The title is self explanatory. I've been inside for two days now as I haven't had much need to do anything. Except I do have a big research paper due in a few weeks that I've barely started. I really need to focus more on school work but I've never been very interested in school. Despite that, I've done well enough in it to get this far. I know I'm lucky to be going to college and, heck, I'm lucky overall for being alive with all extremities intact. But no matter how much you have, you'll always want more. :(
So what do I want? No idea. …okay, loads of things. Talent in something. Skills that I'm not getting right now. To actually read craigslist job postings and think I can do that!
I don't see how I'm going to be able to do anything in this world.
Ultimate dream…write simple nice songs and not be afraid to play them and make people happy. Oh, and to be happy. Not that I'm unhappy. I'm one of the happier people that I know, although food puts me in odd extremes. But generally, I don't get extremely mad or angry. I can be extremely happy, depression doesn't happy much. I guess I'm lucky. I don't know what I'm looking for at this age.
I'm too unproductive. I haven't figured out what use I am on this planet. Okay, that's a tad bleak. Well. Yup.
There's a guitar I want. It'll take a while to save up for. It would be easier if I just didn't eat for a few months but that won't really work. Food money won't translate to guitar money.
Money is ugh.