Today I went out of my room, even though I didn't have to. GASP! Yes. I thought it might not be very healthy to stay in my room for hours on end (I did wake up this morning at around 10:40 and went to the post office to pick up a package) so in the afternoon I decided to walk down to the lake and read there. By that time however, it was getting a bit chilly and windy, so I didn't stay out very long. I should remind myself to do all computer stuff at night and walking-around stuff earlier in the day when the SUN might be higher overhead. Blah. While I was sitting by the lake, I noticed this squirrel that was rummaging in the trash can nearby. It kept fishing out...peanuts (in the shell). It would take a peanut in its mouth, dig a little hole in the group, put the peanut in the hole, and pat some dirt on top. I thought it was really cute to watch, but I thought it was weird because I don't recall ever seeing that before and I've lived around squirrels for nearly all of my life. I don't usually sit outside to read, though.
About a week ago my mum wrote me an e-mail and in it wrote, "I made it back home at 12:01, felt like cinderella." For some reason I thought that was such a funny thing to say. In a cute way. I would've just said, "I made it back home at 12:01," and left it at that.
For the past few days (3, including today) I've been doing semi-24 hour fasts. That just means I eat one meal a day at the same time. Not a big deal, I guess. I'd think that by doing this I'd be cutting down the amount of food I'm eating, but my mum still thinks I'm eating too much. I probably ate too much today because on my way back to my room from the lake, I stopped by the Retreat and picked up some non-raw trail mix. Ooh, yes. Evil. It had raisins, peanuts, and cashews. As far as I know, peanuts aren't good for you, but I didn't get any weird reactions when I ate them before. Oh well, it shouldn't kill me considering how much trail mix I ate in Disneyland. So what did I eat today?
2 oranges
1 banana
7-8 oz of dried fruit and nuts (the trail mix I bought was 5oz, and I ate a bunch of almonds and some dried figs
1 organic food bar
That's kind of a half cooked/half raw meal, now that I think about it. That's way too many nuts. No more unsalted non-raw trail mix. (sigh)
I kind of have to lose weight before I go to NYC on April 10th since I'm planning to buy food and I don't want to be too depressed by what's on the scale. I shouldn't even use a scale...they just annoy me. But but but. BLAH. I think I have an unhealthy relationship with food, but there's not a whole lot I can do about it that wouldn't involve changing my body chemistry.
I've been thinking something stupid lately (yeah, I do that a lot). Sometimes it kind of pains me when people are really nice to me. It's stupid, yes, but there's a point. Kind of. No one is comfortable enough to be anything but really nice to me. It's not that people would be mean otherwise, but joking around or not being really formal about everything isn't something I encounter much. It's nice how everyone is so...nice, but it would be nice to be on the level of acting like an ass with more people. I have some friends, for whom I'm thankful for, but sometimes I think I'm missing out on something really huge. I just don't know what it is. Would life be any better in NYC?
About NYC, while I was seeing the squirrle bury the peanuts, I thought that if I live in NYC, I'll never see something like that, or get to sit in front of a big peaceful lake (that's full of toxic chemicals though). But that's not really what I'm into, I guess.
Back to what I was saying. The guys who live across the hall are some of the nicest people I've ever met, but they're also some of the most incredibly odd people I've ever met. Actually, I'm not sure what I'm trying to say about them except that it's like each of them is made up of two people...oh, nevermind. Everyone's like that.
Maybe the peanuts are making my brain rot.
- Pitbull::dog
- TD::table cell
- Carter::Jimmy
- Japan::Nihon
- 50::feet
- Streak::winning
- Rifle::gun
- Trap::mouse
- Easter::Sunday
- Mitt::baseball