on Saturday nights. But anyway! Yay, now I have something to entertain me...it seems like the whole family took a trip to Italy. Italy looks pretty! I'd like to go there. Except I don't know anyone who lives in Italy. And I don't know Italian. And I don't know anything about Italy. And the food isn't the healthiest stuff in the world. Pooter. ARGH the dude is eating a peach gelato, it looks yummy! What's his name? Raymond's brother? Hmm. I want pasta.

...I took another nap. Well first I read about 50 pages of Speaker for the Dead, which is a very interesting book, although not really like Ender's Game at all. It's...stranger...maybe. It confused me for a while, but I kind of understand it now. Somettimes the characters speak a different language, which makes sense since they live in a totally different time on another planet light years away..

I wrote a poem in my head before I went to sleep. Maybe even better than the "carbon monoxide" poem. Actually, I dislike poems. Poems remind me of school, which kind of associates them with bad things but hey, the government is only trying ot educate the CHILDREN. HEEELLP TEH CHILDDREEEN! Start by giving us money. How did my poem go? The blanket is stale / It smells like my skin / Wrap me up in care / Coddle me forever. That's it. I was all nice and sleepy in my blanket! Actually, not even a blanket, it's just a sheet, if I used a blanket I'd get too hot.

I saw my grandpa today before dinner. I didn't eat dinner cos...well, I can't really. I ate another jar of baby food (apples and mangos) but anyway, my grandpa is really annoying. I know that already, but YOU don't. I guess it could be worse...my mum has to cook for my dad and his dad, and has to sit with them during dinner while I get the privilige of sleeping, and she has to listen to what they're saying. At least I don't know Chinese or Taiwanese. I don't think I'd ever want to learn, because then I'd know what everyone is saying. And I don't want to! :) Anyway, one of the first things my grandpa says is that I need to grow 2 inches more. Um. I dunno where HE'S been these past few years, but I kind of stopped growing 3 or 4 years ago. He kind of doesn't know anything about anything...but really, is this what other people's grandparents are like? I inherited their genes that keep me short, and I'm not a midget, I'm a bit more than 5 feet tall. Nothing wrong with that. My mum told me later that he wants to give me growth hormones. Apparently my cousin took these and he got taller, but it's such an irresponsible thing to do. It's not as though I have a shortage of growth hormones, and taking more than you should leads to many health problems in the future. Look it up. And my dad, he just agrees with whatever HIS dad tells him. It's like they don't care about my health at all...I don't think they do. They don't even care about their own health.

This isn't really a big problem, my family being all strange, but it could be better. My dad's parents are pretty old I think...grandpa is in his 80s, my grandma..um, not sure. And even though they're not really healthy they're still alive and walking about and stuff. My mum's parents are both dead and I can assure anyone that they were better people than my dad's parents could be. It's so sad, I never got to meet my grandma (from my mum's side that is) and I bet she was cool. Foo! My mum's dad, he was nice too, but he didn't speak much English. Once I got sick in Taiwan staying at his house and he tried to take care of me, I don't think it worked so well but I guess he was just as concerned about me as my mum was. Chinese medicine is pretty gross.

Why am I thinking about these things anyway? I can't change anything. "Arms...like...noodles!" I'm helpless...FOOGOO!

Italy is pretty! Ah! PIZZAA! MM!...nono, no dairy! It's funny how much smaller the pizza slices are in Italy, or any other place in the world for that matter. Why do Americans eat so much? Why are food portions so large? It's ridiculous.

Man, look at this crappy poem that Rob's Amazing Poem Generator created out of my blog:

carbon monoxide...yummy! I really
but..anyway, I mean,
if only other languages. My gums! Hooray!
Always nice. and
I take any
Japanese or else well, lest
see, NEW cartoon!But ANYWAY, The less
than 2 months...

...maybe not so crappy. Hmm...my favorite part is "My gums! Hooray!" cos that's...just strange. And VERY Robyn-ish...somewhat. Maybe. Not.

And here's a little survey I found at Mika's blog (notice at the top it says "magic flying fast-food sack!"..heehee!) and hey I've got time to fill out surveys. I'm downloading various Vespertine b-sides...woo!

