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November 7, 2004

human pastry puff

I'm going to turn into a human pastry puff if I don't start thinking about how most of the food I'm eating is increasing my chances of getting diabetes. I ate so much today (and yesterday) that I'm not sure where to begin. I went back to NJ Friday afternoon and arrived back here today at around 5:30. I strolled by Au Bon Pain, even though my plan was to not eat for at least 24 hours. I never go to Au Bon Pain so I'm not sure what compelled me to. And now I know they sell baked goods 50% from 4-6PM. Damn. However, now that I'm looking at the ingredients, I don't think I'll buy anything from there again. Unless they have a pumpkin muffin.

What tends to send me over the edge into feeling un-wellness is drinking a lot of water. Yeah, it fills me up and then makes me feel like puking, but despite that, I still have the desire the eat. Obviously I'm not hungry, but I'm just...piggish. Why can't I stop? How was I ever a raw foodist? WHAT'S GOING ON?!

Mm. Well. I've seen The Incredibles twice already: Friday night with my mum and last night with Sam, my new roommate. Now I know there's a movie theater a 15 minute walk away from here by the WTC site. It's a really good movie and I'd hate to spoil it so just see it. Yup. SEE IT. YAY MOVIES. I don't watch movies very much and as they cost $10.50 here, I don't think I will.

Last week I tried to eat less. I TRIED. And I semi-succeeded. I ate way too much over the weekend (on Halloween I made myself pancakes and ate a crapload of candy and some ice cream with CJ as we unsuccessfully tried to see the parade). Monday I ate a persimmon and an egg, Tuesday I ate some candy and stuff from my food lab (lots of fish, mashed potatoes, some rice...okay, a lot gets made in that class), Wednesday I had 5 bananas throughout the day, Thursday I ate a crapload of little sandwiches that I got from my new student seminar spring session advisement thing and ice cream, and over Friday and Saturday I just ate too much. If I can I'll try to fast today and Monday but I seem to be very bad at that. Ugh.

Weight must be lost! Diet must be changed! Sugar intake should decrease, but that's usually what I crave.

It's annoying to be obsessed with food in a stupid way that I have yet to be able to relate to with anyone else (my writing has been steadily worsening over the years, I think) but I guess it's better than what most regular girls my age worry about. School. The opposite sex. That seems to be it, mainly. I'm worried about becoming an obese diabetic, which is a valid thing to worry about. Right?

Um. I have issues.

And I want to see Magnet perform. That and worrying about food are daily thoughts. What is semi crazy is that the week that Magnet is playing in CA (12/12), I don't really have any classes. Cruel fate. If I were super rich I guess it wouldn't be a hard choice to go.

Man, what else happened this week? Um. Well! My roommate moved in so my room feels less empty. We're both a bit food obsessed but she dances and is almost surely healthier than I am. Or at least more fit. I guess despite all the crap I eat I may be semi-healthy.

Today: need to fast!

November 16, 2004

alive and feelin' fine

For some reason, right now I'm thinking about snow and how nice it is to walk through a blizzard and be surrounded by whiteness. And I'm thinking about the music that would go along with such walking.

A lot has happened in the past week, most likely. I neglect this blog because...well, I know not a lot of people read it. But I did spend time designing it and such, but the content? Where is it? Doh.

I'm listening to Rufus Wainwright's new album, Want Two, right now. I first heard Agnus Dei when I saw him play at John Harm's Center. It was absolutely beautiful then, but the album version is just cathartic. This is good walking-through-snow music. Play at full volume with headphones.

So what happened this week? Well. I don't remember a lot of it, unfortunately. I write a lot of stupid stuff in my livejournal but I'd rather not reread it. I'll summarize in convenient bullet form:

  • Visited Vassar, saw friends, saw the Rocky Horror Picture Show, was somewhat horrified
  • Walked through my first snowstorm of the season in Poughkeepsie
  • Ate a really bad slice of pumpkin pie, courtesy of the Vassar ACDC
  • Made ice cream with my mum for the first time, made of milk, heavy cream, honey, egg yolks, and ginger
  • Did interning for Filter twice (Mondays), acquired craploads of CDs and new music loves (right now, Elefant and Moving Units)
  • For Filter interning, ventured into the Lower East Side by myself and found out it's deserted at 9:30 PM, which doesn't make it very threatening
  • Ate a lot of muffins that were either pumpkin or carrot flavor; have to figure out a way to cut down muffin consumption
  • Ate at three places in Chinatown on Friday...during lunch time
  • Decided I really love music more than anything else, ie, more than food

Okay, I have to read some more about food and cram for a test. Lovely.

November 19, 2004

food blog

I started a new food blog, The Girl Who Ate Everything. Since most of my blogging material seems to be about food, I'll probably post a lot more stuff in there. So if you like reading about food and periodically seeing photos of food, check it out. As for what I'll post in this blog...hm. Let's see. School is winding down, which is cool but and strange since I know I have a big research paper due in less than a month. A cool thing is that I'll probably just have two finals during finals week. I just had my last chem lab today and my last food lab is on December 7th (which I'm scared about since we have to cook a bunch of things on our own!). I probably won't have to take the chem final if I get an A on the next test (which is on Tuesday). So right now I'm most worried about the research paper I have to write.

Music-ing is going well. Listening to Rufus now and will probably go to his free B&N show next Tuesday. I'm not really crazy about going because it's safe to say it'll be packed. I know it's a big store (just went there today) but still...Rufus fans can be crazy. It's not like a Sigur Ros show, haha. And I've seen Rufus about 5 times in the past. But you can't really beat free, and I can get my CD signed. Wee. :)

I bought tickets to see Elefant at the Bowery Ballroom on December 20th. Diana will tag along with me. ;) I'm still looking for someone to see Moving Units with me on December 9th! I really want to see them and perhaps get the feeling of DANCING cos i never do that. And I don't have classes on Friday for the rest of the year...ergrhr weeeEE come on, fun dancey rock ish music. Let's go.

November 25, 2004

happy thanksgiving

My thanksgiving report is here.

On a totally unrelated note, I've been listening to Levy a lot since yesterday. I love music. And food. The things I love the most in the world. Yes.

November 27, 2004

not doing much

The title is self explanatory. I've been inside for two days now as I haven't had much need to do anything. Except I do have a big research paper due in a few weeks that I've barely started. I really need to focus more on school work but I've never been very interested in school. Despite that, I've done well enough in it to get this far. I know I'm lucky to be going to college and, heck, I'm lucky overall for being alive with all extremities intact. But no matter how much you have, you'll always want more. :(

So what do I want? No idea. …okay, loads of things. Talent in something. Skills that I'm not getting right now. To actually read craigslist job postings and think I can do that! I don't see how I'm going to be able to do anything in this world.

Ultimate dream…write simple nice songs and not be afraid to play them and make people happy. Oh, and to be happy. Not that I'm unhappy. I'm one of the happier people that I know, although food puts me in odd extremes. But generally, I don't get extremely mad or angry. I can be extremely happy, depression doesn't happy much. I guess I'm lucky. I don't know what I'm looking for at this age.

I'm too unproductive. I haven't figured out what use I am on this planet. Okay, that's a tad bleak. Well. Yup.

There's a guitar I want. It'll take a while to save up for. It would be easier if I just didn't eat for a few months but that won't really work. Food money won't translate to guitar money.

Money is ugh.

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