Wow, check out Rebbie's page! Cool stuff....you can listen to her recording from yesterday. YAHOO!
Ah, well today Rebecca and Even have been on my mind. Well, during first period really. I can't believe she met him! But then I can also. WOWza. This is like...if she had met Thom Yorke! But not really. Thom is a bit odd...neh, Thom is cool, but "everyone" knows stuff about him, while on the other hand we dunno anything about Even. She says he's normal though. Well, that's a good thing.
I started forgetting all the happiness after first period. The advisor of the holiday festival somewhat chewed me out during class...honestly I don't remember what I said, but somethign dumb most likely. The teacher isn't mean, she just speaks her mind and it's not like I had any good reason to why I decided not to do the photography stuff I was supposed to do. I just didn't really feel like it, and I didn't feel like I was needed. If I just didn't go to school on Friday none of this would be an issue I guess. I should have stayed home...shoudl have...oh well. She succeeded in making me feel like crap though! Good thing to do to someone with possibly the lowest self esteem in the world, right? Not that SHE knew, so in the end, it's all my fault. Ah...this was my problem last year, thinking everything in the world was my fault and that being part of the world was a burden to life as we know it. But I figured stuff out, that I'm just about as useless as society makes me feel, and society is dumb, so I really don't feel like listening to them, eh?
Well that's my speech 'o the day. I could have made it angrier (GODDAAMMMIT I FEEL LIKE SHIIIT) but I didn't see? I've had time to cool down...I wrapped the Harry Potter books for Diana's christmas present and I ate some stuff. Last night I just ate persimmons and cookies. Not a really good mix but today I got home and was like...FOOD! RIGHT NOW!
god..crap...this...realplayer sucks crap! sucks ASS! I've come to like that phrase...sucks ass...it means nothing, but a lot of things dont. it seems to flow well. maybe. but really this realplayer thign isnt workin well, i guess i'll wait until rebecca sends me the tape and then I can do stufffff with it. woo!
physics still makes absolutely no sense to me. i'm really quite screwed for my test on wednesday. but i dont care that much. i'm good at not caring about stuff i probably should care about. but what SHOULD people care about is what i'm wondering. people keep telling me "ooohh ya gotta worry about yer school work and make sure you lookgood for colleges so they want you" like i'm a pig on a farm that wants to go into that shiny truck so i can be made inso pork sausages fit for mcdonalds. alright...not really, but think about it. i think about this stuff perhaps more than i should, but seeing as there is no universal limit to how much one can wonder about life in general, everything that i think has been shaped by this place i live in and i dont like this place i live in so most of the crap that has filled my head for the past 16 years and been loads of useless crap (could I have said that any more eloquently?). and for some reason just altely i've been thinking differently, but it's not that great because i'm helpelss to do anything about...anything. unles i want to live in a ditch. hey, that could be fun! i'll get myself some ditch buddies and we'll have a grand ol time!
...man this is sad. well then! i was listening to Even last night...actually, I always do, so it's not much of an even in the life of Robyn. I'm making it a nightly thing as my lullaby to bring me to sleep. Zzzzz...
oh yeah, one more note, this program is cool. It combines AIm, ICQ, msn messenger and yahoo messenger (which I dont use, but ANYWAY) into one nice program! truly spiffy.
Ah, well today Rebecca and Even have been on my mind. Well, during first period really. I can't believe she met him! But then I can also. WOWza. This is like...if she had met Thom Yorke! But not really. Thom is a bit odd...neh, Thom is cool, but "everyone" knows stuff about him, while on the other hand we dunno anything about Even. She says he's normal though. Well, that's a good thing.
I started forgetting all the happiness after first period. The advisor of the holiday festival somewhat chewed me out during class...honestly I don't remember what I said, but somethign dumb most likely. The teacher isn't mean, she just speaks her mind and it's not like I had any good reason to why I decided not to do the photography stuff I was supposed to do. I just didn't really feel like it, and I didn't feel like I was needed. If I just didn't go to school on Friday none of this would be an issue I guess. I should have stayed home...shoudl have...oh well. She succeeded in making me feel like crap though! Good thing to do to someone with possibly the lowest self esteem in the world, right? Not that SHE knew, so in the end, it's all my fault. Ah...this was my problem last year, thinking everything in the world was my fault and that being part of the world was a burden to life as we know it. But I figured stuff out, that I'm just about as useless as society makes me feel, and society is dumb, so I really don't feel like listening to them, eh?
Well that's my speech 'o the day. I could have made it angrier (GODDAAMMMIT I FEEL LIKE SHIIIT) but I didn't see? I've had time to cool down...I wrapped the Harry Potter books for Diana's christmas present and I ate some stuff. Last night I just ate persimmons and cookies. Not a really good mix but today I got home and was like...FOOD! RIGHT NOW!
god..crap...this...realplayer sucks crap! sucks ASS! I've come to like that phrase...sucks ass...it means nothing, but a lot of things dont. it seems to flow well. maybe. but really this realplayer thign isnt workin well, i guess i'll wait until rebecca sends me the tape and then I can do stufffff with it. woo!
physics still makes absolutely no sense to me. i'm really quite screwed for my test on wednesday. but i dont care that much. i'm good at not caring about stuff i probably should care about. but what SHOULD people care about is what i'm wondering. people keep telling me "ooohh ya gotta worry about yer school work and make sure you lookgood for colleges so they want you" like i'm a pig on a farm that wants to go into that shiny truck so i can be made inso pork sausages fit for mcdonalds. alright...not really, but think about it. i think about this stuff perhaps more than i should, but seeing as there is no universal limit to how much one can wonder about life in general, everything that i think has been shaped by this place i live in and i dont like this place i live in so most of the crap that has filled my head for the past 16 years and been loads of useless crap (could I have said that any more eloquently?). and for some reason just altely i've been thinking differently, but it's not that great because i'm helpelss to do anything about...anything. unles i want to live in a ditch. hey, that could be fun! i'll get myself some ditch buddies and we'll have a grand ol time!
...man this is sad. well then! i was listening to Even last night...actually, I always do, so it's not much of an even in the life of Robyn. I'm making it a nightly thing as my lullaby to bring me to sleep. Zzzzz...
oh yeah, one more note, this program is cool. It combines AIm, ICQ, msn messenger and yahoo messenger (which I dont use, but ANYWAY) into one nice program! truly spiffy.
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