1) Most attractive feature of a guy is? ...i dont knooow, they all seem pretty annoying
2) Would you date anyone out of your race? well people of a different race are still HUMAN from what I remember, why not?
3) Do you like older, younger or same age guys? umm...i wouldn't date a 4 year old and I wouldnt date a 40 year old.
4) Would you date a guy that smokes? probably not. he can smoke himself to DEATH for all i care (boy am I mean)
5) Does he have to be rich (like have a lot of things, nice car etc)? no
6) Do you prefer taller, shorter or same height guys? i dont think i know any guys who's my height or shorter anyway
7) Do you like guys with facial hair or no? um...i dunno. i didn't know that was an issue
8) Would you want a guy that is or is not a virgin? um...i really dont care
9) Name three important things you look for in a guy? i dont look for stuff in guys
10) Would you date a guy your friend likes or used to like? no. i probably wouldn't like them anyway
11) Short or long hair guys? um...does it matter?
12) HONESTLY, when it comes down to dating a person, do looks really matter? it helps. i'm quite shallow I think
13) Biggest turnoff from a guy? there are too many to name i think. generally, everything that high schoolers do..hm
14) Do you like guys that are built or more skinny? eh, skinny.
15) Do you want a guy who would pay for everything? i would feel bad if he paid for everything. i have some money too. i wouldn't wanna pay for everything if I was the guy
16) Do you think a guy should open & close car doors? ..for himself? um. sure. for me? i have arms! i can open doors for christ's sake!
17) Do you think College is a must? no
18) Do you date guys like the one you just described or it's just a description not reality? ummm...i'm just answering questions here
19) Last guy you flirted with: ..um
20) Last guy who flirted with you: ..um.

Now there's some useless information. WOO

I slept a lot today. Gr. It's nice and all...I mean, I went to bed at 2AM maybe (after trying since 11PM) and woke up at 7:30. There weren't even many cartoons on yet. And I keep forgetting today is Saturday. I never wake up early enough to watch cartoons. I think I was watching that Buzz Lightyear cartoon, and I've seen that cartoon once or twice in my life before and, of course, it was an episode I had seen already. I think it's one of Murphy's Laws, I can remember a few times that happening to me. ITS WROOONG! I want to see NEW cartoon!

But anyway, why would I wake up so early? I had to get a little check-up on my teeth. It took about 2 seconds, a doctor looked at my teeth with one of those tiny mirrors on a long handle. Everything looks good..wee! Still eating baby food, but..oh well. I bought some nice noodles from the Whole Foods Market. They have a lot of Thai food, mmmmmmm noooooodles...CURRY nooooodles. Maybe I will be well enough to eat it tomorrow!

Banana baby food is pretty good. I mean...if you like bananas. If you don't, I guess it won't taste very different from normal bananas.

My dad and my grandpa came home last night. Ooee. I haven't really seen my grandpa yet, I have no idea what he's doing. Sleeping? Um. And my dad is already annoying me, asking me about my school schedule..."Taking Russian?" And then he started askign me why don't I take something else...well, I didn't want to take any of the other languages. My only other choices were French and Spanish. German could have been a possibility, but not enough people signed up for German 1 class. So...Russian it is! And my dad asks if my school teachers Japanese or Chinese..well NO, duh, or else I would take those. Maybe it's not such a stupid question, but it sounded stupid. Hardly any Japanese or Chinese people go to my school anyway. The most asians are Korean, and they KNOW Korean, it's like all the people that speak Korean hang out with each other. It seems kind of strange...

But ANYWAY, I got my revised schedule in the mail today and they changed my English teacher. This happened last year! i was supposed to get Mrs. Adams last year and they changed it, and this year I was supposed to get Mrs. Adams and they changed it...sigh. Well here is the ENTIRE shedule:

Per. 01 - Health 3 (MP3) -- ?
Per. 01 - Phys Ed ---------- ?
Per. 02 - Study Hall -------- Buchichio
Per. 03 - AP Physics ------- Schmidlin
Per. 04 - AP Physics ------- Schmidlin
Per. 05 - US Hist 1 --------- Skvorec
Per. 06 - Lunch ------------- I GET TO EAT HAHAHA!
Per. 07 - Precalc ------------ Mullins
Per. 08 - Russian 1 -------- Simon
Per. 09 - English 3 --------- Nichols

I hope one of my teachers like RADIOHEAD...okay, that won't happen, but if maybe one of them is in their 20s, you never know.